Chapter 250: The causes and consequences, ‘Previous notes ‘Ugly Duckling’ [Please ask for monthly votes! 】
Time: February 17, 1993,
Winter
Preface: ['Ugly Duckling']
In the Nanshan Province in 1993 A snowfall.
The snow is very big, the goose feathers fly, the goose feathers are literally the snow, and the snow as big as the little finger falls like cotton.
The 10-year-old Chen Zhi was hiding in the snow at this time, wearing tattered clothes, covered with a layer of snow, hiding in the corner, curled up and shivering.
Chen Zhi
No, it shouldn't be called Chen Zhi, it should be called Chen Hei.
I don’t know what Chen Zhi’s original name is. He has no father or mother, and he doesn’t know how he survived.
He only knew that the villagers said that his surname was Chen. Because of the black birthmark on his face, his peers called him a black dog, and then they called himself a black dog, and they could also call him Chen Gou or Chen Hei.
The black dog has no home. Even on New Year's Eve, he can only curl up on the road and let it be covered by ice and snow.
Of course, ice and snow are not the only ones when it is ice and snow.
"Swish~bang!"
A stream of light passed by, the black dog shivered and raised his head, and a stream of light reflected in his dark eyes.
The stream of light rushed into the sky and exploded into gorgeous fireworks.
It looks very beautiful and beautiful, and it seems to be two extremes with the black dog.
The black dog couldn't help but be stunned.
Even the ice and snow on your body and the cold wind are not that difficult at this time.
But as he looked, several figures appeared in front of him, his face changed and he lowered his head in a hurry.
The figure got closer and closer, and the black dog's body shook more and more.
A moment later.
"Beat him!"
A tender voice sounded.
The black dog lay down skillfully, covering his head with his hands and curled up his body.
"Bang!"
The next second, stones, branches, or firecrackers hit him in a series of ways.
The black dog buried his head and kept silent.
As he was fighting, he couldn't stand it anymore, so the black dog got up and ran out.
The figures beside them immediately followed with joy and laughed happily while showing a cheerful smile, and the stone firecrackers in their hands kept throwing at him.
"Battle the New Year beast!"
"Haha, my dad buys me firecrackers"
"Battle him to death, beat him to death!"
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The black dog didn't make a sound, ran away in silence, leaving only an iron bowl full of stains for eating.
The people suddenly started the game around the bowl, constantly frying iron basins, which is called the 'fried dog bowl'.
The black dog hid in the corner and watched silently.
He didn't know why he was suffering from this.
These people are children.
Is a child from the village.
The black dog has no conflict with them, but the hatred of children is pure and pure, and there is no need for conflict as a source of fire.
They just wanted to fight, so they fought, it was that simple.
Maybe
It's because he's disgusting?
Is it because he looks ugly?
Just because I am ugly! ?
When the black dog looked at these children, his heart gradually twisted, and his tender eyes were filled with hatred at this time.
It's just because it's ugly.
It's just that I'm born with a birthmark. Without parents, I'll be bullied, beaten, and bullied!
Because he is ugly, he deserves to be beaten, because he looks disgusting, and adults don’t like it. Because he has no parents, no one will support him when he is beaten!
He deserves it, even the New Year, he deserves it. He deserves to be called a black dog and deserves to be fried.
The black dog stands in the dark and watches his only bowl of food fly into the sky.
His eyes gradually became ferocious.
His thinking became more and more extreme.
Until
"Bang!"
In a trance.
A child in the crowd stopped the movements in his hand, and he touched his head.
The warm touch on the hands, and the eyes were full of scarlet redness when they were placed in front of them.
This is blood.
The boy turned his head and looked at it, but saw the black dog's face full of ferociousness and threw a stone from the corner again.
"Bang!"
Bloody appeared on the forehead.
"Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!"
The boy burst into tears immediately, his nose and tears flowing.
The children around him were stunned and didn't know what to do, so they hurried home to find the parents.
