Chapter 330 Stabilization Signal
Tang Guanqi had a very long dream.
She returned to Yangcheng, and her mother-in-law was taking care of the dragon fruit vine on the wall.
She walked over and saw that none of the dragon fruit vines had grown out.
She lifted a triangular hard vine with regret: "Mother-in-law, I haven't had a single fruit this year. Why are you doing watering them?"
In the sunset, the thin old lady was hunching her back and smiling, and continued to water them with a shower: "If you don't bear fruit, you won't water it? If you don't bear fruit, you'll have to bear fruit, it's better than if you don't bear fruit. "
Tang Guanqi was thinking, touching the half-green and half-gray hard vine. The dragon fruit vine seemed to have dried up for a long time, as if no one had watered it before:
"But no As a result, she wasted her efforts to serve her, which was a pity. "
Mother-in-law smiled. In the afterglow of the sunset, her wrinkles seemed to have been lost. Her whole face was kind and gentle, as if she was more than a teenager younger. .
Like the mother-in-law she saw when she was a child.
The mother-in-law caressed the twisted and winding vines lovingly, watching them clamp tightly against the red brick wall and survive tenaciously: "Mother-in-law loves the dragon fruit the most. vine, so it doesn't matter whether it blooms or not. "
The old man looked at Tang Guanqi, and his eyes were in the dim yellow clouds swam all over the sky and the earth. The color looked like amber, with the old man's pupils becoming lighter after his old age. Features, brilliant enough to refract diamond-like light.
But Tang Guanqi remembered that she had never seen such bright eyes in her grandmother's eyes. She couldn't help but want to look at her mother-in-law seriously. It seemed that she hadn't seen her mother-in-law for a long time.
The mother-in-law smiled, and there was a feeling in her eyes that she couldn't understand.
Is it regret, kindness, or pity?
The old lady with firm eyes and eyes stood two steps away from Tang Guanqi, looking at her gently: "But after my mother-in-law left for a while, the vine was a little dry. What a pity, my mother-in-law felt a little distressed." br>
Tang Guanqi couldn't help asking, "Then you come and see it often, isn't it good?"
The grandmother in front of her just smiled. I don't know how long it took, but the sunset seemed to be stagnant. Yes, she heard her grandmother responding to her in the sunset:
"kk, mother-in-law can no longer see you often."
Tang Guanqi didn't understand. She wanted to go forward, but couldn't go forward. She seemed to be tied up by the roots of the dragon fruit vine and could not move forward. She tried hard I want to break free but can't.
But my mother-in-law didn't come over, but stood there, smiling to her with a tolerant and kind look:
"Don't get too close, it's not good for you."
Tang Guanqi doesn't understand.
And the grandmother in her eyes was like the sunset. From the inside to the outside, it seemed to be the color of dusk, and it was stagnant, simple and dazzling dusk. Her voice was so warm that it wrapped around Tang Guanqi like warm water:
"For mother-in-law, you are the most precious. It doesn't matter whether your tree grows fruits. It's important to grow tall and strong."
Tang Guanqi was puzzled, and just tried to break free from the vines.
The light reflected in my mother-in-law's eyes was like tears:
"When I grew up with you, I never hoped that you would work harder for whom. I have never hoped that I would do my best. All I think about is my kk. I want to grow up, study, and do what I want to do.”
Tang Guanqi suddenly remembered that her mother-in-law was gone.
When realizing this, tears gushed out, and the mother-in-law in her eyes was a little blurred.
She blinked her eyes desperately and drove away her tears.
Even if I realize it is a dream, I try my best to look at my mother-in-law more, and I don’t even dare to make my consciousness too clear, for fear of waking up.
She couldn't cry in her dream: "Mother-in-law, do you know..."
My mother-in-law stood there, as if she was integrated with this quiet dusk yard, and said with a smile: "Kk's road is still long. No matter what choice you make, I just hope that the tree will grow tall and big. , healthy, don’t use up green leaves and nectar, just to bear the bitter fruits of thin dryness.”
Tang Guanqi sobbed, while her mother-in-law smiled:
“Have you been handing a lot Good friend? "
She choked: "Yes."
