Chapter 201 Just don’t love her
The concept of class in the past was stronger than that in the present.
Mr. Zhong and the Zhong family looked down on Lian Jingcheng's identity and were unwilling to let Ji Tan marry her, so they forced her to take her away. She has resisted, but a person's power is always limited.
Ji Tan: "The world was not good in those years. Under the calm surface of Sijiu City, there were cruel struggles from aristocratic families. In order to protect themselves, the Zhong family moved abroad except for those who needed to stay in Beijing. It was not until five years later. Come back one after another.”
Five years...
Lian Li couldn't help asking: "When did you return to China?"
Her question was like a hand, pushing open the window in Ji Tan's heart.
Lian Li's pupils reflected Ji Tan's face. He suddenly realized that the other party's unwillingness and fragility were like silent spiders, and had long formed thick webs in every corner of his heart.
"Ten years ago," said Ji Tan.
Lian Li's heart suddenly shook.
"I only officially changed my name after returning to China." Ji Tan reached out to hold Lian Li's hand, but Lian Li suddenly stood up and took a step back.
Because of panic, her skirt rubbed the box on the coffee table, and the box lost its balance and fell to the ground in an instant.
"Sorry, sorry..." Lian Li bent down and picked up the thing, but found that the square paper ticket on it looked very familiar.
Her eyes quickly swept paper after paper - all of them were tickets to her concerts over the years.
Another ridiculous thought arose in her heart.
Lian Li's eyes were filled with water. Even though her throat seemed to be blocked by a ball of cotton and she had difficulty breathing, she still asked with difficulty: "Did you know it long ago?"
Knowing that Lian Jingcheng brought his daughter to the capital, knowing that Lian Jingcheng died ten years ago, leaving behind his twelve-year-old daughter alone, knowing that the father and daughter have been looking for her... Did Ji Tan know all these things?
Lian Li hoped Ji Tan said he didn't know, but the other party nodded slowly.
Lian Li didn't understand, she was clearly in her sight.
Why are she carefully keeping her coins but not willing to recognize her? Why are she preparing tabletop snacks for her, understanding and even watching her concerts, but she ignores her.
In an instant, Lian Li seemed to be knocked down, her shoulders collapsed gently, and she breathed heavily, becoming heavier and heavier.
Her mother loves Lian Jingcheng, but she just doesn't love her.
Lian Li was in a daze, Ji Tan stepped forward and held her hand, and found that her hand was extremely cold: "Grandpa and the others stopped me to find you. When I found you, it was too late... Your father passed away, and you also had a new life. .”
Jin Yanting will not treat Lian Li unfairly.
Lian Li's life and study were booming at that time, and it seemed that he had already walked out of the grief of his father's death. No one had the heart to uncover her wounds again.
Ji Tan was in pain and she was unwilling to pull her daughter down.
"I hate my grandfather and others, and I hate myself even more. I hate myself for being incompetent and having no strength to fight. I hate myself for leaving and I hate myself for not coming back soon." Ji Tan's tone was both a sense of loneliness and endless regret, "If it were again A little earlier, will your father not die..."
If she didn't leave, if Lian Jingcheng didn't go to the capital to find his wife, if she came back earlier, if Lian Jingcheng was still alive...
Unfortunately, there is no if in the world.
Ji Tan hated herself, so much that she could not face her daughter.
She was worried.
What is she worried about?
Worry about me going to blame her? Lian Li thought.
Ji Tan looked at Lian Li's cheek, who was surprisingly calm.
Ji Tan held her cold hand: "Li Li!"
"I'm very sad about your story." Lian Li picked up the concert ticket and put it on the coffee table. "It's time for me to leave, and there are still people waiting for me outside."
She pulled her hand out.
Ji Tan took a step closer, and Lian Li still avoided: "I'm sorry, it's time for me to leave."
Ji Tan stared at Lian Li's pale face: "Li Li!"
