Chapter 35 Self-Destructive Tendency
After the incident, Tang Wulin and Huo Yutong returned to the college with several deans, crossed Poseidon Lake, and came to the small island in the middle of the lake.
Poseidon Island only looks like about two square kilometers. It is not flat. Instead, it looks like a hill, with various pavilions and pavilions built on it.
Mun led everyone along a stone path towards the center of Poseidon Island. When they reached the top of the mountain, a building with only three floors high appeared in front of them.
This building looks unremarkable, but there is a black plaque on the door, which reads "Poseidon Pavilion" in gold-plated characters.
Mo En said kindly to Tang Wulin and Huo Yutong:
“From now on, the two innermost rooms on the second floor will be your rooms. Stay there and go to class as usual during the day. It's getting late, so go back to the house and rest."
Tang Wulin and Huo. After Yutong nodded, they walked up to the second floor together.
After reaching the end of the corridor, Tang Wulin looked at Huo Yutong.
"Yutong, which room do you want to choose?"
"I can do either." Huo Yutong hesitated and asked, "Wulin, can I have a chat with you?"
"Of course."
Tang Wulin opened the door closer to the two of them, smiled slightly and said:
"Let's go in and chat."
The room in the Poseidon Pavilion was not very big, but it was more than enough for two people. After Tang Wulin pulled out a chair for Huo Yutong to sit down, he sat on the edge of the bed.
He asked curiously:
"What's the matter with you?"
"Well..." Huo Yutong frowned slightly, thought for a while and said: " In fact, it’s nothing. I just feel that things are moving too fast and there is no sense of reality. I just want to talk to you.”
“That’s it. Indeed, I feel very unreal.”
Tang Wulin smiled bitterly and nodded, expressing his understanding.
Two days ago they were just ordinary students. As a result, starting yesterday, they were first assassinated and then treated unfairly. Then they were discovered by the higher-ups of the college just when they wanted to drop out secretly. As a result, they were now taken to the so-called Poseidon Island in the center of the academy.
Things progressed so fast. In just one day, their situations were already completely different.
It’s no wonder that Huo Yutong has no sense of reality. Let alone her, even Tang Wulin doubts that he will find out that this is just a dream when he wakes up tomorrow morning.
"In addition, there is one more thing I want to know." Huo Yutong hesitated for a moment and then asked: "Why did you think of resisting the academy? I didn't even have the idea at the time."
Speaking of this, she was afraid that Tang Wulin would misunderstand, so she quickly said:
"Ah, I'm not saying that Wulin you didn't do well, I just felt very surprised, why didn't I What do you think?"
She was very confused. In hindsight, Tang Wulin's approach was undoubtedly correct, but why didn't she have any thoughts like him when the incident happened? .
In response to her question, Tang Wulin's expression became a little sad.
He does know the answer to this question.
"I think it's probably because you don't have the knowledge of self-love."
Huo Yutong was stunned.
“What do you mean?”
She thought she had taken herself seriously enough.
Tang Wulin sighed.
"Actually, I have been feeling recently, Yutong, you really take your own affairs very seriously."
Whether it is overexerting my own energy in class to help Tang Wulin win No matter how much she regretted not being able to protect Tang Wulin despite being more seriously injured during the assassination incident.
She has always put the affairs of those she values before her own affairs.
If Wang Dong did not resist because she was greedy for money, and the key point was that the value of the elixir was high enough, then the reason why Huo Yutong did not resist was because she felt that her life was worthless, and the key point was that her life was worthless. of contempt.
She has a slight tendency to self-destruct and does not take her own life seriously at all. Tang Wulin even doubted that if someone said that they could exchange her life for the destruction of the Duke's family, she would not hesitate. Agree hesitantly.
Tang Wulin believes that the key to her having such values lies in her childhood growth environment.
Except for her mother, no one valued her, no one took her seriously, so she subconsciously put her status very low.
Although she subjectively attaches great importance to her dignity and hates others insulting her, in fact she even underestimates herself unconsciously. Huo Yutong looked very confused.
"Even if you tell me this, I will..."
Just as Tang Wulin thought, Huo Yutong did not see what he meant subjectively. This is the shadow her childhood cast on her nature.
Because of this, she was at a loss.
Things you are not aware of cannot be changed.
“I understand.” Tang Wulin said seriously: “So leave this matter to me. Whenever you unconsciously make yourself worse, I will remind you immediately and I will do my best. To change your character.”
In fact, he has always done this.
When he learned that Huo Yutong was mentally exhausted and wanted to continue practicing, he took her to Shrek City to relax.
When he discovered that Huo Yutong did not resist the will of the college, he personally took her hand and ran to the outside world.
It doesn’t matter what a person says, what matters is how he does it.
Hearing what he said, Huo Yutong opened his eyes wide in surprise, with a moving light shining in his eyes.
"That is to say, are you willing to stay with me all the time? Are you willing to accompany me for the rest of your life?"
"Well, of course."
Tang Wulin nodded firmly.
He knows that only subtle changes can have an effect on this kind of thing, so he will use long-term companionship to change her.
“…”
Huo Yutong’s eye circles suddenly turned red.
She quickly wiped her eyes and said with a slight cry:
"I'm sorry, I cried just this morning, and now I let you see my embarrassing look again."
" It doesn't matter, this is normal."
Tang Wulin said gently.
He didn't mind. Rather, seeing Huo Yutong so moved by his words made him feel very satisfied.
Huo Yutong burst into tears and laughed.
She reached out to Tang Wulin.
"Then we made an appointment. You will always stay with me and help me change myself, and I will always stay with you and never betray you, okay?"
The moonlight shines through the window. Entering the room, the light shone on Huo Yutong's face.
Her eye circles were red, and a teardrop slipped from the corner of her eye and flowed on her cheek. However, she did not look sad at all, because her expression was so happy.
"Well, we have an appointment."
Tang Wulin said softly, and hooked his fingers with Huo Yutong.
This is their lifelong promise.
Digression
Little Huo Niang’s good impression continues
I personally think that Lao Huo has always had a strong tendency to self-destruct.
When I was in elementary school, I read comics. The scene that impressed me most was when he said to Wang Dong, "I will bite off a piece of flesh from you even if I die." (The comics are very impactful), and there are all kinds of different things. The intensity of cultivation that treats oneself as a human being gives me the feeling that as long as revenge is successful, he can do anything.
Of course, it just gave me this feeling in the early stage, and as the number of companions around him increased, his feeling became weaker and weaker (except when Moon died, which became more serious during that time) ), but in the later period, when something happened to Dong'er and Qiu'er sacrificed himself, his self-destruction was no longer what I felt, but what was decided by the original text many times (including but not limited to Mingdou Mountains, Nine Blades and Eighteen Caves).
Perhaps this impression is too strong, although the character of Yu Tong in my two books is completely different. The previous one was a heavy girl with a bit of a spoiled character, while this one is Huo Yun. It is a youth version of my son, but this self-destructive tendency is at the core of my creation.
The protagonist Lin Xi in the previous book brought salvation to the two girls Huo Yutong and Dai Yutong, but failed to teach them self-love. I hope this book can be different.
In addition, I thought about it and started a book group for this book so that we can communicate more about the future direction of this book.
Introduction to the book group.
(End of this chapter)