Chapter 390 "Devil"
After Karasawa said these words, Mouri Kogoro's expression went blank.
And Tang Ze’s rather heart-wrenching words were not entirely intended to stimulate him, but were also partly motivated by his feelings.
Fei Yingli, who has opened her own law firm, is a very powerful lawyer. She is known as the "Queen of the Legal Industry" who has 100% victory and has never lost a lawsuit.
The income of a top lawyer, the income of a top lawyer who never loses a battle, is something that workers who work on a daily basis can hardly imagine.
However, even Fei Yingli, whose income reached this level, could not afford to support a gambler.
For gamblers, no matter how much income and savings they have, they are approximately equal to 0, because gambling for a long time will inevitably lead to losses, and gamblers do not have the situation of "stopping after gambling a few times". Having experienced and seen so many gambling games in which millions of dollars have been spent, money has gradually become a number in their eyes, and they will really regard gambling as a "business and investment that can make some money", just like stock trading. ".
It is this mentality that prompts them to try to make money by gambling as soon as they have money in their hands no matter how many times they fall into this huge pit.
When they gamble, they cannot get away. There is always a kind of stupidity that will take root in their minds. However, if you gamble for a long time, you will lose and there will never be a winner.
This business takes advantage of the weaknesses of human nature, so that those who make money can make a lot of money, and it has developed to the extent that some places use it as a pillar industry...
"You used to be a criminal police officer, and you were a police officer who seriously entered the police academy and received systematic training." Karasawa looked seriously into Mouri Kogoro's eyes, "You were also a person who went through life and death to protect the people. Choosing to become a detective after the police force must have been influenced by his long career as a police officer... Why would such a police officer let his life slip to this point? "
What did Karasawa say? Part of me is genuinely asking questions.
Mouri Kogoro did not leave his former position in embarrassment because of any professional negligence or mistake.
Although they both have a long history of drinking, his situation is very different from that of Tang Ze in his previous life.
Tangze drinks alcohol mainly because he has no desire to survive. A person who was active on the most dangerous front line, coexisting with lies and danger every day, suddenly became a useless person who could not stand up and could not take care of himself. The shock was difficult to summarize simply.
What about Mouri Kogoro?
Hearing his question, Mouri Kogoro looked extremely gloomy.
He took out the cigarette box, smoked out a cigarette, slowly picked up the lighter, and used it two or three times before he successfully lit the cigarette.
"...Okay, you are not kidding. Xiaolan is very serious about worrying about me. I have already felt it." In the smoke, he said dullly, "But, what are you talking about? It may be difficult for young people to understand the nonsense of an uncle... Have you ever been confident that you can do a good job, thinking that you have paid a lot and there is no reason why you will not get something? The experience of everything being messed up? "
Tangze, who is not young at all, looks at his tired look that looks particularly bleak in the sunshine and smoke, and he understands the current rhythm a little bit.
It seems that Mouri Kogoro was moved by his words and began to want to talk about the mid-life crisis.
"You are right, I used to be a policeman, and I am not boasting, I did a pretty good job." Mouri Kogoro laughed twice, and the laughter was full of self-deprecation, "So I I thought that I could be a good detective, a good father and a good husband. I thought that the reason why I couldn’t do it before was because my busy police life prevented me from leaving energy for my family. I thought that Yingli and I The relationship became more and more rigid because I couldn't balance the relationship between family and work. However, after I stopped being a police officer... I discovered that some people are just not good at doing certain things."
< br>The reason of losing his job, or even an exaggeration, an excuse, he discovered to his horror -
Some people really can't learn to maintain close relationships and run a family well.
"So, you started drinking?" Hearing this, Tangze slightly understood what the other party meant, "In order to escape this cruel situation?"
