Chapter 245 The Cowards
"Did you have had a long time in love with Lin Mochen?"
"Lin Mochen? Teacher, you misunderstood. Lin Mochen and I are just good friends."
"Good friend? Don't think the teacher doesn't know. I not only heard from my classmates, but also many teachers said that you go to school together, eat together, and get off school together, and be intimate every day."
"Teacher, I live with Lin Mochen's home. I often come to school together when I meet you downstairs. It's not what they say."
"Then what happened to him watching you every day in class?"
"Teacher, I don't know."
"You don't admit that the teacher doesn't force you, but you are still young and know what love is? What is love? Don't mistake "mercy" as your liking. It's the third year of junior high school. At this critical moment, the teacher is at this critical moment. I don't want to see you go astray."
"The teacher also knows that Lin Mochen's family is in a special situation. You grew up together, and it is normal for a good relationship. What's more, you are a kind and compassionate child. The teacher has seen you feed stray kittens and puppies many times.
"Like like is different from "mercy". To put it bluntly, "mercy" means pitiful. Lin Mochen is not a homeless stray cat. Your kindness will make others misunderstand. Think carefully about your feelings for Lin Mochen to the end. Is it "mercy" or like it?"
When he was fifteen, he heard what he heard was unknowingly engraved into his genes. Looking back now, he still remembers so clearly after more than ten years.
Word-by-word.
"Pity..."
Xu Jiayu said she didn't like him, but she just felt sorry for him.
She stood beside him without reservation.
She smiled at him, she always held his hand firmly, the scarf she gave him to knit, the day and night they spent together, there was no other friendship, but she was pitiful to him.
Just like treating stray cats downstairs in the community and lingering on the playground, the same... pitiful feeling.
The love of a boy is passionate, the love of a boy is sincere, but the thoughts of a boy are not good at hiding.
His love for her was obvious to his teachers, classmates, and even his parents, but Xu Jiayu didn't understand at that time.
How is that possible?
The fifteen-year-old boy had a strong self-esteem torn apart.
And what was torn apart with the boy's self-esteem was also the clean and passionate love that never had a little impurity.
From that moment on, when he saw Xu Jiayu, he remembered the word "poor".
He felt that he was a stray cat, and Xu Jiayu was her redemption.
He made an agreement with mankind with his waiting and companionship, and everything was maintained at a just right "balance".
But when the "balance" was broken, his world collapsed.
At that time, he did "hate" Xu Jiayu.
However, when the name engraved by the pencil core in the homework book was covered by the boy's panic, the touch of his fingertips caused an electric current throbbing, and the pencil case was knocked over in panic, and the sound of metal falling to the ground shocked the silence of the classroom.
The scent of jasmine flowers floating between the girl's hair lingers on the tip of the boy's nose, and is weaved with the smell of rubber debris and rust to form a unique olfactory mark.
The boy deliberately took a long way and offered to change his seat to avoid the girl. When he turned around, he clumsyly knocked down the desk but leaked the secret that he always followed from the corner of his eyes.
The hurt stray cat will leave without any mercy, but the boy's heart is always hot and sincere. Even if he is hurt, he will do everything to protect that person.
He tried his best to wait for her until the last moment in another way.
Lin Mochen, who was fifteen years old, thought that as long as he left, his love for Xu Jiayu would pass by time, just like other people who had appeared in his life.
But he underestimated the power of time and underestimated his "love" for her.
Nine years have long made his secret love for Xu Jiayu passionate and strong, and his "like" for her has long surpassed his liking itself.
After leaving H City, Lin Mo became decadent.
It was obvious that the parents who had never cared about taking care of him also discovered it.
They will pay attention not to mention Xu Jiayu, and bring back the photos, gifts and diaries to keep them in stock.
Try to erase the traces left by Xu Jiayu in his life.
Unfortunately, things always go against my wishes.
Seeing that the first year of high school was about to pass, suddenly one day when he came home from school, he found that his father had actually returned home early and cooked a table of hot meals.
"Xiao Chen, you are sixteen years old and a young man. Have you ever thought about what you want to do in the future?"
