Chapter 304 You are obsessed
What is desire?
Buddhist "Za Agama Sutra" says: A greedy person is like a person drinking salt water. The more he drinks, the thirstier he becomes.
Desire is the way.
No desire is the way.
Learn the Tao at the age of seven, know it at the age of twelve, forget the Tao at the age of sixteen, seek the Tao at the age of twenty-two, establish the Tao at the age of twenty-six, defend the Tao at the age of thirty... This is Dugu Luoxue's path of seeking the Tao.
She knows desire, is afraid of desire, hates desire... and finally takes "abstinence" as her own way.
There are many kinds of desires.
And she chose the desire of love.
Red skulls, bright bones and cold fragrance, everyone in the world is intoxicated with the joy of skin, forgetting that the body will eventually return to the loess.
People in the world are obsessed with appearances, not knowing that form is emptiness and emptiness is form. They are greedy for vanity and forget the true nature.
She hopes to awaken the world through her "Tao", rescue those who have fallen from the sea of desire, and redefine a new life.
She hopes to find a true self for herself through her own "Tao".
For so many years, she has adhered to her original intention, using Confucian etiquette and morality as her ruler, Taoist nature as her food, and Buddhist spirit of asceticism as her temper... trying to defend her own orthodoxy.
Unfortunately, her two Taoist discussions with Jiang Shouzhong damaged her Taoist heart.
But it was precisely because of this that she realized that the Tao she was so proud of was actually vulnerable.
She wanted to recast her own path.
So she accepted Jiang Shouzhong as her disciple and got to know him at close range to hone herself.
It’s just that it doesn’t have much effect so far.
This reminded her of what Jiang Shouzhong once said:
If you want to abstain from sex, you might as well sink completely into it first. If you don't go to hell, how can you be a Bodhisattva who saves all sentient beings?
"Sinking..."
Looking at the desolate scene in the house, Dugu Luoxue's flawless face showed a little confusion.
She originally came to see Ran Qingchen.
After saying goodbye to Qingzhou, she temporarily returned to Wanshou Mountain. Later, when I heard the rumors about the accident at Ranfu's wedding in the capital, I felt a little worried about my apprentice, so I rushed over.
After arriving in the capital, I learned from Jiang Yi that Jiang Shouzhong was currently in Huoyun Mountain.
The reason why I came to Ran Mansion was just to talk to Ran Qingchen about something, but unexpectedly the other party had already left the capital.
Unexpectedly, I saw this scene accidentally.
Of course, such a scene did not cause too much disturbance in the female wife's heart. It's just that she has been thinking about "sink and abstinence" these days, and she has some insights for no reason.
Is Zuo Su considered sinking?
Is Zuo Su considered abstinent?
Just now when she was banging the wooden fish and chanting Buddhist sutras... Dugu Luoxue could clearly sense that the other party was in a state of mind without desires and thoughts, like a pool of stagnant water.
At this moment, Zuo Su, who was lying on the ground with Chi Guoguo, was exuding a strong wave of lust, like a ball of firebirds that wanted to burn him to death.
All actions are impermanent, which is the law of birth and death. Birth and cessation have ceased, and cessation is bliss.
Which one is the real Zuo Su?
Dugu Luoxue watched quietly.
It wasn't until Zuo Su put on her clothes again and returned to her previous dignified and conservative appearance that she left quietly.
Dugu Luoxue, who has a quiet and solitary temperament, is not interested in the internal and external disputes, grudges and grievances of the Ran family or the Jianghu, or even the change of dynasties, so she has no intention of killing Zuo Su.
Now, she only cares about her apprentice.
Whether approaching Jiang Shouzhong is for purpose or gain, given her character, once she recognizes Jiang Shouzhong as her apprentice, she will sincerely love her.
Of course, it would be great if we could successfully guide our disciples to abstain from sexual intercourse.
When the time comes, I will be considered a preacher.
......
Leaving Ran Mansion and arriving at the attic where Jiang Yi lived in Yin Yue Tower, Dugu Luoxue happened to see Jinxiu wiping tears walking out of the house, with Chun Yu comforting her at the side. .
After the two girls left, Dugu Luoxue entered the house.
Li Guanshi was no longer in the house, only Jiang Yi was wrapped in a fox-sable coat, sitting in front of the window in a daze.
"As a lady from the Longevity Mountain and River, you should at least know the etiquette of knocking on the door."
Jiang Yi grabbed the lapel of her clothes and sat up straighter.
The woman’s bare feet were exposed from her mink clothes. Ten of her nails, as small and shiny as jade beads, were painted with bright pink khaki. The girl had a hint of innocence. Mature style.
The other party's invisible alluring temperament made Dugu Luoxue unconsciously think of Zuo Su whom she had just seen.
In contrast, both women are very coquettish.
However, Zuo Su's coquettishness is a kind of extremely fanatical and depraved debauchery, which makes him want to crush his own body.
Jiang Yi's coquettishness is aloof and reserved.