"Yeah...just think of these as excuses for me, a failed uncle." Biting his cigarette holder, Mouri Kogoro answered vaguely, "The relationship between Eiri and I broke down, and I am mainly responsible. After resigning from the police force , I worked casually as a detective, didn't receive many commissions, and the money I earned was not enough to cover the rent of the cafe downstairs. However, my office was just downstairs from my house, and Yingli saw all this. < br>
“Her career was getting bigger and bigger, her law firm was flourishing, and I was becoming more and more like a lowly private detective. I felt uncomfortable and in pain. She and I quarreled more and more, but the office was just downstairs from my house, so I felt more and more pressured and afraid to go home. Gradually..."< br>
He took a deep breath, sucking all the bitter smell of tobacco into his lungs, feeling the dryness in his throat, and closed his eyes slightly
Then he couldn't control it.
When he woke up from hangovers again and again, looking at the messy home, looking at Fei Yingli with an angry face, looking at Xiaolan with fear on her face... He was more and more afraid to go home, afraid to go Facing all this, I become more and more addicted
Because if you don’t continue like this, if you don’t continue to numb yourself, you have to face the fact that you have done so many things wrong, you have messed up so many things, and you have broken up the family that should have been perfect step by step... …
People will instinctively seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, fearing and avoiding facing themselves.
"Only after I really tried it did I realize that... some people are not suitable to be fathers and husbands." Mouri Kogoro concluded this way.
“Perhaps, this is true... But Mr. Maori, a senior policeman I know, gave up this dream when I said that I felt that I was not suitable for the police profession. , tell me - 'There is no difference between being a police officer or not, only being responsible or not.' I want to tell you this now."
Tang Ze sat up straight, and some blurry figures flashed before his eyes.
There is no doubt that there are Toru Amuro, and there are also... seniors who came to see him every day during his lowest period in his previous life, regardless of his busy work.
With a nostalgic smile, Tang Ze said softly: "There is no way to say whether you are suitable to be a father or a husband. You think you are a failed uncle, and you don't think you can handle family relationships well. Even because of these reasons, being addicted to a bad life state and being unable to quit those harmful things...
“This will only be a vicious cycle. Humans are social animals, and their understanding of themselves is formed through constant contact with other people. We cannot see ourselves and can only use others as mirrors to constantly check our own appearance. The more you see the bad parts of yourself, the more you should work hard to see it clearly, find it, and eliminate it..."
Tang Ze, who had a deep understanding, raised his face and revealed a look of deep sympathy. An emotional smile.
Of course he knows the feeling of falling to the bottom and being unable to get up, surrounded by only bare walls. No matter how hard he tries, he only seems to be falling into a more desperate situation... No matter whether it is others or himself who caused this dilemma, a dilemma is a dilemma, and it will It makes people sink into the mud.
At that time, he received enough patience and kindness.
He really couldn't stand up, but with the help of so many people, he walked on strongly.
Awkward, incomplete, unable to return to society or order, he will never be the same person he was before.
But I walked on anyway and didn’t fall down at that time.
So...
Karasawa leaned forward and stretched out his hand towards the stunned Mouri Kogoro behind the table.
"We are all willing to help you. We all believe that Kogoro Mori is an excellent policeman and an excellent detective - as long as you don't give up first." With a solemn look on his face, Karasawa straightened his arms , "What about you, Uncle Maori, are you willing to accept our help and fight against your bad self?"
Moori Kogoro looked at his palm blankly.
The expression on his face was quite complicated and difficult to understand, but his eyes slowly softened as he looked at Tangze.
So, before he gave the answer, Karasawa knew his answer.
[cooperation Mouri Kogoro]
[Arcana: Demon]
[Devil symbolizes depravity and desire, but the chains holding Eve and Adam have never been Never tightened.
Indulging in material enjoyment and forgetting about self-sublimation, this is destined to be a less positive Tarot... But isn't it true that the Phantom Thief of the Heart has to fight and fight with desire for a long time, until Have you found the real "inner" one?
The devil will teach the fool to coexist with desire, always be alert to yourself, always be wary of arrogance, and welcome the path you choose. Please always remember that you are willing to hold an umbrella for others at this moment. ]
[Acquisition ability: "Third-rate Detective" (the content observable by the third eye has been increased)]
(End of this chapter)