Asking for leave + letter of apology
Boys, let’s get down to business first.
I may need a two-day holiday, that is, I will resume updating on October 8th.
The following is an explanation of some recent events, as well as my apology.
Anyone who is interested can take a look.
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This book has more than 1.7 million words, which is not a lot on this platform, but it is a lot for me, so much that I could not even think about it before. I dare not even think about it.
With the support of so many big guys, the results were beyond what I could have imagined.
I did not live up to the support.
After all, I really have a lot of bad habits, such as super severe procrastination, laziness, like having sex, watching short videos, reading two pieces of chicken soup copy, and getting excited, making promises, and then not being able to do them at all.
I would like to say sorry to the big guys here.
Of course, I have to explain that many bigwigs feel that the 19th grade has become too high and they don’t take readers seriously anymore.
I really don’t have this.
I thought about the reasons for this statement, mainly in terms of updates and attitudes.
Let’s talk about attitude first.
For example, if you don’t ask for leave after a break, this happened twice.
To be honest, it’s not that I’m in a bad mood. How can I be qualified to write a book with such good results to the point where it’s so high and low that it collapses into a sea of rocks and seas?
I just don’t dare to send a request for leave. I can’t explain the reason. I just don’t dare to face the big readers, and I have a pure giant baby mentality.
I really miss the days when I wrote that my hands were shaking with excitement. I happily copied book reviews, went to the comment area to interact with the readers, and wrote a short composition when I had nothing to do.
After all, I have never seen a big scene and have little experience. I have done a lot of funny things.
But now, to be honest, I haven’t read any book reviews for two months. I even deleted this platform. I don’t dare to look at the background data. I can’t click on it. I rarely participate in the author’s circle anymore.
(PS: I don’t mean to blame readers for bad reviews. I am like that. Even when I am most frustrated, as soon as I start writing, the only thought left in my mind is that I am happy to write. Look Aren’t you upset? ! It’s silly, but you are really confident.
But at this time, if someone seriously tells me that they are really upset, I will immediately feel embarrassed and start to doubt myself. , I don’t know how to write it, so I can only pour water on it and imitate the previous writing method, but my mentality is different, and the things I write are different after all)
I used to ask my operating officer friend to tactfully describe to me the recent As for the opinions of the readers, I can’t even accept this euphemistic approach. Every time I see my friend’s embarrassed smile, I can just think of a hundred sentences in my head.
From this point on, apart from code words, I was directly out of touch with online writing.
This kind of secluded state of making cars does not allow me to concentrate on the plot. It only makes me more and more afraid and disgusted with this matter. To put it bluntly, I don’t have the ability to write well, and I don’t have the mentality to withstand pressure.
Sometimes when I get impatient, I start talking about chicken soup, and then I talk eloquently.
I have too many rhetoric and can no longer write it down. When I need to issue a chapter or a request for leave, I feel really embarrassed. I look for excuses like crazy. If I make too many excuses, I feel even more embarrassed. It is a vicious circle until it is over. Damn, I don’t want to say anything.
That’s it for the attitude issue, I apologize and bow to the bosses.
Next is the question of updates.
For those who write online articles, the number of words is money. Who doesn’t like money? I also want to earn more.
I can’t write it.
The reason why I couldn't write it is also very simple. The book was expected to be 700,000 words from the beginning, and then I tried to finish it to give myself the satisfaction of finishing the book.
Why 700,000 words? Because 300,000 words are on the shelves, 120,000 words are updated a month, and it is finished in three months, which is almost the number of words. After that, you can use it as you like, and the completion will be considered a success.
As the results improved, I started to make up the settings and conceive of the subsequent plot.
With Daqian, Nanyang, Hongze, Xianting and Human Dynasty, finally completed, the conception of these four major maps.
Well, the person who came up with this idea has never written such a long one. It was purely based on fantasy.
So it is inevitable that the more you write, the more difficult it becomes.
Some bosses said that if I can’t write it, I’ll finish it. The problem is that as soon as I came out of Nanyang Treasure Land, the thread of Xianting was laid out. I wrote the story of Xuan Qing in the first chapter. Now I haven’t written about Xianting. I don’t want to I think this is called the end. Isn't this just the eunuch changing the word?
Summary.
My friend told me, don’t promise anything at will in the future, such as making up for updates. Don’t brag until you make up for it.
But, but.
I promise once again, no matter whether anyone cares about this matter (bragging, I still hope someone cares, otherwise it would be so sad), I will finish writing it.
1.75 million words, this is the closest I have ever come to finishing it. If I give up halfway, I will have nightmares when I sleep in the future.
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My family, who knows? I used to write my essays with high spirits, but now my essays are full of shame.
If you are not capable enough, you still have to accept criticism. How can you escape by being an ostrich?
It’s so outrageous. People write books to practice writing skills, but my writing skills are getting worse and worse, and then I leave it here to practice my mentality.
(The last short essay before the end of this book, from Kawenka to a certain giant baby who broke the defense)
(End of this chapter)