"I'm fine... Maybe I've eaten too much seafood recently, and it's a bit cold." Lian Li pulled down her left sleeve and covered the red jade bracelet worn on her thin wrist. "I'm leaving..."
She didn't know how to call her, and paused for two seconds before continuing to speak: "Madam, I'm disturbing you today, goodbye."
Lian Li passed by Ji Tan. Ji Tan grabbed her arm and measured her expression: "Have you never given up looking for me?"
Ji Tan's voice was a little choked and frightened.
Lian Li felt a chill in his back when he heard it.
She couldn't deny it.
I can only keep saying: Someone is waiting for me, I have to leave. goodbye.
Ji Tan relaxed his hands and looked pale: "Don't stay for a while?" "No." Lian Li fanned his eyelashes in a mess and said goodbye mechanically and politely, "Madam, thank you for your tea."
She turned around and left without looking back.
Lian Li couldn't help but look at Ji Tan's last look at her - she wanted to hug her.
No.
No...
Lian Li's pace was getting faster and faster, and he almost ran away in panic.
Seeing her leaving in a hurry, the servant looked at Ji Tan and then looked at Lian Li: "Miss, I'll give you it!"
"No need." Lian Li refused.
The questions that have troubled her for many years have been answered.
She just wants to leave now and never want to stay here for a moment.
No mistakes, one song, one content, one in 6, one book, one bar, one reading!
Not for a moment.
The closed door opened from inside, and Jin Shiyue and Lu Hansheng looked up almost at the same time.
Lian Li's steps gradually stabilized, but no matter how hard the pair of eyes that were sobbing, they could not recover.
Jin Shiyue's heart felt like he was being held by one hand, tightening and he strode towards her.
Lian Li raised her face and her thick, curly eyelashes trembled slightly.
Jin Shiyue raised her hand and pointed her long fingers to the messy hair on her forehead and behind her ears.
"What are you running? I miss me that way after I haven't seen me for an hour?"
Without waiting for her to answer, Jin Shiyue took off her black coat and put it on Lian Li.
He held her shoulders and held the person in his arms, and noticed that she was shaking slightly.
Jin Shiyue raised his other hand and waved casually at Lu Hansheng: "Let's go."
Lu Hansheng looked at Lian Li and Jin Shiyue leaving with some thoughts, his brows folded and his eyes were slightly deeper.
In a moment, someone came out of the room again.
Lu Hansheng moved his gaze and looked at Ji Tan standing at the door watching Lian Li and Jin Shiyue.
Ji Tan's expression was no better than Lianli.
"Auntie." Lu Hansheng walked over and stretched out his arms to support him.
Ji Tan had no response.
My heart seemed to be run over by a wheel, and it couldn't help but hurt.
The past is extremely regretful and painful, but now I have experienced it again, and the pain and regret have not diminished at all.
After Lian Li and Jin Shiyue disappeared, Lu Hansheng said, "You are in control, and Li Li will not blame you."
Ji Tan said, "I would rather she blame me."
Lu Hansheng frowned and said nothing.
Things in the world are rising and falling, and things in the past cannot be judged with the current thinking. Everyone has their own difficulties. He is not the party involved and cannot make a decision for Ji Tan or Lian Li.
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The ink-black sedan was galloping all the way, the headlights were passing through the window like streams, and the neon lights and shadows of the city were flashing in front of their eyes.
Lian Litou was next to the car window, her pupils were distracted and looked out the window, and the glass window reflected her lost side face.
It's raining outside.
The rain hit the car window and splashed a wave.
Jin Shiyue stretched out his arms and hooked her waist, turned her around, hugged her head in a strong and warm manner.
"Tell me?"
Lian Li kept silent, his face buried in his shoulders, and his five fingers clenched the corner of his clothes.
"It's okay if you don't want to say it." Jin Shiyue had no choice but to do anything to her, "We made an agreement in advance, and we are not allowed to be alone."
Lian Li's tears rustled down silently, slid down along his neck, wet, and kept sliding into Jin Shiyue's heart.