Chapter 54 I am your asteroid (Part 2)
Jiang Xiuyan's mood became depressed, and her voice even complained: "About a month ago, I found out that she secretly went to the hospital without telling me. I asked her, but she didn't say anything. In the end, I quietly went through her bag. Then I found out she was sick.”
"She was diagnosed with kidney failure a year ago, but she didn't tell me such a big thing!" Jiang Xiuyan's voice was full of disbelief, complaint, and unspeakable sadness, and her voice became choked up. .
"As a result, I have uremia now. Even a kidney transplant can only be delayed. Now I have to go for dialysis every week, which costs about 200,000 yuan each time, two to three times a week."
"It's really annoying. If you had told me earlier, maybe it could be cured? Even if it couldn't be cured, it wouldn't turn into uremia in a year! You tell me, even if I know her condition now, what's the point? What’s the use? It’s not like I don’t have money, and it’s not like I didn’t give her any money, why is she doing this?”
She couldn't help but shed tears, and she was a little angry, but said helplessly: "That's why I suddenly felt a lot of financial pressure before.
Even if I can't cure her, I still want to try to let her live a few more years, change her current situation as soon as possible, and let her live a good life with me while she is still alive, even if it is only half a year or a few months. !
Moreover, although dialysis adds up to only about 600,000 yuan per week, with the drugs and consultation fees, it costs 3 to 4 million yuan a month! Although I earn a lot, I still have to pay rent and occasionally spend money on clothes and bags. After all, I am in this industry. If you dress poorly, customers will not trust your level.
If this continues, I will soon be unable to maintain my savings.
That's why I took the initiative to talk to you and accompany you to the mall when I saw you that day.
I didn't expect what would happen to you at that time. After all, you seemed to be just an ordinary rich person with a little money and a little willfulness, but not annoying.
I just thought that it would be best if I could have a good relationship with you. If I could become a friend, it would be great if you could come to the store more times and let me make a little more money.
After all, if I don’t make changes and work harder to make money, my mother may not be able to survive the day I get married.
But I didn’t expect that you were completely different from what I imagined. Then..."
Jiang Xiuyan looked at him, and the mist in her eyes finally condensed into water droplets: "I can't help but want to rely on you."
"Because. Me." She choked, pouring out the pressure she had accumulated. She leaned on the man next to her wholeheartedly, hugging him tightly, as if she wanted to entrust all of herself to him.
"I'm really tired!"
She sobbed and lay on Han Zhe's shoulder. She sobbed quietly at first, but soon it turned into uncontrollable crying. Although she tried hard to bury her face on him, the crying was still very clear.
"It took a lot of effort to get here today, and I saw hope, but just because of that damn kidney disease, all my efforts were in vain!
Without you, how would I bear so much monthly expenses? How can I help my mother find a way to have a kidney transplant? I am already twenty-five years old now. If all the money is still spent, what should I do by then?
Do you really want to start over alone? ”
She cried and raised her head, looking at Han Zhe's face. The love and uneasiness in her eyes were intertwined, turning into a deep dependence: "So, after you suddenly appeared in my life, I can't do anything about it anymore." One person perseveres”
Jiang Xiuyan hugged him uncontrollably, straightened up slightly, almost lying on his body, stretched out her hand to touch his face, looked at his warm eyes that still seemed to glow in the dark, and spoke with her voice. Full of affection, he whispered softly and pleadingly:
"You are not only an amazing man, you are also the hero who saved my life.
Like the sun, it illuminates my life which was once dark again.
How can I not fall in love with you like this?
So, please promise me that you will never abandon me and just take charge of my life, okay?
Because now”
She came close to his face, kissed him again, and whispered selflessly: "I can no longer imagine my life after losing you."
All Han Zhe could do was to hug her gently at this moment and try his best to respond to her feelings.
I finally understood at this moment why she could be so gentle and indulgent towards him.
His desperate life was rewritten by the system.
But Jiang Xiuyan's life regained hope because of his appearance.