My mother-in-law gently put down the old shower, and the dark gauze old-fashioned shirt on her body had a little wrinkle: "It's great, kk finally has friends. My mother-in-law was so worried that you didn't have friends."
My mother-in-law walked to the yard Next to the stone bench inside, he waved to her and said with a smile, "I haven't eaten for so long, so I should be hungry. Come and eat basil cake."
In the hospital, the drip was very fast, like I look forward to using glucose to quickly awaken Tang Guanqi's consciousness.
Rebecca was guarding Tang Guanqi's ward for many things: "How come he faints for so long?"
"Fortunately, Professor Wen is here, so he can drive to Guanqi to the hospital immediately, otherwise it will be..." William asked, "What do you like to eat when Guanqi?"
Rebecca After thinking about it, I suddenly thought: "Kk likes to eat Pancake. I have bought it with her several times. She said that she used to eat it with her mother-in-law, so I'll buy some now."
While the three of them were talking Didn't notice it.
Tang Guanqi, who was lying on the bed, closed his eyes, but tears fell from the end of his eyes.
After a while, all three of them were led away by Ying Duo's assistant, and those who were guarding the ward were replaced by Ying Duo's people.
When Zheng Wei arrived, Ying Duo was sitting next to Tang Guanqi's bed. The ward was so quiet that only the sound of instruments could be heard.
Zheng Wei sat down and did not speak immediately, but looked at the girl with a blue and white color on the hospital bed. She closed her eyes, and her expression was not completely relaxed even in her dream. She looked carefully and her eyebrows were a little frowning.
She is actually very beautiful, but she is too thin, and she looks weak and makes people feel very protective. However, as a doctor, Zheng Wei only feels that her body cannot withstand more impacts.
Zheng Wei finally spoke: "Yingsheng, I don't know if I should say something."
Her voice sounded a little abruptly, and the quiet inside was suddenly broken.
But Zheng Wei still spoke: "As your classmate, of course, you should not interfere in your private affairs, but as your private doctor, I think you should know some situations."
Duo's eyes finally moved away from Tang Guanqi, looked at Zheng Wei, and his voice was low: "But it's okay to say it." Zheng Wei put the medical records he had seen:
"Because I don't specialize in psychology, I can only say a little off-topic."
She asked, "Do you know the stability signal?" Ying Duo listened for the first time and his voice was slow: "The stability signal is What? "
"Have you ever raised a dog?" Zheng Wei thought for a while.
Ying Duo remained silent for a moment and said, "No."
Zheng Wei confessed: "The stability signal is some movements that the puppy releases emotions when it feels stress. Generally, if you continue to do what you just did to the puppy at this time, the dog is likely to explode."
There are night lights outside on the curtains, and silver bands are coming, like rippling water.
Ying Duo listened quietly, enduring the other party's inappropriate metaphor.
The woman seemed to not notice it, but just upholding professional ethics and continued: "More common stability signals, such as a puppy showing the whites of her eyes, licking her nose, scratching her ears with her feet, Yawning is something that I will do when I feel the pressure, and I observe that Miss Tang often presses her thighs.”
After hearing the last sentence, Ying Duo's heart was a little stagnant under the rippling water of the curtains, and he realized what Zheng Wei's next sentence would be.
Zheng Wei only smoothed out the situation and said: "Maybe this observation is a bit one-sided, but humans are also animals. I think there is always something in common. Every time she presses her thighs, she is in After clearly feeling the pressure, it was already a stereotype. "
Ying Duo's gaze turned back to Tang Guanqi.
No mistakes, one poem, one post, one content, one in 6, one book, one bar, one read!
She still closed her eyes tightly. The huge pressure from the sky made her fall asleep, or she was unwilling to wake up and want to escape from reality, or her body was really at its limit.
He held her hand under the quilt. No matter how long he held it, as long as he left and came back, he would only hold it cold again, just like she did not actually exist here.
She initially made him feel like a puppy. She had the wild vitality that had not been disciplined by society. She acted like a small animal, and made him feel that many of her behaviors and reactions were like small animals. She was covered in energy, very novel and unusual.
