Chapter 153 [Extra] Gu Changnian
To this day, Gu Changnian still can’t stop thinking about what it would be like if he had it to do over again.
In the war three years ago, the immortals and demons temporarily formed an alliance, with the common goal of sealing the demon god. The black mask covering the northern border suddenly disappeared, and the demon god left behind The miasma completely dissipated overnight, and the water of Santu River returned to calm.
Just a demon, never heard from again.
The three Yue Qingru people who came back from Santuchuan only said that they saw the river ebb with their own eyes, but they did not see the devil.
That demon seemed to be the same as her, leaving no trace behind.
It seems that the chaos has been settled. Even the relationship between immortals and demons is much better than before. The only one who has been severely damaged seems to be Beifeng.
That person is no longer there, and the already deserted Yaoguang Sect, with him and Yue Qingru left, is as cold as an ice cellar, as if no sunlight can penetrate.
Occasionally, he would fall into dreams, but he never dreamed of her.
Those dreams, like the reversal of the past and present life, allowed him to see what would have happened to him if she had not appeared——
Break through the realm in practice, win the championship, obtain two swords, successfully kill the master, seal the demon...
Gu Changnian in the dream, everything will go smoothly, everything seems so smooth and logical. It should be like taking every step on a pre-planned route.
But he only felt strange, as if he had seen other people's lives and had nothing to do with him.
If possible, he would rather dream of that person and start over with her in his dream.
This time, he will never thrust out that sword again. He will tell her: I believe this is all a misunderstanding. I know you have no ill intentions, so don’t keep your distance from me and don’t be wary. I, just the two of us, live a good life in the mist-shrouded Beifeng...
But he still has never dreamed of her.
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In the battle in the north, he was seriously injured. Even if he recovered from the injury, it left irreversible root causes and there was no possibility of ascension.
But it doesn’t matter to him anymore.
His daily hard practice in Jianjing is not as diligent as several other immortal masters said, but for the purpose of self-torture, so that he can fall endlessly into irreparable pain.
His time seemed to have stopped after her death, and every day and night had no meaning in his eyes.
He regretted extremely, how could he understand his feelings after losing that person, how could he not realize that she and the master were two completely different people.
How could I, ignoring those obsessions and entanglements is clearly proof that I admire her.
Unfortunately, she only woke up at the last moment...
She came from another world. When she first arrived, the first person to see her was obviously him, but he did not recognize her. , got to know her, and became the first person to send her away without even having a chance to express his sincerity.
She once took the initiative to show her kindness to him and gave the two of them opportunities to get along further, but he did not seize them.
Maybe, it really is God’s will.
She replaced the master who gave him constant nightmares, but she also prevented him from ever entering her heart.
Yue Qingru has always been big-hearted, and after a few days of being dejected when he came back, he jumped away as usual.
In this world, the only junior sister who can miss the same person as me cannot feel his loneliness and loneliness.
So apart from training with Yue Qingru regularly, he no longer even wanted to see Yue Qingru.
No, if you think about it carefully, it’s not like no one can feel his feelings.
Chi Yu has always known him very well.
Over the years, Chi Yu often came to visit him, but he always stayed behind closed doors.
"Go back, and don't come to see me again in the future."
Chi Yu outside the door said calmly: "If this is what you want, then I will not come again. "Chi Yu," hearing the sound of footsteps, he couldn't help blurting out his apology: "I'm sorry."
Chi Yu said, "There is nothing wrong with this kind of thing." "Everything worthy of her comes from her heart."
Chi Yu has always known him well, and she may have discovered his feelings earlier than he did.
His loneliness and the affection that he can no longer express to that person, if he shares it with Chi Yu, she will definitely feel the same.
But he can't do this, it's too despicable...
He can't delay Chi Yu any longer...
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Two more years later, Yue Qingru is already She could be a monk on her own, but in Lingshan, she still only got close to Chen Yue and Yun Chu. Every time she went down the mountain, the three of them were inseparable.
Every time he came back from the mountain, Yue Qingru was obviously in a good mood, but he couldn't understand why he could be so happy.
Happiness with him seemed like something I had never experienced in my previous life.
"Senior brother?" Yue Qingru held a lot of Dharma books in his hands and a brush in his mouth, and said vaguely: "Why are you willing to go out today?"
He said: "I'll go and sit in Master's room for a while."
Yue Qingru's face suddenly wrinkled, looking like he was hesitating and troubled about something, then he put down the Dharma book and came over to persuade: "Senior brother, Master has been away for five years, don't be sad anymore."
Gu Changnian twitched the corners of his lips, as if smiling, but his dim eyes were full of endless sadness: "Okay. ”
Yue Qing was about to speak but stopped. He didn't know what he was holding back, and said stiffly: "If master were still here, he definitely wouldn't want you to torture yourself like this."
Gu Changnian smiled mockingly to himself. : "If she is still here...how could she care about how I tortured myself..." Then she walked towards the man's former residence.
"Senior Brother!" Yue Qingru stopped him, but did not speak immediately. After hesitating for a long time, he said as if he had given up: "I went down the mountain this time and saw a man who looked exactly like Master. Very similar."
"Really?" Gu Changnian stopped for a moment and responded casually: "That's good."
What's the point of looking alike. , no matter how much he looks like, it will never be her...
Turning around the corridor, Qi Guanrui walked towards him.
Qi Guanrui's eyes were filled with sadness and longing. The two of them obviously looked nothing alike, but for some reason, Gu Changnian felt like he was looking in the mirror.
In the past few years, Qi Guanrui, who was practicing in Tianshu Sect, would often come to the peach blossom tree at Beifeng to remember that person, but Gu Changnian rarely saw him.
There seems to be a unique tacit understanding between the two. Neither of them is willing to meet the other person, who is in almost the same situation as themselves. It seems that as long as they speak the right words, the wounds in their hearts that have not yet scarred will disappear. It will be torn to pieces again and dripping with blood.
The same goes for this time.
The two looked at each other, then lowered their eyes and passed each other.
Walking to the end of the corridor, he heard Yue Qingru greeting Qi Guanrui -
"Second Young Master, are you here again?"
"Well, come and sit for a while. "
"Well, actually, Second Young Master, the master has been away for five years, you..."
"I know, I'm just sitting for a while"
Chang Gu. Nian slowly closed his eyes and relaxed his stiff shoulders: There is another person in this world who, like him, never forgets that person, which is already good...
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