Chapter 175 Suguha: Please accept mine
"After this trip is over, I have to go on a blind date according to the arrangements of my uncles when I return to Tokyo."
So she said.
The fluttering words made Haruye Sawayama freeze on the spot.
Although it has long been known that some big families, or people with status like the island's royal family, will be faced with such things as "engagement contracts" or "blind marriages", but in fact, there is something even more different. Feeling.
Not to mention it's someone I know in real life.
Looking at Esaki Suguha's somewhat helpless and inexplicably haggard look, Sawayama Haruno felt that the "irritability" in his heart was getting stronger.
It felt like it was going to be extremely difficult to breathe, and random thoughts kept pouring out.
For some reason, he felt like he didn't want to see Suguha Esaki become like that.
It's very strange, maybe because the other party's current behavior is also asking him for help in disguise?
Not sure, but Haruno Sawayama still asked with some difficulty:
"Isn't it rejection?"
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Esaki Suguha didn't speak, but that expression said everything.
As if he could feel the pressure of the other party, Haruno Sawayama took a few deep breaths in an attempt to calm down his heart.
Born into such a family, it's no wonder that Suguha's father would do such "rebellious" behavior. In the end, she still followed the same path that her parents had walked.
Although he could have more choices, he was forced to live a life he didn't like because of the burden of his family.
After all, the lessons of his parents were laid out in blood, so it was no wonder that Suguha Ezaki was depressed.
Sawayama Haruno just imagines that if it were him, he probably wouldn't be able to accept this kind of thing.
Then
The nameless karma fire in my heart seemed to be getting stronger.
"Occasionally I want to evade some responsibilities, but if I'm alone, I'm just acting willfully."
Esaki Suguha lowered her eyes and said softly: "After all, my family has spent a lot of "resources" on me over the years. The food, clothing, housing, food and clothing are more luxurious than ordinary families, so I have to pay the price for these things. , it’s not that I can’t understand it.”
"Isn't that what it is?"
Haruno Sawayama became increasingly upset and tried to argue: "Isn't this a matter of "self-care"? I didn't give you a chance to choose at all."
".Yeah?"
Suguha Esaki seemed to have expected that Haruno Sawayama would say this.
Looking at the other person's frown, it was the first time she intuitively felt someone else's concern for her.
A smile couldn't help but appear on his face.
"really."
"Haruno will care about me."
"Isn't this natural?" Haruno Sawayama became even more helpless, suppressing the feeling of discomfort in his heart and said, "Didn't I say it before? We are already friends. We care about this kind of thing more or less. There are still some.”
"That's why I feel like I saw the right person." Suguha Esaki said softly.
"What did you see wrong?"
The tone of that sentence was so soft that Haruno Sawayama, who was agitated, couldn't hear what she was saying and subconsciously asked the other party to repeat it.
But he soon discovered that his repetition seemed to cause unnecessary trouble.
Because Ezaki Suguha swept away the pile of snacks placed between the two of them and moved to his side bit by bit.
"I said."
She leaned over and exhaled softly: "You're right, Haruno is great."
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The room fell silent.
Looking at this pretty face that was so close and exquisite, Sawayama Haruno swallowed subconsciously.
I don’t know why, but I’ve been feeling “dry mouth” since just now.
Was what I drank just now really orange juice? Why did it feel like drinking sea water? After drinking it, I felt a burning sensation in my throat, as if I was very thirsty.
Even the brain's thinking ability has slowed down by half a beat.
Looking at Esaki Suguha who suddenly attacked in front of him, he did not distance himself, but asked in a daze: "What do you mean?"
"I already knew it."
"Haruno is different from the people I have met before. I can confirm this just by looking at you and Maki."
Esaki Suguha paused, then licked her lips and added: "So I think if it is Haruno, he will definitely remember me as I am now."
"It doesn't matter even if I end up in the same tragedy as my parents, as long as someone can remember me and keep looking at me with that feeling."
"It doesn't matter if the relationship only lasts for one night. As long as the feeling remains, it won't be a two-hour relationship."
As she said that, she suddenly reached out and touched Haruno Sawayama's cheek.
Through the skin, Sawayama Haruno discovered that the other party's fingers also felt warm in a somewhat dazed state.
There seems to be something wrong.
"I don't quite understand what you said."
Sawayama Haruno has a slightly difficult path.
The other person's touch seemed to make the "distracting thoughts" in his heart become more and more intense. It was not until this moment that he relied on his vague intuition to judge that something seemed not right with his body.
No, it's not wrong.