She is like a rose with thorns. She looks beautiful, dignified and coquettish, but once touched, it is extremely thorny.
“Old lady Ran’s family may not be able to survive.”
Dugu Luoxue said softly.
Jiang Yi supported her forehead with one hand and assumed a lazy sitting posture as usual, and sneered: "The old immortal should have been in the coffin long ago."
"But you are very sad."
Dugu Luoxue looked at Jiang Yi who was not telling the truth.
Jiang Yi twitched the corners of her mouth, wanting to refute, but in the end she didn't say any more harsh words. She combed her hair casually with her slender fingers, her eyes wandering like mist.
After a long time, Jiang Yi said softly:
"When my sister married into the Ran family, Mrs. Ran always hated her. The old lady is the only Princess Wang with a different surname in this dynasty. Her family has been well-off since she was a child, and she is well-educated and well-educated. She has a very traditional and old-fashioned character.
The daughter-in-law she likes is the kind of eldest lady from an official family, dignified and virtuous, good at being a heroine, knowing how to advance and retreat, having a stable temperament, and caring for her husband and children. >
The eldest son, Ran Jinyi, fell in love with a female knight in the Jianghu when he was studying. As a result, he was beaten by the old lady and forced to marry Zuo Su, the daughter of a Confucian scholar. Sheng had a dissolute character and failed to live up to his expectations. After being beaten and scolded several times, the old lady gave up and could only hold her nose and let him marry the pregnant husband back home.
The third child, Ranjinyu, was the old lady's favorite son, and the wife she was originally looking for was an official lady. Who knew that this guy had married the famous Wushuang Sword Immortal back home.
What the old lady hates the most is these children of the world. Especially at that time, my sister and the emperor were not clear about it, which made the old lady so angry that she wanted to hang herself..."
said At this point, Jiang Yi suddenly laughed:
"My sister is also fiery. Once the old lady makes trouble, she will directly knock her out or tie her up. After a few times, the old lady didn't dare to make trouble anymore, and of course she didn't look good.
In the following days, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law spent their time in cold wars of various sizes. The old lady ignored my sister, and my sister ignored her. When they met in the mansion, they didn't even say hello.
Then my sister disappeared for a year. According to the servants, the old lady was so happy during that time that she even asked people to set off firecrackers every once in a while, and even invited a theatrical troupe..."
Dugu Luoxue couldn't help but smile.
This old lady from the Ran family looks like a child.
But since ancient times, mothers-in-law and daughters-in-law rarely get along well, whether they are big or small families.
But at this time, Dugu Luoxue was surprised to see a crystal teardrop on Jiang Yi's delicate and charming cheek.
Jiang Yi twitched her reddish nose and said with a smile:
"When I found out at the time, I was very angry. I found a few old women who could curse in the streets and scolded them at the door of Ran Mansion every day. I I also bought a witch doll and cursed the old lady to die soon...
But as my sister didn't come back for a long time, the old lady seemed to have changed into a different person and started to feel depressed.
She would send pills from time to time. People go to the temple to inquire about my sister's whereabouts, and from time to time they sit in front of my sister's house in a daze.
Especially when a rumor spreads that my sister died in a feud. , the old lady seemed to have lost her soul.
Later, my sister told me that during her absence, the old lady had been cleaning her house herself, helping to feed the two little pigeons my sister had raised, and also making shoes for her..."
Jiang Yi sighed: "That's how people are, you really hated him at first. But in the midst of the quarrel, feelings arose again, and I couldn't let go. I just didn't want to admit defeat, and always had to show an attitude of giving in first. The old lady always says that I am like a hedgehog and I don’t mean what I mean, but she is not the same.
My sister came back with the child, and the old lady started to show off her face again, saying that she did not dye the child. But once my sister handed the child to her, the old lady became extremely cautious and held it in her arms for fear of falling and getting hurt.
Over the years, I have always seen how the old lady loves Qingchen. She really regards Qingchen as her granddaughter, even though she knows that Qingchen does not have the blood of the Ran family..."
Jiang Yi raised her head and gently wiped away her tears with her fingertips.
She stood up, took out a pair of very simple embroidered shoes from the cabinet, and put them on her feet.
These are the shoes made for her by the old lady Ran.
At that time, she threw it away in front of the old lady.
Later, Chun Yu picked it up.
Jiang Yi looked at the moonlight outside the window and said softly:
"Do you know why I went to Qingzhou some time ago? I asked Zhuge Xuanji to do a fortune telling for the old lady. He said, 'Zhu Duan Yan' Wei, the oil is dry and the fire is extinguished.
In other words, the old lady Ran's fate is coming. I thought that the old lady might die after Qingchen went to Qingzhou.
I'm afraid. I couldn't help but visit her, and didn't want to see the old lady's condition before she died, so I went to Qingzhou. I also wanted to comfort Qingchen in time.
But I didn't expect that the old lady's body was very strong. Maybe it was the Qingzhou Incident that made the old lady realize that Qingchen might be in danger, so she wanted to hold on and protect Qingchen. "
Hearing this, Dugu Luoxue suddenly understood why Mrs. Ran wanted Jinxiu to come to Jiang Yi.
