Chapter 789 Do I feel better?
Seeing that Cai Gen didn't answer directly, Zeng Tiejun smiled self-deprecatingly.
"Haha, it seems that you also think that my request is unrealistic. I think too much, so I should accept my fate."
"No, brother, you are right in thinking and doing the right thing, but sometimes, no one can say what the result will be."
This is Cai Gen's best effort, and he couldn't be more euphemistic.
This is not fatalism, nor does it blame God.
It should be regarded as a field of probability and randomness. Cai Gen firmly believed it, but he didn't know how to explain it.
Just like some people who are born with high IQs, they can have a great future without studying hard.
Just like some people who are born rich, they can live a prosperous life without working hard to make money.
Just like many people and many things, they have worked hard on their minds and bodies, but in the end they have achieved nothing.
Where can I go to reason?
It's time to catch up, but there's nothing we can do about it, so forget it.
As the old saying goes, do your best to ensure your destiny.
It's easy to get depression if you can't think about it, and you have to go to that quack doctor Duan Xiaohong.
Zeng Tiejun probably hasn't thought about it yet, at least not as much as Cai Gen.
So not only did he have lump soup in his stomach, he also had various big lumps in his heart.
“The baby is due in one month, and I’m busy at work and can’t help my wife.
The child's grandma has stopped moving because of her marriage, so there is no hope for her.
I just thought, if I work more overtime, we can also hire a confinement nanny so that my wife can enjoy a little bit of happiness.
However, the first time I worked overtime, the gas exploded, and I was bored, haha. ”
This sentence "haha" is mocking something, right?
Ridiculing the injustice of fate?
Ridiculing the impermanence of the world?
Or was it a sarcasm? Cai Gen couldn't ask, but it sounded very harsh and made him feel a little cold.
"I haven't had a good life yet, I haven't seen my children yet, I don't want to die.
Moreover, at the first moment of the mining accident, I really didn’t die.
Although I am uneducated, the possibility of surviving such an accident is very small, but I just don’t want to die, I can’t bear to die.
I persisted in not closing my eyes, I persisted in not dying, I thought that as long as I didn’t give up, there would still be hope. ”
The desire to survive should be everyone's strongest obsession. In order to survive, anyone will persevere, right?
Cai Gen feels that his desire to survive is also very strong. The more things he cares about, the heavier the burden will be on him, and the harder it will be to take the step he wants to take.
Zeng Tiejun had already smoked out Teddy Bear's cigar in just a few words.
I spent a long time rummaging through the pile of things on the floor. The things were very miscellaneous. There were more than ten microphones, but they couldn't be used as cigarettes.
Cai Gen wanted to stand up, but his legs were numb. He tried twice and failed.
"Xiao Sun, cigarettes, two whole packs of cigarettes, give me one pack for my brother."
Xiao Sun was very numb and seemed to have fully recovered. He went to the pickup truck to get a pack of cigarettes, which were good ones given by Aunt Li.
He walked to Cai Gen and put down half of it, then walked to Zeng Tiejun and put down half of it.
Zeng Tiejun was not wary when facing Xiao Sun. He looked at the five boxes of good cigarettes Xiao Sun put down and nodded politely.
"Man, thank you."
Xiao Sun was a little nervous. Just now, a smoke ring destroyed the four heavenly kings. It was really shocking.
I really didn't feel comfortable being so polite to myself all of a sudden, so I didn't say anything, just nodded numbly in response, and then ran back to the audience.
Open Cai Gen's good cigarettes, which cost more than 20 yuan a box. Although they are not as expensive as cigars, Zeng Tiejun has definitely not smoked them a few times. "Man, do you usually smoke such good cigarettes?
When I got married, I bought two boxes and planned to use them when lighting cigarettes for my parents-in-law.
As a result, no one came, all three tables were packed, and my wife and I ate for more than half a month, haha. ”
The embarrassing thing was told as a joke, Zeng Tiejun's smile was a little distorted, and after finally taking a puff of cigarette, he looked a little guilty.
"Whether they love her or not, it doesn't matter to me. I just wronged my wife. It's a major event in my life. No one gave her a gift or blessed me when I got married."
Cai Gen didn't know how to answer this. When Yuanyuan married him, she was under a lot of pressure.
According to my original standard, it would be difficult to find a wife in this small city.
The smaller the city, the more attention is paid to a stable and good job. This is a big mountain before marriage. It is difficult to cross due to secular and practical reasons.
Cai Gen has been working in other places. Although he has a job and a good income, it is not a golden rice bowl, a silver rice bowl, or even an iron rice bowl.
Housing is a trivial matter, because as long as you have a stable and good job, you don't have to worry about housing at all. Housing prices in small cities are relatively affordable.
The reason why I finally got what I wanted was because I was lucky and met a more reasonable mother-in-law.
Cai Gen thought of this and silently gave his mother-in-law a thumbs up.
There is no need to talk about this matter and show it off in front of Zeng Tiejun. Cai Gen still has some emotional intelligence.
I can only accompany him and show regret, to express understanding and helplessness.
"Forget it, let's not talk about this. You haven't experienced it and you can't understand it. There's no need to pretend to empathize."
Zeng Tiejun has very good eyesight. He can even see his own psychology. Cai Gen smiled awkwardly.
“After the mining accident, although I wanted to live, the high temperature and oxygen-deprived environment was not something I could do just how I wanted to.
There was great hope in my mind, but my body couldn't bear it anymore, and then I began to despair in my heart.
How did you say that? The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment. I am extremely desperate.
Just when I was about to close my eyes, you came, and you followed the old man.
How do you describe that state?
Just like the three of us share a body, we feel my pain together and my despair together. ”
Cai Gen can understand this, because he is also a party involved, although he doesn't know how it happened.
Zeng Tiejun stared at Cai Gen at this time, with dissatisfaction or hatred in his eyes.
"Originally, I couldn't hold on for even an hour, so I was relieved, confessed, and my life was over.
It's because you came that you couldn't close my eyes, tortured me in pain, sunk in despair, and kept me going for nine hours before letting me go.
Tell me, do you owe me something? Have I wronged you? ”
Cai Gen was completely dumbfounded. Is there such a thing?
If you say so, Zeng Tiejun is indeed a good person, and he would have taken revenge long ago.
Why did you do that?
Masochistic tendencies?
Was that a good experience?
"Brother, I don't want to go either. I don't know what's going on?
Do you think I would feel better if I went through the same nine hours? ”
This must be explained clearly, Cai Gen felt that it could not be vague.
Zeng Tiejun's tone of voice changed and became extremely cold.
"Why don't you feel good?
The more desperate I am, the better it will be for you, otherwise you wouldn't be hanging on to me and not letting me die. ”
(End of chapter)