Chapter 1905 Desire for Survival and Destruction
Cai Gen nodded. This was a clear statement that Cha Cha was on the same side as him.
Immediately, my brain began to twitch, and I wanted to explore the deeper starting point of Chat.
"Why?
Isn't Guantata your biological father?
Why don't you stand on your own father's side?
What your father said makes sense.
After I die, there will be no floods.
Wouldn't it be nice to live this life to the fullest, just focus on the present, and live a stable life to the fullest? ”
Chacha didn't understand why Cai Gen wanted to get to the bottom of it, but since he asked, if he didn't answer, he would definitely keep asking.
"Oh, of course my dad has a good idea.
However, I feel that living is very troublesome.
Looking back, do you think it will be annoying for you to live for several more decades? ”
What's the reason for this?
Cai Gen was even more curious.
Are there really such world-weary people?
It seems that Cha Cha is not very old.
"No, Cha Cha, how old are you? Why are you so anxious to die?"
The first time he chatted, he looked a little downcast, as if Cai Gen had hit on something that was on his mind.
"Cai Gen, it has nothing to do with your age.
This has something to do with our family's genes.
Let me tell you a little secret.
Our family has been passed down for so many generations, and anyone who lives to be fifty is considered the birthday boy.
Most of them died in their prime, in their thirties, and died in the best years. ”
Cai Gen suddenly lost his mind and started thinking from the most ordinary angle.
"Ah, why?
Are there any genetic diseases in your family? ”
Chatter shook his head first, then nodded.
"Is mental illness considered a genetic disease?"
Cai Gen thought it should be counted and was instantly shocked.
"Holy shit, people from your family.
Wouldn't they all suffer from mental illness and commit suicide in their prime? ”
"It should be considered a suicide, but it's not the same as the suicide you think of."
Chatter looked at the volcano in the distance and said softly.
“The responsibilities that shamanism has given us as a family make it difficult for us to survive beyond our prime years.
Maybe it's because people in the family are used to dying early.
So psychologically, I gradually felt that it was a natural law that people should stop suddenly after passing their prime years.
After all, after reaching thirty, all body functions begin to decline.
We don’t know that it is because of objective facts that we suffer from mental illness.
Or is it mental illness that makes us contribute to objective facts.
Anyway, very few people in our family live past their prime. ”
It was a bit confusing, Cai Gen didn't understand it very well.
But in summary, it is probably because of the responsibilities entrusted to their family by the God of Bitterness that they do not live long.
"No, isn't your grandfather over a hundred?
Why isn't he dead yet?
And your father, he is probably almost fifty, right?
Why isn't he dead yet? ”
Cai Gen's words would be difficult to listen to without the preface and afterwords.
But with the foreshadowing of chatter, it is not so unpleasant.
“It’s not because of my father.
If it hadn't been for my father, who suddenly became a monster and resorted to external forces.
My grandfather has died a long time ago.
The next wave of big players has no successor yet, so he doesn't dare to close his eyes. ”
Speaking of this, Chacha also felt that it was a bit weird to say this.
He changed the topic directly.
"Don't mention my grandfather and my father.
Let’s just talk about me.
As I get older and older, the impulse is hidden in my genes.
It makes me irritated every day.
I just wanted to survive until I was in my thirties and die cleanly.
However, according to my father's arrangement, I will definitely not die.
Can you understand my troubles? ”
You want to die, but you can’t die easily?
Cai Gen seemed to understand Chi Chi's troubles.
This idea was really weird, and Cai Gen didn't know what to say for a while. "My choice to stand on the side of my ancestors means bowing to the thoughts engraved in my bones.
Since you are on this trip, you will have a narrow escape from death.
No, I'm dead, it just suits me.
However, even though this opportunity is rare, I am still afraid of death.
Can you understand my ambivalence? ”
This is complicated.
It's all instinctive.
One is the inheritance of genetic blood.
One is the desire to survive as a human being.
The two instincts were entangled in Chicha's heart, and Cai Gen felt uncomfortable just thinking about it.
"Although I don't understand, Duan Tudu can definitely understand.
When you find some free time, let her give you some psychological counseling.
Seeing how worried you are all day long, you are almost turning into an old man.
Is every member of your family, who has not died even at their damn age, as troubled as you?
Then shouldn't they collectively deal with your father who is causing them trouble? ”
Chatter shook his head helplessly.
"The other tribesmen are fine. Who wants to die if they can live?
The desire to live can easily take over.
But I am different.
I am the eldest son and grandson.
The next generation of shaman masters.
The desire for self-destruction in my genes is much stronger than that of ordinary people.
Maybe my grandfather brainwashed me since I was a child. ”
Oh, what a poor child.
Cai Gen imagined a scene.
Guan Shanle talks to an infant child all the time, saying that he must be brave, not afraid of sacrifice, and bloom his life to maintain the heavy burden of shamanism that has persisted for thousands of years.
It's really unconscionable. He's his grandson.
Cai Gen patted Chi Chi on the shoulder to express his sympathy.
"Don't think too extreme, maybe it would be better if you change the environment.
If everything goes well this time, you can go to my house and stay for a while.
There are many friends in our family and patients like you.
Although it is not a disease, at least we can communicate more. ”
Chicha rolled his eyes, why did Cai Gen decide that he would be a patient?
Just when I was about to reply, the helicopter came back.
He ignored Cai Gen and walked to the plane first.
Well, the plane can still come back, and there are no signs of fighting. Shi Huozhu and the others should be safe.
Cai Gen felt relieved, grabbed Xiao Sun's hand, and got on the plane.
Feeling the strength of Cai Gen's hand, Xiao Sun was very surprised.
"Third uncle, what's wrong with you? Why are your hands so cold?"
Cai Gen frowned, fastened his seat belt first, and then closed his eyes tightly.
"It's okay. I didn't sleep well yesterday. Just call me when you get there."
This is totally an excuse.
Cai Gen's face turned pale due to nervousness, and he was sleepy.
If you look carefully, Cai Gen's legs are shaking all the time.
Although he tried his best to control it, he failed miserably.
"Ah, third uncle, I almost forgot, are you afraid of heights?
No, last time we were in Badaohao, didn't you come by helicopter?
This is the second time, aren’t you used to it? ”
Cai Gen gritted his teeth, closed his eyes and shook his head.
I don’t know if I am denying my fear of heights or if I can’t get used to it.
"Smelly monkey, you seem stupid.
Didn’t the master die the last time he took a plane?
He's already dead, how can he get used to it?
Master, if you are really afraid.
If it doesn't work, just die again. ”
After Xiao Tmall made the suggestion, Teddy Bear helped.
"Boss Cai, you really have enough to say.
Not afraid of death, but also afraid of heights.
Wouldn’t it be great if you were like us and lived in heaven every day?”
Cai Genqiang calmed himself down and opened one of his eyelids with great effort, revealing a bit of a fierce light.
The threat is obvious. If you talk nonsense again, I will throw you away.
The teddy bear was so scared that he didn't dare to say another word.
(End of chapter)