Obviously Mrs. Ran understands that her end is coming and it will be difficult for her to get through it.
She didn’t want to embarrass Jiang Yi, so she sent Jinxiu over. On the grounds of looking for Qingchen, Jiang Yi took Jinxiu and left the capital.
If Qingchen can be found, at least Jiang Yi, a relative, will be there to comfort her.
“It’s good that Qingchen has you.”
Dugu Luoxue smiled, thinking of her master.
She has never tasted the taste of family love. The only person who can be considered family love is her master.
"The only one in the world who is really kind to her is the old lady. As for me..."
Jiang Yi laughed at herself, "Like Li Guanshi, I also want to use her now. I have already I've had enough of my body. The Shura demonic energy in her body may be the only way to cure me."
Dugu Luoxue recalled the scenes where Jiang Yi fell into lust for no reason in the past and said softly: "Nothing. It’s hard to stop wanting, I can understand your pain.”
"You understand shit!"
Jiang Yi couldn't help but swore, "You can't stand and talk without back pain. Have you ever used cucumber? Have you ever wet the bed? You can feel that it's inexplicable, Is it the pain of having to do that..."
The more Jiang Yi spoke, the more excited she became, and she suddenly rushed over, pressing Dugu Luoxue under her.
"Abstinence? Do you think you are a stone girl like Li Guanshi? You are also a woman, what are you pretending to be?!"
Jiang Yi, who did not know what kind of stimulation he had, actually tried to steal her. Wear Dugu Luoxue's clothes.
Jiang Yi said with red eyes: "Do you think I don't care about the way others look at me? Do you think I'm really that shameless? Dugu Luoxue, why don't you talk to me about morality and let me abstain from sex? Is it in your heart? , I, Jiang Yi, was born a slut?”
Lonely Luoxue did not hide or push her away.
She just looked at Jiang Yi quietly, with a hint of sympathy in her clear eyes.
And such a look made Jiang Yi even more angry.
The arrival of Jinxiu made her realize that Mrs. Ran was really running out of gas.
No one could understand her inner sadness.
She really wanted to vent.
Not only to vent sad emotions, but also to vent the anger and unwillingness that have been suppressed in my heart for so many years.
She and Dugu Luoxue were like separated by a mirror.
One is coquettish, the other is pure, the other is as lusty as fire, and the other as abstinent as ice.
She hates this woman.
I hate that this woman can simply achieve abstinence and keep her body in a state of emptiness, free from any intrusion and contamination by desire.
She can't do it!
Not only can she not do it, she even enjoys the desire to be obsessed with it.
Chila——
Dugu Luoxue's clothes were torn open, and some of her white bellyband was also torn off.
Under the light, the woman's skin is silky and delicate, as if she were applying fine powder, and glowing.
Dugu Luoxue remained expressionless, looking at the charming woman in front of her who rarely lost her composure, and slowly said:
"If possible, I want to understand what you said. I want to Understand, what is "desire" and why "desire" makes people so obsessed with it."
Jiang Yi was stunned and regained some clarity.
Looking at the woman beneath him who clearly wouldn't resist and even took the initiative to cater to her, she cursed: "You're sick in your brain!"
Jiang Yi sat up, straightened her messy hair, and looked out the window again. .
The woman tried to alleviate some of the embarrassment.
Dugu Luoxue was still lying down.
She is thinking.
Maybe he can practice the Heavenly Demon Dharma, fail like Jiang Yi, and then put his body in an uncontrollable state.
As my disciple said, how can you be a Bodhisattva without sinking?
Puch!
Suddenly, Jiang Yi let out a bright laugh.
She glanced at Dugu Luoxue, who was in a messy dress, and said with a smile: "Madam, you look like you have been bullied by some flower picker. It's so pitiful."
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Jiang Yi returned to her former charming and demonic appearance.
She lay on Dugu Luoxue again, caressing his cheek with her cold fingertips, staring into Dugu Luoxue's spiritual eyes "affectionately", and said with a smile: "I really want to experience desire, I want to No... I'll teach you?"
She stuck out the tip of her tongue and brushed it against the other person's neck.
Dugu Luoxue slowly closed her eyes, her curled eyelashes covering her face.
At this moment, the scene of Jiang Shouzhong kissing herself in the dojo suddenly flashed in her mind.
Dugu Luoxue suddenly opened her eyes and pushed Jiang Yi away.
Her face was crimson, a very abnormal crimson color, and her body temperature was as hot as baking.
Dugu Luoxue sits cross-legged and meditates, making secrets with both hands.
Snowflakes condensed in the air.
After silently reciting the meditation and abstinence mantra dozens of times, the woman's complexion returned to normal.
She straightened her dress and stood up.
The whole person's temperament once again became the ethereal and pure one it once was.
"You're obsessed."
Dugu Luoxue said lightly and disappeared into the room.
(End of this chapter)