Take a few days off
I'm depressed.
In the past two years, I have been very depressed about my parents' health. Especially this year, my mother got breast cancer. I was so anxious that I had more and more conflicts with my girlfriend, which led to an immediate breakup. As well as the huge mental internal friction caused by the various entanglements after the breakup.
I was diagnosed with mild depression and anxiety last month in West China. I think I can overcome it. I have been working hard to meditate and be aware of my emotions. I got better for a while, but soon fell into trouble again due to internal friction. In emotional depression, the entire person's background is negative. Even if you don't do anything for a day, you will find yourself unhappy.
I have been unable to concentrate and concentrate during this period.
Now the stock market has suddenly gone crazy again, which has robbed me of my little concentration.
I wake up every morning and start thinking about writing a book, but I can’t write anything. As time goes by, I become more and more anxious. The more anxious I am, the more I want to play games on my phone. Playing games on your mobile phone makes you more anxious, creating a vicious cycle.
I signed up for a fitness class, hoping to withstand it and improve myself. There were some results, but the effects were diminishing and weaker.
I woke up today and was thinking about coding. After sitting in front of the computer for N hours, my mental entropy increased extremely. When I went to bed at noon, I felt that depressive feeling in my sleep for the first time. I was so anxious. Now, I haven't written a word and am even more anxious.
I would like to ask everyone for a few more days off so that I can adjust myself.
Feel sorry. (End of this chapter)