Chapter 290 Li Zhien’s Diary
12.06.27 Two o'clock in the night
Let me smile happily for a while, I actually found him! After so many years, when I almost gave up, I found him again. Is this a gift from God to me? If so, I have to say that this gift is so happy. This is the happiest moment since we were separated.
How old was I when jyp picked me up? I was just six years old in 1999. I must have been extremely ugly at that time. I still don’t know why he picked me back up, and I’m afraid I won’t know in the future because he has lost his memory.
As long as I can remember, my family has been constantly moving. Later, the four members of the family actually lived in four different places. At that time, I didn't know how much a billion won was in 1999. I just didn't want to be separated from my family anymore, and I didn't want to stay at my aunt's house anymore. They didn't like me, and I knew it.
So when I was 6 years old, I did something that seems very shocking now. I went to JYP’s trainee auditions because it seemed like I could make a lot of money by being a star.
Although I put on my best clothes - a men's shirt given by someone I don't know, and polished my shoes, when I got there I realized that I was the most special one because I was wearing something special.
I don’t have a floral skirt, I don’t have my hair permed, I don’t even have parents to accompany me, I have nothing! I can’t remember exactly what I looked like at that time, because those memories were no longer important later.
I just remember hiding in a parking space in the parking lot and crying, just like when I saw him today. He came to park the car and saw me crying and thought he had hit me, so he hurried over to comfort me.
I don’t know how much I told him that day. Anyway, I said everything I should and shouldn’t say. I kept crying until I finally lost consciousness. I felt like I fainted, but later he said I was just out of strength. .
He took me directly back to his home, which became my home in the future. The house was not big, just a small one-bedroom apartment. I lay on the only bed and watched him cooking me noodles in the kitchen. Tablet soup.
Although I ate a lot at the time, I have to say that the taste alone was really unpalatable. He didn’t realize it and ate all the rest I had.
We talked a lot that night, and I also learned his name - Kong Lu. As for the fact that he was a star, I didn't know yet. After all, I had just been born when Turbo became popular.
At the end of the conversation, I still clearly remember his question: "I am also a helpless person. Although I can't give you a good life, if you are willing to come over, you can follow me wherever I eat. I will raise you as my younger brother. Remember to take care of me when I grow old!”
I agreed without hesitation, because his hands were very cold. At that time, I simply knew that he meant no harm, but now it seems that I also wanted a relative.
The next day he took me to pick up my luggage. As for my aunt and mother, I have to say that I was a burden. What was more important was my younger brother. At least he could still stay with my mother occasionally.
Before leaving that day, I saw him handing his aunt some money. I don’t know exactly how much it was, but when I saw my aunt Nayu blushing in shock and finally accepting it in shame, I felt really happy.
But he soon taught me a truth: using money to make yourself happy is a very luxurious thing! The two of us ate plain rice for almost half a month, and the side dish was just kimchi, because it was given for our food expenses.
But even so, I don’t regret it, because he also told me that in many cases, dignity is more important.
So a 6-year-old girl and a young man in his early 20s lived together. It was still 1999, I had not yet gone to school, and he did not go out to work. He only occasionally watched TV and was depressed.
Although he was not very happy during that time, it was the happiest time for me because we were together 24 hours a day: in the morning he would kick the bathroom door to ask me to hurry up; we would calculate together He would also use the money saved to eat fried noodles; when there was a power outage at night, he would also teach me how to dance and rap...
At that time, I felt the warmth of home for the first time. Although they were not my parents, they were enough. We were family.
Time passed like this in my carefree mind for half a year. When I came back one day, I found him hiding under the quilt, and the news of Kim Jong Kook announcing the disbandment of Turbo was playing on the TV. It was me holding him in my arms that day, just like It was like he held me in his arms countless times at night when I cried.
The next day he got up very early and after making breakfast for me, he walked out wearing a suit that he didn't know where he hid. He squatted in front of me and pressed my nose: "Zhi En, Qian. Don’t leave me, I will work hard to make money and let you eat beef every day!”
Although I wanted to say that I would not leave even if I had rice with soy sauce every day, he did not give me a chance to speak. He got my enrollment information back that afternoon, but I found that the money I had saved together at home was much less. .
I have been numbing myself not to think that way, but now I want to say that he probably used money to get my identity certificate from my own mother.
I know that it was almost impossible to open the pot at home during that time, and I also know that my father may work multiple jobs a day, but I really can't accept them using me to make ends meet at his place, not to mention that he doesn't have much money.
The next day, the money at home was reduced a lot again, because they all turned into my new clothes, shoes, textbooks, etc. That day I told myself to smile and show him my most beautiful side, but I still cried.