He hugged Jiang Xiuyan and felt the weight of the life she was placing on her at the moment, but he didn't feel any heavy at all.
Han Zhe just looked at her tears that fell without knowing whether she was happy or sad, wiped them gently, and responded to his feelings in a soft voice:
"Don't belittle yourself, just like I am your sun. In fact, you are also very important to me.
Did you know? Growing up, the most common words I heard were belittling. Even if I got the first place in the class in the exam, my mother would always throw the paper in my face, blame me for not getting the missing marks on the paper, and then go to school again. He further asked me why I couldn’t do better in the exam. ”
Han Zhe's eyes became a little distant, and Jiang Xiuyan gradually stopped crying at this moment. She just raised her head and looked at him quietly and told him.
"The same is true in school. Although my academic performance is not bad, I am still far away from the real geniuses.
Therefore, in fact, I haven’t heard many compliments at all. At most, there are some comments such as ‘not bad’ and ‘okay’.
Since I entered high school, my family has been even tighter on me. My mother was a teacher in my high school and was very strict with me. She even had to wait for me to take me home after I finished my evening study, just because she was worried. I fall in love early, or sneak out to play.
Even when I was in class or studying by myself, I would sneak past our class and look through the window to see if I was studying seriously.
Really suffocating. ”
Han Zhe's expression became a little heavy. Just thinking back to those memories that he thought were distant, he felt inexplicably depressed.
"So, in my sophomore year of high school, I made up my mind to find a way to leave there, leave that small county, and run as far away as possible
Later, I got lucky, and all the exams I prepared for going abroad went smoothly. Although my mother was still blaming me for not getting a place in Seoul before she left, my dad still understood me, didn't hold me back, and fully supported me. I left the county.
I originally thought it would be easier to leave there, but when I arrived on the peninsula, I discovered that an unhappy person will never be happy no matter where he goes.
When international students first enter Yonsei University, they do not go directly to Yonsei University, but to a separate international school for one year.
When I got there, I discovered that although no one urged me to study anymore, and no one said anything bad about me, there were actually too many people better than me.
Most of those international students are children from wealthy families, and the rest have good academic performance.
Although I work very hard to prove myself, in fact, no matter how much effort I make, ordinary people have their limits. ”
Han Zhe sighed softly: "It's just that I'm still a little unconvinced. I always feel that I can do something big and change my life, so studying harder and socializing harder are actually somewhat effective. At least I I feel that I have really become a lot better at that time
As a result, my parents passed away suddenly during my sophomore year.
There is only one house left in the family, and there is still a pile of debts. I don’t know what my family did to owe so much money. I thought it was because of my tuition fees, but later I found out that it was not."
Han Zhe let out a somewhat mocking laugh: "My mother was defrauded, and they paid back part of it. Later, they found that she still couldn't move, and they didn't want to drag me down, so they committed suicide."
Han Zhe suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette, but he pursed his lips, but still just hugged Jiang Xiuyan and looked at the ceiling in a daze:
"The total debt is probably more than 300 million won, which is not much, but after all, I am still studying, eating, and paying tuition. I don't want to sell the house at home, after all, the house in a small county town , even if it is sold, it will only be worth 100 million at most, and it may not even be sold for this price
I also thought about simply not inheriting the house, giving up the inheritance and escaping the debt at the same time, but in the end I couldn't bear to let them leave their ashes in my hometown. Is there anyone among my relatives who could threaten me with their ashes? money
I don’t even know how I got through it. I just remember that I was studying hard to avoid failing the class and working part-time jobs. I even had a fight with my boss in order to get paid. In the end, I just got a certificate of depression and said no. After giving him the money, I committed suicide in his shop, and then I got the compensation and the debt I owed.”
Han Zhe couldn't help but laugh at himself and shake his head. This memory was still unforgettable to him.