In his memory, there were indeed several scenes of her pressing her thighs.
Once, she was unwilling to have a meal two days after she came back, so he went to the terrace to ask her to have a meal, and once today.
Zheng Wei noticed Ying Duo's stiffness for a moment, and her voice deliberately slowed down, so she slowly accepted:
"I thought she was mentally aphasia, because when I checked her, she once said ."
"...She often feels that everything around her is like watching a movie. Sometimes she will be too big, too late, too far away, and clearly and vague, as if she is not in her body at all, but A bystander was observing the world. "
Ying Duo listened to what Tang Guanqi had never said to him, and looked at the world from her perspective. It turned out that the world was like this.
The woman's slow voice was like a knife that delayed Lingchi:
"But in medicine, this is actually a serious psychological defense mechanism, called dissociation."
Dissociation.
Every word hit Yingduo's ears, like a huge rock hitting into shallow water, hitting hard on the ground under the shallow water. The stones and splashing water were not preserved.
But Ying Duo's performance was just sitting there.
Zheng Wei revealed it to Ying Duo word by word, because as a doctor who observed Tang Guanqi, she could of course guess Tang Guanqi's mental state:
"People who have depression usually experience this situation. When facing major stress, they will suddenly feel emotional and numb. People who use this method to protect themselves and become dissociated have reached a very serious level."
Ying Duo remembered her state during this period, she was numb, stiff, and she didn't speak or move. Those behaviors that seemed to evade communication were like a big net, which instantly poured out of the water, and all the stars were dotted. Connect.
He only felt that the buttons of his shirt were too tight and he couldn't breathe.
Zheng Wei's attitude was very frank. She also knew that there was a high probability that there was some misunderstanding between Ying Duo and Tang Guanqi: "Ms. Tang should have had psychological problems, not a lie." Some people just speak, but they are unwilling to speak, which is actually considered mute. Just like the heart is due to sexual aphasia and selective mutism, the patient himself does not know it, so I recommended to take her to see a psychological counselor from the beginning .”
But she has never been willing to go.
When she came back, he felt that she was afraid of being exposed.
But at this moment, Ying Duo realized that she might be really used to being a mute.
A normal person must completely resist and not speak without making any sound, which is as difficult as the sky.
Zheng Wei is not worried about admitting her limitations:
"My abilities are really limited. You should ask a professional psychological counselor to evaluate her condition and then treat her. Just looking for me is to treat the symptoms but not the root cause."
The pale light outside the window followed the night wind. Layers rippling on the curtains.
I don't know how long it took, but when Tang Guanqi woke up, it was already dark. In her room on the east side of Shouchen Mountain, the familiar ceiling was in her eyes.
The consciousness has not been completely restored, and she stared at the ceiling blankly, as if everything is empty.
Close your eyes and still want to try to recall the scenes in your dreams and try to remember the way my mother-in-law looks in your dreams.
After a while, she was sure that she really understood what her mother-in-law meant, and then opened her eyes again.
Sit up hard, and after a glance, I saw five boxes of colorful cakes on the bedside table. The familiar packaging undoubtedly reminded her where the colorful cakes came from.
She froze and reached out to touch it, as if her mother-in-law had broken through time and space to bring this colorful cake to her.
She sat beside the bed, her heart surging.
The tree should be tall and do not rush to bear fruit immediately.
She put the spangling cake on the bedside table and couldn't feel her hungry stomach for more than half a month. Suddenly she felt hungry and seemed to urge her to go to dinner.
Tang Guanqi blinked his eyes, but saw Ying Duo sitting by the bed and looking at her.
She froze and then appeared in a state of not moving or talking. After a while, she whispered to him: "I'm sick today, can I not do it? I really don't have the strength."
Ying Duo sat there, feeling like his heart was surging, and he finally spoke:
"Do you want to eat?"
Tang Guanqi did feel hungry, but if she had a meal with Ying Duo, she would rather not eat.
She was silent.
Ying Duo finally looked indifferent, leaving a sentence "You eat yourself, I have something to do."
He got up and walked away.
Tang Guanqi breathed a sigh of relief and fell on the bed.