Chapter 300 I want to love him
Xu Jiayu was stunned when he heard Ding Dang's reaction.
Although Ding Dang smiled, he seemed to be completely disappointed with the man while talking, just like when she learned that Xu Boyuan had cheated on her at the age of nineteen.
Xu Jiayu understands the feeling of this painful pulling feeling too much.
Ding Dang seemed to cut the mess quickly, quickly pulled away from the painful relationship, but went to another extreme.
Looking back at Xu Shujie and He Guifang that winter, every bit of Xu Boyuan and Ms. Meng kept popping up in her mind. It was obvious that the two of them fell in love so much, so was everything fake?
But it is a sure fact that an illegitimate child and a second marriage are also a foregone conclusion.
For ten years, as long as she faces intimate relationships, she will continue to fall into doubt.
Even if she meets someone she likes, when she thinks of her parents, she will tell herself "Forget it". In the end, she will be sad, and she will still hit the wall even though she knows the ending.
Thinking about it now, when he was having dinner with Zheng Wenbin, he really looked like a careful and good husband, a good father who cared about his children in every possible way. No one could have imagined that he would cheat on his wife and even said bastard words like "fake divorce" and "leave blood".
Xu Jiayu took a deep breath and made his tone as relaxed as possible. "First of all, I admit that my love with Lin Mochen began with facial features, but this did not prevent Lin Mochen himself from being a particularly good person! It's not because he is good to me, but because he is a good person himself."
"He has a strong sense of responsibility, a kind heart, and seems to be cold-hearted. He is so busy at work, but he will run to the woods to feed stray cats during lunch break. When facing such difficult patients, he always answers patiently and guides them step by step, although the effect may not be very good."
"Secondly... it's respect. If I hadn't met Chen Ming today, I wouldn't have been that big. Feelings. "You know I am a self-twist person. I don't like what I'm asked to do or what I don't do. When I was a child, the teacher would say Xu Jiayu, you are a girl, don't jump up and down and be like a girl. At that time, I was wondering what a girl looks like? "
"The teacher wouldn't say this after going to college, but when the aunt in the cafeteria saw you eating more, she would say that girls shouldn't eat too much. If they are too fat, others don't like you. I was wondering why I had to like others? I affirm my value through other people's likes? I'm very strange, right?"
"Later I realized that even if my parents don't say it, I have heard too many such words since I was a child. Girls should have gentle personality, not be too exposed in their clothes, and not be too sharp at work, which will put pressure on people. Too good or too mediocre. This is not possible, and that is not possible!"
"So, in order to cater to others, I learned to aggrieved myself, disguise myself, and do things I don't want to do. Sometimes in front of the mirror, I can't feel that the person in the mirror is me."
"But in front of Lin Mochen, I never need to disguise myself."
"But in front of Lin Mochen, I never need to disguise myself."
"But in front of Lin Mochen, I never need to disguise myself. He knew that I loved face. When I was sad and wanted to cry, he would say, 'Cry if I wanted to cry, no one could see it, even if I hadn't cried; when I was smirking, he would tell me, 'Don't force me, there was no need to pretend to be happy if I didn't want to laugh, 'Don't force me to be happy'; after realizing my sensitivity, he would tell me again and again that he loved me."
"The most important thing is that no matter what attitude I face him, he never thought of changing me according to his wishes."
Ding Dang looked at Xu Jiayu's eyes seriously, "But... he wants to divorce you!"
Xu Jiayu sighed and nodded, "Indeed, he wants to divorce me. But his starting point is not to not love me, but to be afraid that I will be hurt again."
"Lin Mochen is such a person. He has the responsibility of being a doctor and his personality shortcomings. Just like you said that as a doctor, he cannot choose patients. In a dilemma, he chose to be wronged and protect my safety. Because of this reason, I think I can't let it go. "
"I asked myself countless times whether to be with Lin Mochen. The answer is yes. I don't want to divorce not only because he loves me, but because I want to love him." "
"Ding Dang, I don't want to regret it, I'm even more afraid of guilt."
After hearing Xu Jiayu's words, Ding Dang suddenly felt that he was looking for abuse. The relationship between Xu Jiayu and Lin Mochen did not have much reference significance for her.
But she envied Xu Jiayu's courage to face her own will. On the other hand, she hated her endless blind dates on her only rest day, but seeing her mother's expectant gaze, she didn't even have the courage to express her inner thoughts.
Ding Dang never slept all night.
The same night has not been sleeping, and there is also a very good doctor.
The moment when Lin Mochen opened the door with a complicated mood, he realized that Xu Jiayu had moved out.
Everything in the room remained the same, and as when she came, she only took her suitcase.
The gray scarf is placed on the desk with a note on it, "It's cold, take care of yourself."
The scarf has warmed its tentacles, and the corners are also made of cy's English letters with wool. The pins are not detailed, almost the same as the one seventeen years ago.
He held up the scarf and rubbed it repeatedly, and there were still crochets and wool in the corner of the study. Did Xu Jiayu sit here and ticker out the scarf stitched out that night?
Lin Mochen took a deep breath and suddenly felt that the home in front of him was a bit quiet and terrible.
He stood up and walked to the bed to open the window, but saw the cardboard box blocked by a large number of documents. Lin Mochen bent the corners of his mouth and picked up the album and opened it.
The boy and girl in the photo are young at the age of thirteen or fourteen. Both of them are holding their hands with their backs, with their backs on their faces full of dissatisfaction with each other.
He has seen this album countless times. This photo should be in the second year of junior high school. Before he and Xu Jiayu had a breakup, they would disappear afterwards.
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Lin Mochen closed the album and wanted to put it back, but suddenly a photo fell out of the album.
He picked it up and saw that in the photo, Xu Jiayu was standing at the door of the study, while he was sitting in the study, staring at the computer intently, as if he was working.
There are also small words in the blank area of the photo: It’s already one o’clock in the morning~Dr. Lin is still working, and Mrs. Lin is going to stay alone in the empty room again! I really want to tell Dr. Lin to pay attention to his body while studying medical skills! Someone will worry about him.
Take the album back and find that the original blank space was almost filled after the album.
The earliest photo was at my grandmother's house. He was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, Xu Jiayu pinched the candy paper and took a photo with him with his mouth flattened. There was a large piece of scattered candy paper under the ground...
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Today is also a day to love your babies.
Lin Mochen’s warm reminder:
At the beginning of the new year, everything will be renewed. Babies should remember to stay up late while celebrating the festival. I wish you good health.
Of course, a certain Dr. Lin will live up to expectations and continue to practice love words in the new year.
In 2025, come on together.