The boy's parents came. He suffered a huge grievance and threw himself into the other party's arms and cried.
The black dog was beaten by the other party's angry father.
New Year's Eve.
The black dog sat alone in the corner, with a cardboard box next to him, and this is his temporary home.
He sat in the box with a bruised nose and a swollen face.
Children always like to drill boxes, and fantasize that boxes are a castle.
And this dirty, water-soaked cardboard box was Black Dog's home. He stared at the snow outside, not knowing what he was thinking.
Later.
The black dog has never been beaten and cried again.
Dogs can bite people. Black dogs know that some dogs are cowardly, while others are crazy.
The former is easily bullied by children, but the latter is always around when adults see it.
The black dog became a mad dog.
When he saw his previous child, he would have a meal first, and he would have to grab the meal if he had food and grab the money if he had money.
Not only that.
He also steals! Still smashed!
If you are hungry, go steal chickens raised by others; if you don’t have money, go steal money; if you don’t have clothes, go steal clothes!
If you are in the village, you can always see mad dogs wearing tattered clothes, such as large-size leather shoes and women's clothes.
The mad dog is inappropriate and looks like a little hooligan.
People around him were very worried, afraid that he would become worse when he grew up.
So, the villagers felt very angry again.
Every time a mad dog is caught stealing something, he will inevitably be beaten.
As the fight, the mad dog got used to it. If he occasionally escaped, he would be proud and feel grateful.
Of course, being caught is not just a beaten up.
He was taken to the police station.
But fortunately, the mad dog has not grown up.
The verbalized minor law looks sacred and great at this moment. The mad dog has not really entered, nor has it left a record on the file.
At the age of 11, he was only criticized and educated for a few times.
Over time, he became a regular visitor to the police station.
This kind of days lasted for a year, from ten to eleven years old, until
Until one day, something happened in the village.
The government
decided to help poverty.
To get rich, build roads first. In addition to roads, that is knowledge and culture.
Several villages were integrated and several thatched huts were built, and this is the school.
There is not enough school, but there must be teachers.
There are not many people in the village who can read, so where can the teachers come from! ?
The government has sent a teaching teacher.
The teacher who is a female teacher seems to be from the city.
"What village is in the city?"
When the mad dog heard the news, he thought seriously. For the first time, he felt that the world seemed to have other places besides these villages.
So
The mad dog gave birth to a teacher from this city village.
But you can't go directly.
Why?
Because, when adults see him, no one does not hate him. They either avoid it or settle the old and new debts together.
So, the mad dog proudly made a plan with his experience.
When he was in school, he would quietly run to the thatched hut and look inward carefully by the window.
But the vision is not very good, and you can only see a back.
Two arms, two legs, one head.
Just like myself.
But what he said, his voice, and his tone were something he had never seen before.
The mad dog lay on the corner of the window and listened carefully.
He sometimes studies with him.
The mad dog doesn't know why, but in his heart, he has a strong desire for this matter.
Even he stole a cell phone outside, but he was not willing to sell it. Instead, he used a function he found that could record the sound, secretly recorded the sound outside, and returned to the cardboard box to listen slowly at night.
But this is the last time I heard it.
One day.
At lunch, the black dog looked at the children in the corner and swallowed his saliva.
The movement was seen by several adults, who thought it was a child who had not paid the meal fee.
But when I looked closer, I found it was a mad dog.
The faces of several people suddenly became gloomy. Just as they were about to hit someone, the mad dog had already run away in advance. "What's wrong?"
The teacher instructor noticed the movement here, turned his head to look at it, and asked suspiciously. "It's nothing, I'll meet a star of destruction!"
The man said with a bad face, looking around at the same time, determined to strengthen the maintenance of the fence.
"What's the star of the desolation?" The teacher was confused when he was said.
"I tell you, you are a teacher who just came here, and I didn't know there was a wild bastard in the village."