"Going on, you should probably know that after graduation, you worked in a company and saved money to pay off debts, until God suddenly favored you. On the day when your life hit rock bottom, your life turned around and became what it is today. Don't ask any questions. Whatever happened, in short, I am very rich now.
And on that day, I originally wanted to go shopping directly, but I don’t know why, but when I looked at myself in the mirror, I suddenly felt a little disgusted
That’s why I decided to go to the beauty salon first to at least make myself look a little more pleasing to the eye, and then I met you.
Did you know? When I first saw you, I actually felt a little inferior. You are so beautiful and gentle. Although it is not as dazzling as the sun, it is really like the moon. It actually made me feel a little bit inside. "Han Zhe looked at Jiang Xiuyan, considered his words, and finally said calmly: "It's unattainable. ”
"So when you went out shopping with me later, I actually had some very bad thoughts in my mind."
Han Zhe rubbed Jiang Xiuyan's face. At this moment, she just looked at him with a somewhat complicated look of love and pity. Han Zhe didn't like to be pitied, but he didn't hate Jiang Xiuyan's look. He felt very warm.
For his life, even his parents were not someone he could talk to, and he was even more unwilling to expose his vulnerability in front of his friends. Even with Zhao Haiyuan, due to the financial gap between the two at the time, he always Keeping a certain distance, not wanting to rely on her to get through such difficult days.
Because if he does that, he will feel that even his remaining self-esteem will disappear.
But he also hopes to have someone he can talk to and rely on, but he doesn't want that person to think he is weak or incompetent. Perhaps there is only one person in the world who can understand his awkward and complicated thoughts, and this person is the one in front of him. Kang Soo-yeon.
To a certain extent, he believed that he and Jiang Xiuyan needed each other, they were two cold souls warming each other.
It was like he rarely told people about his own affairs, but now, he could tell her without hesitation.
Han Zhe couldn't help but hug her tightly, and changed from the posture of her lying in his arms to the posture of lying in her arms, with his face close to her warmth, while Jiang Xiuyan only gently stroked his hair, tightly She hugged him tightly and didn't say any words of comfort, just waiting for him to continue talking.
"At that time, I actually really thought about it - you seemed to really need a lot of money, but now I have a lot of money."
Han Zhe smiled self-deprecatingly: "I think even a woman like you will surrender quickly as long as I throw money at her, right? You may not be as noble as I thought
But I don’t know why in the end, I didn’t do it. Maybe it’s because I liked you a little bit from that time, so I didn’t want to destroy you.
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At that time, I really felt that I was completely different from before.
I feel that I have become that very amazing existence
Until you suddenly said you don’t want my bag.
I suddenly realized that except for money, I am no different from the past. If I just rely on money to knock you down, even if you end up lying next to me like this, it will not be because I am great, just because of money.
At that moment, I suddenly realized that it seemed that I couldn’t get the real you just by relying on me now. ”
"So at that moment, I suddenly felt very frustrated. I didn't say that I was depressed or discouraged, but I suddenly realized that I wanted to keep a distance from you for the time being. When I really become very good, When I can make you fall in love with me, I will be with you and get everything you have”
"But, I really didn't expect that you would hug me at that time and tell me that I was a great guy."
Han Zhe raised his eyes and saw her eyes. Her eyes, which were always charming or smiling in the past, now only had tenderness and water-like warmth, watching him quietly, as if there was something wrong with her. The clear moonlight was hidden in those dark eyes, reflecting his expression.
He lay down and no longer let her hold him, but faced her face to face. The two hugged each other gently, and their foreheads touched lightly.
"At that moment, I felt like a coward hiding in the shadows illuminated by the moonlight. For the first time, I saw myself. It was not as unbearable as I imagined.
So, Xiuyan, you really don’t have to worry so much, and you don’t have to feel inferior
Don't think about whether I will abandon you or not, because even if you want to leave, I won't.
