Chapter 166 Loss
Lin Chen stayed up all night, his eyes were dry and a little painful. He walked into the bathroom and washed his face. When he heard the door opening outside, he ran out without wiping his face.
Lu Siqi stood at the door of the bedroom, with a face as pale as paper without any expression, and asked him in a hoarse voice: "Where is the medicine? Where is the medicine left by Dr. Che?"
Only then did Lin Chen react. He quickly strode to the coffee table, picked up the ointment and walked back to her, handing it to her hand.
"Thank you." After taking the ointment, Lu Siqi turned and walked towards the bedroom.
"Lu Siqi." Lin Chen called her, his voice full of regret, "Last night...last night I..."
He didn't dare to say anything further, as if no matter what he said, he would lose this woman.
Although he has lost...
But he really couldn't bear the pain of watching her marry other men.
"I was confused last night, but once I think about it, I can tell that the words you said were all deliberately irritating me. It's my fault. Please forgive me, okay? Give me another chance."
Lin Chen rarely begged someone humbly, but this time he always felt that if he didn't put down his posture, Lu Siqi might really leave him.
Because she was as calm as that day in Xiao Mopo. She seemed calm and speechless, but in fact she hated him to the core of her bones.
"Lu Siqi." After calling her name again, Lin Chen realized that the way they got along was always on a first-name basis, without any affectionate terms of endearment.
Walking in front of her, Lin Chen stretched out his hand and grabbed her wrist with trembling arms. When he thought of treating her so roughly last night, he immediately relaxed his strength and pulled her into his arms, "I really can't live without you."< br>
Lu Siqi cried.
She buried her head in his chest, choked with tears. After a few minutes, she raised her head from his arms and looked up at him with a bit of hope: "Can you go back to the Special Administrative Region?"
This question made Lin Chen a little distressed and even helpless, "If it were you in my place, would you still choose to go back?"
The question was posed to her because it was a dead question with no answer.
"If Gu Shi and Lu Yao had not gone to Bangnan, I might have died in Bangnan." Those painful memories began to appear in his mind. They were the ones he least wanted to face and the most unwilling to admit. But now, he can no longer hide it. "The medicine I was injected with was temporarily replaced by Lu Yao."
He asked: "Do you know what this means?"
Lu Siqi tightened his mouth and his eyes turned red again, because he had already guessed his experience in Bangnan, but he didn't expect... to be so cruel.
"Gu Shi risked his own life and threatened the people in Bangnan with explosives. As long as they didn't change my dressing, I would die with them." Lin Chen became more and more excited as he spoke, and his eyes even turned red. "The live broadcast you saw was recorded later."
"The real live broadcast was that Gu Shi and Lu Yao fought with them to pull me out of hell."
"Without Gu Shi and Lu Yao, I, Lin Chen, would never be able to appear in front of you, Lu Siqi again!"
"Like those undercover informants, I will put Leng Bingbeng's body in a coffin, be awarded the Martyr's Medal, accept your bows and worship one after another, and finally be cremated into a small box and buried in the Martyrs Cemetery. I will receive it every Qingming Festival Your worship.”
Lu Siqi covered his mouth to prevent him from speaking any more.
When she thought about almost being separated from him, the suffocating pain made her unable to breathe at all.
"Lin Chen..." With her head on his chest, Lu Siqi held back her tears to prevent herself from crying, "Do you hate the Special Administrative Region very much?"
"Yes, I do hate it." Lin Chen did not hide his ambition at all, "But I hate myself even more for being so melancholy and indecisive back then. That year, if I had not been so playful and seeking excitement, if I had not met Shang Junyan, Damn it! Beicheng Special District's palm It will only be me! It won't be his turn, Shang Junyan." "I thought he would do something great and be different from his brother Shang Junce, but you have seen the fact that he is just a puppet! An impossible puppet! ”
"As long as he has some rights, how come I am the only one who came back out of the 50 comrades we went with!"
I think of the tragic death of my comrades, and the scene of being made into human pigs, and the scene of biting comrades while fighting for drugs...
Lin Chen could no longer calm himself down, "I can't do anything! I can't even help them end their lives!"
"I have been undercover in Bangnan for eight years, and I have narrowly escaped death every time. Did you know? Once you become an undercover agent, you enter a death cycle, following one drug dealer after another. If you kill one, another one will be born. Like a wildfire, it cannot be burned. It can’t be eliminated.”
"I'm tired of the injustice in this world! I can't stand this kind of abnormal education and arrangement! Who stipulates that when you are an undercover agent, you must be prepared to sacrifice!"
"Why does sacrifice represent holiness! Why can we only hide in the darkness and not receive rewards after we complete the mission!"
"Why should we, as undercover agents, be prepared to harm our families!"
"Why should we suffer as undercover agents!"
"Who the hell made these rules!"
Lu Siqi heard it, "You want to break these rules, right?"
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"Yes!" Lin Chen no longer concealed his ambition, "If Shang Junyan can't break it, then let me break it on his behalf!"
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It turned out that Shang Junyan was right, Lin Chen had long wanted to instigate rebellion.
The reason why Shang Junyan agreed to Lu Siqi's marriage to Sheng Huaian was to break off the relationship between the Lin family and the Lu family.
Fourth uncle Lu Yao told her personally: "You can marry anyone, but you can't marry Lin Chen. You will only bring death to him. If you want not to implicate the Lin family and the Lu family, listen to fourth uncle's advice and Forget Lin Chen and forget Musen.”
Only Gu Shi told her: "Lin Chen is going to take an extremely lonely road. Without the support of his comrades and brothers, he is the only one who rushes forward alone. You can know what the result will be just by looking at Shang Junce. He doesn't want to let Lin Chen also suffered the same fate as Shang Junce. When he arrived in Hong Kong City, he tried his best to bring him back to the starting point and not let him make any mistakes again. "
Thinking of this, Lu Siqi burst into tears.
Her heart ached and she knelt down. The pain in her heart had replaced the tearing pain in the center of her leg.
"Lin Chen...why...why...why..."
She kept repeating this sentence, burying her head between her knees with tears streaming down her face, "Can't you just give Shang Junyan some more time? Why do you insist on doing things that you know will fail!"
"You are the successor of the Lin family! The Lin family needs you! Can't you be the president of your Lin family!"
"Why do you have to fight for power with Shang Junyan! Why!"
She no longer knew what words to use to describe her collapsed mood at this moment, because she knew that no matter what she said, this man would never change his decision.
News has come from Shang Junyan. Shang Junmo secretly returned to Hong Kong City a few days ago. The Nie family is also getting ready, waiting for the opportunity to start another bloody storm.
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