"The little bastard is crazy, he doesn't tell any truth, he beats him every day smash and loot"
"Hide away when you see it"
Listening to the loud voice behind him, the mad dog ran faster and faster.
I haven't been to school since then.
He felt that the school was just like that, and he could listen to the class as much as he wanted.
The mad dog continues to smash and loot. Although such a life is dangerous, it can still survive.
He continued to dominate.
Several villages moved to nearby also gradually realized his reputation.
He successfully evolved from a mad dog to a mangy dog.
Even if it is a trash can, I think it's unlucky to see him.
Of course, there are no trash bins here.
The mad dog climbed over the garbage dump here. In order to find something to eat, he learned about all the garbage dumps here.
There are no trash cans, so he doesn't feel that he can't compare to the trash cans.
But at least in the hearts of others, he is a mangy dog.
Fortunately, the mad dog is not only not angry, but also smiles proudly, occasionally full of disdain.
Later.
The garbage dump is gone.
No, or rather, there is no trash to eat.
That was the Chinese New Year.
1994, February 9.
Today is New Year's Eve.
The mad dog is so hungry that he can't stand it anymore.
During the Chinese New Year, every household stays at home, and the garbage is often uneducated.
He couldn't sneak in and steal, as soon as he entered the door, he would be a few adults.
Even if he has money, it is useless, and the small shop is not open at all.
He didn't know what he could eat or whether he could survive this New Year's Eve.
In a trance.
The mad dog remembered it, and remembered a place.
School.
The school has a canteen for eating, and there is slurry in the canteen. Although someone will deal with slurry.
But what if, what if it is not processed completely?
As long as you can fill your stomach.
The mad dog dragged his soft body towards the school.
When he walked to school and saw the clean bucket of water, he was suddenly desperate.
Just when he was thinking about where to grab some points.
In a trance, a seductive scent floated into his nose.
The mad dog paused, followed the fragrance and came to a thatched hut behind the school.
The thatched hut is a two-bedroom and one-living room, which is very simple, but there are sumptuous meals in the living room at this time.
This is the New Year's Eve dinner, with fish, duck and pork.
The mad dog looked straight, he swallowed, and felt cruel, turned straight into the window, stood at the table, and kept holding the food in his mouth with his hands. "Ah!"
A adult in the room was startled by the sudden scene and stayed aside.
The mad dog was unreasonable, and he tried his best to stuff more into his mouth.
One bite, two bite three bite
He has never eaten such a delicious meal.
The mad dog was not full, but his mind was normal.
There are people around him, but he is not afraid either.
Fear is because of the unknown.
He knew what he would be dealt with.
It's nothing more than a beat. Or he called the police and was thrown into the police station to celebrate the New Year. This is how he has lived in the past two years.
But.
The mad dog closed his eyes, stuffed something into his mouth and ate while waiting for a long time, but he didn't wait until the police was called or slapped.
He suddenly felt a little hesitant, opened his eyes and looked forward.
He saw a woman.
She looked at him, and the two looked at each other.
The woman didn't hit him.
She said, "Eat slowly and don't choke."
In an instant.
The black dog was stunned.
Six words fell, and he felt panic in his heart. He subconsciously looked around, and then lowered his head after no one was around.
No mistakes, one poem, one post, one content, one in 6, one book, one bar, one read!
He continued to bury his head, his oily hand holding the food and keep stuffing it into his mouth.
Eat while eating.
The black dog suddenly cried.
My body shook and she cried fiercely.
The teardrops as big as beans fell into the hands, confused with the food, and stuffed them into their mouths while crying.
He didn't know why he cried, but he just couldn't stop it anyway.
The woman sat aside without saying anything.
She rubbed the black dog's head.
She said: "You are at your age and you have to go to school."
Liu Jia is 23 years old this year and has just graduated from a normal school.
Actually, she doesn't want to teach.
But unfortunately, there are not many careers that girls in my hometown can do.