Something was quite wrong, especially after Suguha Ezaki appeared.
If the irritability level when I just finished coding was between 4 and 6, now it is 8-10, maybe even higher. So much so that the brain that used to be sober now has a tendency to try to go on strike and not want to think too much.
"What I mean is simple."
Watching Sawayama Haruno's face gradually "warm up", Esaki Suguha's movements of stroking his face became more and more gentle.
She moved closer to him again.
The black silk nightgown was now completely attached to the skin of Haruno Sawayama's arms.
"Ah chirp——"
In the room, Feng Shiori sneezed for no reason.
The petite girl frowned and rubbed her nose in discomfort.
I have a strange feeling. I have been sneezing a few times for no apparent reason since just now. It doesn’t look like I have a cold or a pollen allergy.
Forget it, forget about it for now.
Feng Shizhi took a deep breath and returned his attention to the tablet in his hand.
The document above is surprisingly the entire text of "Norwegian Wood" that Haruno Sawayama sent her just now.
Although I have read the content countless times, this is the first time I have read the entire book purely for entertainment.
It must be Haruno’s first time too, right?
Thinking of this, Feng Shiori couldn't help but reveal a sweet smile.
The first time and the first time.
Although he is the first reader of the entire book, after all, this book is also Haruno's debut, and he has spent so much effort on it.
When she actually got it in her hand, Feng Shiori was secretly happy.
Afterwards, when it is officially published, I will have to let Haruno keep the "first time" for herself.
I don't know if she thought of something strange, but Feng Shizhi's face turned redder and redder, and there seemed to be mist brewing in her eyes. The girl's shy appearance was particularly beautiful.
By the time she came back to her senses, the tablet in her hand had already dimmed and was about to enter the screen-off mode.
Feng Shiori quickly clicked a few more times to wake it up.
"It's about to begin"
Feng Shizhi murmured in a low voice.
With uncontrollable emotions, she gently opened the document.
The familiar page layout and familiar content were once again displayed in front of her.
I have obviously read the content countless times, but this time I had a completely different feeling.
Is it because the stories finally come together?
Feng Shiori was a little speechless.
All she knew was that the further she looked, the more confused her inner thoughts became.
It was exactly the same as the "problem" she encountered yesterday. Just looking at the inner problems of the characters in the novel, she couldn't help but think of what happened to herself.
Then
That desire grew stronger and stronger, making her uneasy all the time.
Even though I was reading the novel very engrossed, other thoughts always appeared in my mind.
If it were normal times, she would have already taken out the clip to help herself get rid of "distracted thoughts" and punish herself by the way, right?
But today, she held back again.
There is a feeling that after doing something like that here, Haruno will be let down, and he will feel that he can never go back.
So she must look carefully at the back. She has had enough of torturing her feelings.
after all
What should I do if I get together with Haruno in the future and the other party discovers that I have a hobby of punishing myself?
The other party will definitely worry about him
That's why I have to use Haruno's "kindness" here to completely get rid of this quirk of mine.
Feng Shizhi took a deep breath, and the hand holding the tablet was trembling slightly.
After seeing Naoko's subsequent plot and Watanabe's continuous changes in mentality, she felt increasingly uncomfortable.
Time passed by quietly like this.
This night, the moonlight refracted through the sand dunes into the courtyard as always.
Some people are getting more worried, some are getting more irritable, and some people's consciousness has become blurred.
When the time in the upper corner of the tablet quietly came to almost four in the morning, Feng Shizhi exhaled heavily and slowly put the tablet down.
Finished reading.
It took four hours.
She didn't read it as "carefully" as before, and because she had read it countless times, she naturally read it quickly this time.
But it has a completely different feeling.
"Death is not the opposite of life, but an eternal part of life."
Once again, she whispered the words that Haruno Sawayama once revealed.
Obviously I had known about it a long time in advance, but after seeing it this time, I didn't know why I couldn't calm down for a long time.
After seeing the ending, Watanabe finally looked relieved, which also made her mood a little inexplicable.
Is this what happened?
So that’s what happened.
A slightly bitter smile bloomed on the petite girl's lips, but tears fell one drop at a time on the smooth flat screen.
Life is obviously such a simple thing, but I have been struggling with it and been troubled for so long.
Whether it's my mother's affairs or my own affairs with Haruno, it couldn't be simpler.
She felt that she should have thought a little more clearly.
Silent changes occur within someone's body.
The most intuitive feeling is that when the body's detoxification function is greatly improved, the person recovers from the "weird" state in less than a moment.
(End of chapter)