On the official day of school, I got our meal money for the past day, which was three meals for the whole day. He let me eat something good at school alone. He didn't say what he wanted to eat, and I didn't ask because he wouldn't tell me if I asked.
I tried to study hard, but this really requires talent. I pessimistically told him that I might not be a good student.
But he held my face, pressed my nose, and warmed me with his usual voice: "Then I will support you for the rest of my life!"
After a long life of leaving early and returning late, one day he suddenly brought back a woman. Just when I thought the sky was about to fall, he took the initiative to explain that this was his partner, who was picked up just like me. We had a hard time for almost a year in 2000, and money was just one of them. He was very tired, and I was pretty much the same in school.
Fortunately, at the end of the year, he finally achieved great success. I only know that he was very happy in those innocent days. We celebrated for a long time. When he was drunk that day, he hugged me and talked nonsense in the middle of the night. The most he wanted was to never let you do it again. Suffered.
I feel that the meal money I saved and the snacks I secretly brought back to him were valuable because he remembered them all, just like me.
One day in 2001, he took me to the company, and I finally knew how successful he was. Everyone in the company was very kind to me, but I knew they were more because of him.
Other celebrities are fine, but when I saw Moon Geun-young, who is a few years older than me but much cuter, especially when she came over and called her Oppa, I felt threatened.
From that day on, I stopped letting him touch my nose, and I dressed beautifully every time I came to the company, but she was a star, and I was not.
So I found him and seriously told him that I also wanted to be a star. There was no embarrassment as I imagined, and he agreed easily. I finally knew how happy I am to have someone who unconditionally supports me in everything I do.
But reality hit me again. My acting skills were terrible, especially compared to Moon Geun-young. Although everyone was trying to persuade me that he was a genius that I hadn’t seen in decades, I still refused to accept it. Why wasn’t I a genius?
Sensing my sadness, he stopped almost all his work and stayed with me for a few months. At that time, we discovered that my singing voice seemed to be pretty good.
But he said this is not enough because a singer who can only sing will not last long. As for dancing, my body is not that flexible, so he and I went to learn guitar together.
He is really smart. In less than half a year, he was already better at talking than the teacher, and then taught me in turn. In fact, I deliberately learned slower because I wanted him to teach me for a longer time.
Then I officially became a member of the company, the kind with a big name! Because I am the only artist signed full-time by the company, and unlike other Ernies affiliated with her, I am truly my own person.
At the same time, I was also the only singer in the company, if I could be considered a singer at that time. However, the people in the company are very good to me. When he gets busy, I will practice by myself in the company.
Everyone is always willing to tease me, but today I feel that they are sincere: "Practice well, Ji-eun. When you become a big star, you will lead the company forward together. It's best if you can support us all by yourself." Company!”
"You all just wait for me! Wait until I'm older! Wait until my voice-changing period is over! Wait until my guitar is better than my brother's!" That's how I answered them at the time. I like them all very much. The feeling of being together.
But I have grown up now, I already have a commendable good voice, my guitar is almost the best among female celebrities, and I have become a big star who can support a company, but what about you?
Happy time always passes very quickly. It was one day in 2004. As usual, he sent me to school, but when I was about to get off the car, he hugged me tightly, very hard.
"Zhi En, you are a big girl now, you have to be strong in the future, you know? No matter what difficulties you encounter, you must remember that you are my sister Kong Lu! Let me take this photo as a souvenir!" After he said this, I took out a photo of me by the Han River from my wallet and left directly.
That was the last time I saw him. It was my parents who came to pick me up that night. I ignored them at all and returned to our home paranoid.
There was nothing inside, except for my luggage, which was packed and put aside. Judging from the rough way it was done, I could tell it was done by him.
For many days in a row, I searched for him all over the world, but there was nothing, nothing was gone, the company was gone, those Ernies were gone, and even my home was gone.
My parents have always been very good to me, very good! Although I want to understand this as love, why is this love not so pure?
Before he left, he left me a huge sum of 2 billion, which was managed by specialized personnel. He specifically stated that this money could be used to pay off debts, but the maximum withdrawal amount per year was 200 million, and it had to go through me and The consent of the principal.
As for ten years from now, I'm afraid he won't have to worry about me anymore. Of course, I prefer to understand that he will definitely come back to me within 10 years.
Fortunately, I finally waited and it didn't take ten years.
Although he has lost his memory, and although he seems to have a girlfriend, these are not problems because I am his family.
No matter whether his name is Kong Lu or Li Menglong, he is mine. He once gave me a home, and now I want to give him a home.
It’s just that Lee Soon Kyu...
Li Zhien, you are the best, come on!
Fight for Li Menglong, Kong Lu, and you...
(End of chapter)