Service industry, public examination, teachers.
She definitely doesn't choose the former, it's too tiring and hard. She wants to be a teacher, but ordinary teachers are also very competitive and it is difficult to rise.
So, she went to teach.
Teaching support is beneficial. If it meets a certain period of time, the official will give preferential treatment to the teaching support teacher.
Liu Jia came to a remote village in Nanshan Province.
She was still very annoyed when she arrived here.
It's very dirty, people are not of quality, they are not well-eated, they live in poor environment!
To be honest, the previous month, Liu Jia had the idea of running away countless times.
But it was still suppressed, until later, the thought was completely gone during the Chinese New Year.
She picked up a child during the Chinese New Year.
It looks weird, but this thing is a birthmark, so Liu Jia doesn't care.
This child is quite well-behaved, and she doesn't know why the villagers give such negative comments.
At this age, Liu Jia didn't want him to go out and mess around, so she laughed and locked up the child.
Closed into school.
The boy who ate her New Year's Eve dinner also tasted the hard days she went to school.
As for what it is called
"What's your name?" Liu Jia asked. "Crazy Dog." The mad Dog said proudly.
"Bang!"
Liu Jia knocked on his head, thought for a long time, and asked.
"What's your last name?"
"Crazy" Mad Dog saw that he was about to be beaten again, so he quickly thought about it and recalled a word, "Chen."
Liu Jia raised her head, but she was still a little girl, and she felt that she had a small follower. "Then you will call Chen Zhi in the future!"
From then.
The mad dog has a name.
He is not called Chen Hei, nor is he called a mangy dog.
His name is Chen Zhi, and his name is Chen Dong, and his heart is determined, which shows that he must have ambition.
After entering the school, Liu Jia discovered it.
This kid is so smart!
He actually mastered it all in less than half a year in the sixth grade of elementary school!
In the three years of junior high school, I also learned faster than others. The essence of learning is better!
At this time.
Liu Jia is already twenty-seven.
She stayed in the village for four years, exceeding the expected three years.
She could leave, but never left. In the past four years, she saw many children like Chen Zhi and the village chief's pitiful and pleasing eyes.
She knows.
If I leave, maybe no one will come here again.
The village will still maintain the first time she saw, as she disliked.
So, Liu Jia stayed.
But.
The village is still poor.
A person cannot change the four words of "poor countryside".
Nothing else.
It's Chen Zhi alone.
Chen Zhi's tuition fee made Liu Jia feel worried.
Chen Zhi has no income, and she is responsible for all the expenses. This child is actually easy to support. He can only eat with food, and it is never cost money.
But even so, I can't afford it.
Liu Jia asked for money from her family, and her relatives were very angry. She was angry that the other party had not saved money for four years, and she even more angry that the other party would not come back. Over time, she directly cut off contact.
From this point.
Liu Jia is even more difficult.
One day. "Why don't I go to high school and take the college entrance exam?" At the dinner table, the silent Chen Zhi suddenly asked tentatively.
What greeted him was Liu Jia's fist like a sandbag.
"What are you not doing if you don't go to school? You are seeking death!"
Liu Jia slapped her mercilessly.
But the problem will not disappear with the slap.
Liu Jia still has to continue to face the problem of money.
But it's not all bad news.
She thought of it
Charity Association!
"Ms. Liu, this money is not because I don't want to send it, but because I have to send it to people in need."
"Our village needs it, key poor villages, even students are I can't afford to get there!" "
"Oh, are you anxious again?"
A man with a big belly was very displeased, and then said, "You are short of money, you have to provide evidence Ah, if you don’t give evidence, do I have to give anyone who wants money? Isn’t this a mess?”
Liu Jia held her breath and threw out various materials reports from the village.
But it's a pity. "Sorry, you don't meet our standards." The man glanced casually and spoke.
"Why don't you meet it!?"