I just want to keep you by my side forever, no matter what method I use. In short, just like the sun and the moon, I hope to light up your life, but I also hope that you can also light up my long night forever
Regardless of whether I will bother you in the future or whether you will be disappointed in me, or if you simply want to take the money and run away now, I will never let you go. ”
He laughed, gently stroked her face with one hand, kissed her lips, and then said sincerely: "Because as long as you are here, I know that I will always be that amazing guy. .
As long as you are still here, will I truly have the confidence to do anything
Because maybe you are the only one who will stay with me even if I go bankrupt one day. Of course, before that, I will try my best to leave you a large amount of money before going bankrupt, and then you will take care of me. Of course, you can only support me! ”
Jiang Xiuyan couldn't help laughing, and the two of them chuckled together, face to face, but at the end of the laugh, Jiang Xiuyan just kissed his lips gently, and gently touched his eyebrows with her fingers, sliding according to the shape. He spoke softly:
"Well, I promise you, even if you go bankrupt one day, I will try my best to keep the money you gave me, and I will take care of you then.
However, it will be okay to support you alone when the time comes, but don’t think about using the money I spent to support you to support other sisters. I am not as generous as you think. ”
She laughed softly and stared into his eyes: "If you want to be lazy, just work hard to do everything you want to do. After all, how can I control how the sun shines? How can I control it?" Which planet do you want warmth to shine on?"
"It's just that I don't want to be a moon at all."
"The moon is the earth's only natural satellite, and it always revolves around the earth. For me, this uniqueness is too lucky, too romantic, and romantically out of reach.
I know I'm not that unique, nor that lucky.
I am just an ordinary asteroid, and like many other planets, I will always revolve around the nearest, largest and brightest star.
But now, because of you, even though I am just an ordinary planet, I suddenly have my own dream.
Regardless of whether there are other stars to choose from, or whether they give me the qualification to change from a star to a satellite, I don't like it, and I don't want it.
My little planet’s only dream now.
Just wanting to be forever and rotating around the sun that is unique in my life is enough.
I want to be the planet closest to you, spinning endlessly in the orbit closest to you until it melts or is destroyed because of you, and I don’t want to be even remotely far away.
So, Lord Sun, will you allow me to surround you forever as the closest asteroid to you? ”
Her eyes reflected the moonlight, but at this moment, they shone brighter than the moonlight.
Han Zhe didn't say anything, but couldn't help holding her face and kissing her hard. Until the two of them were panting and hugging each other tightly, without any unnecessary movements, he said to her in a soft voice. With.
"Please always surround me and never leave. Miss Mercury."
"Inner~Your Majesty the Sun."
She smiled softly, but suddenly there was an inappropriate urge to take out her phone and search in her head - is Mercury the planet closest to the sun?
Han Zhe looked at her expression and suddenly laughed happily, so he hugged her tightly and laughed uncontrollably in her ears.
And Jiang Xiuyan also realized that this guy seemed to have a magical insight into her thoughts, so she puffed up her face, turned around and took out her mobile phone to search. After getting the answer, she turned her head with satisfaction, looked at Han Zhe, and pressed hard again. Kissing him: "Don't laugh!"
Until she noticed the changes in Han Zhe.
"Do it again." He bit her ear.
".Huh?" Jiang Xiuyan was helpless and a little aggrieved, but she couldn't help showing a charming smile, because he was fascinated by her and felt happy.
"I've washed myself many times today. Do I need to brush my teeth again?" She muttered coquettishly.
Han Zhe didn't reply, but looking at the burning look in his eyes, Jiang Xiuyan could only bite his lip helplessly: "This is really the last time today. You must take good care of your body. I'll pass." I will need it for a few days.”
As she spoke, she laughed a little shyly, but in the end, she kissed his chin and neck tenderly, and finally got into bed slowly.
The moonlight was obscured by dark clouds at some point, and in the end, only a little starlight was left, illuminating the dim bedroom. Han Zhe lifted the quilt, regardless of her somewhat embarrassed expression, just watched quietly, trying to take in the beautiful scenery in front of her forever. remain deep in my heart.
(End of chapter)