Sixteen-year-old Lin Mochen shook his head, "I haven't thought about it, but I don't want to be a doctor no matter what."
He didn't even look at the delicious food, but turned around and left, but was stopped by his father.
"Xiao Chen, it doesn't matter whether others love you in this life. But it's really important whether you love yourself or not. When you become the best self, I believe that there will always be a butterfly in the 'Flower Fragrance Butterfly'. Will stay for you."
That was the first time in my life that my father said such "slanderous" words to him. He suddenly realized that his father seemed to love him deeply like Xu Jiayu's father.
That night he inexplicably walked into his father's study and opened the book "Medical Genetics"...
Later he was admitted to medical school, and although he was busy with his studies, he also made many unreliable good friends.
He didn't know why his father's words were added to the fire and turned into "Become a better self and make those who don't like him regret it."
Later, he learned that Xu Jiayu had also been admitted to City S, and he had also plucked up the courage to run to her school.
But when he saw the boy standing beside the girl, they were so close, he retreated.
He was nineteen that year.
In the years that followed, he was accustomed to peeping at every detail about Xu Jiayu in his circle of friends, and used to recording the thoughts that the boy had never had time to express in his diary.
Gradually, without realizing it, Xu Jiayu became his habit.
He has never been relieved and never stopped being persistent, but that's all.
No mistakes, one song, one content, one in 6, one book, one bar, one reading!
Until the hospital met again, he saw her in the crowd at a glance.
At that moment, he suddenly realized that Xu Jiayu and him were like the poles of magnets, attracting each other and they could never be separated as soon as they met.
He lost control again and again, and his possessiveness became more intense again and again, making him unable to control himself.
It was then that he saw Xu Jiayu's sincerity clearly.
They fell in love.
Everything became better as they fell in love.
This time he understood very clearly that her love for him was so strong that it had nothing to do with "poor".
So whenever he accidentally mentions the "poor" in his memories, he will keep silent.
It was a shame for the fifteen-year-old Lin Mochen.
For 32-year-old Lin Mochen, the feeling of being engraved on the pillar of shame back then was no longer a big deal.
But the person who said the word "poor" has changed.
She is no longer the lawless little sun that is not afraid of the earth.
The sense of security she had built was disintegrated due to family changes.
He finally rebuilt a little bit.
If he told the truth, would Xu Jiayu feel affection when she thinks of her current situation and misunderstand his love for her?
It is said that the longer you are a doctor, the less courageous you are.
But Lin Mochen has already devoted more than half of his life to this marriage that seems to have lasted for four months. In his relationship with Xu Jiayu, he is indeed an absolute coward.
He dared not gamble.
So, he...can't say it.
"Sorry."
Time flies, and months always feel like it passes in a flash.
Thank you for your love for Dr. Lin and Xiaoyu!
25 years have arrived!
Happy New Year to everyone! Wealth is coming!
As we bid farewell to the old and welcome the new, I still thank you all for your support!
Your love is my motivation to persevere!
I will continue to ask for votes in the new year~ please leave a message!
Thanks to book friends 918; May; book friends 176; crow; book friends 911, Xiao Mi, book friends 967, book friends 618, book friends 435. book friends 5638, book friends 4459, sand og, lotus pond, Taibao, still waiting for treasures Our support!
Thank you Shu Yue; pray; yuppie; the most beautiful; full; eb; book friend 45; book friend bc, traveler, book friend 2023 and other babies for your support!
Thank you for Lobi; Shadow; YU; Cherish; Tongtong; Hatsune; Yubao; Book Friend 830; Book Friend 2205, Xiaoqiu, fish are not allowed to move, Tumi, Fenfen, Grasshopper, don't wait for all the babies support!
Today is also a day to love your babies.
Lin Mochen’s warm reminder:
At the beginning of the new year, everything will be renewed. Babies should remember to stay up late while celebrating the festival. I wish you good health.
Of course, a certain Dr. Lin will live up to expectations and continue to practice love words in the new year.
In 2025, come on.