Liu Jia suppressed her anger and smiled apologized, "The donated money was originally for the child, and the child needs it, can't I just give it money??"
Hearing this.
The man's face changed and he was extremely gloomy.
"The charity meeting also requires money to operate!"
"We have no money long ago. Let's do this. If you get five hundred yuan, you should use it urgently."
"Didn't a boss just donated several million not long ago? How could it be useless?" Liu Jia whispered.
The man was immediately angry and slapped the table vigorously.
"You're doing it?"
He was about to get angry, but when he looked up, it was the first time he had seen Liu Jia's appearance.
This time he was stunned and looked at the other person up and down.
Liu Jia is very beautiful and is a scholar. She has a hint of delicacy and has been a teacher for a long time. She has a different smell. If you dress up a little, you can make people look at her without makeup. Bright.
The man squinted his eyes. "This money is not something that can't be given." Liu Jia paused, subconsciously feeling that nothing good was wrong, but when she thought of Chen Zhi, she was silent for a long time, and still spoke with a stern voice.
"How can I give it?"
The world is sometimes quite abstract and difficult to stretch.
What you call a standard is not a standard.
The donation does not depend on whether you are pitiful or not. Whether you need it or not depends on whether you need it or not.
Give donations are not necessarily used for good deeds.
The money you donate may not be delivered to the people in need.
Oh.
Not right.
It can be delivered.
A million is about three hundred? five hundred?
The scholarship fund that Liu Jia needs is not something you can get by just having money to go to school.
You have to sleep with you.
It's probably like clicking a princess in KTV. "Mr. Zhang, let me tell you, I can arrange for you whoever you want to sleep with in this land in Nanshan Province!" On the dining table, the big belly poop was the man patted his chest and spoke to the other man.
"Please pick one and make arrangements for you tonight!"
"Really?"
The always-off face was smiling. "Really, play whatever you want!"
The man promised again.
"Nothing will happen?"
"How could something happen? They don't want money anymore!?"
The Zhang smiled, and the beastly desire in his heart turned into flames and burned in his eyes.
He licked his lips.
End, I pointed to a few photos.
These are a few students and a few teachers.
2002.
Zhang Hao is having a big time playing.
Walking by the river often, there is no way to get your shoes wet.
He played bigger and bigger, and he became more and more wild.
To abuse people, beat them, or even insult others' personality.
During the day, he is an entrepreneur and philanthropist who everyone admires, and at night, he is a local emperor who controls the power of life and death of others.
More and more and more careless.
Until one time.
He became more and more excited, and his hand was like a dog walking leash, strangling a woman to death.
After a person died, Zhang Hao was not panicked.
It's just a person who died. "Haha, their lives are not as good as us."
The man with a big belly smiled and called, with his corpse being next to him. He glanced at the one in his hand. The belt was thrown into the trash can. "It's just a bunch of inferior people."
"If you die, you will die."
"Don't worry, I'll solve it."
"Come and play next time."
Zhang Hao on the other side of the phone was also full of face. Smiling, replied: "Come again next time."
Human life is very cheap.
Same as a grass.
A person's disappearance will not cause too much trouble.
Some people may find it confused, but they won't go into it too much.
Same as the man said.
Liu Jia's life is very cheap.
So.
A person who needs to sleep with him or her. After sleeping for countless times, he or she can get a little donation, his life is indeed "sincere", otherwise he or she or she doesn't need to sleep with him or her.
But.
This is within the rules.
And outside the rules
A man splattered blood with anger for five steps!
The same year.
A silent man
Opened his notebook.
Liu Jia once told Chen Zhi that an ugly duckling will turn into a white swan.
Later
In 2004, the interrogation room.
Chen Zhi looked at Xu Ho. He wanted to smoke a cigarette, but in the end he just smacked his lips.
"Ducks and goose are two kinds of creatures."
"It will never change in a lifetime."
"But"Live is the same."
(The end of this chapter)