Chapter 439 A timid and cowardly heart
Xiao Xiao and Guo Shan were the only ones left in the dormitory.
"Can we say it now?"
Xiao Xiao hugged the little girl and sat on the chair, then let go of his hand, pulled another chair and sat down and asked.
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The little girl sat upright on the chair, her two little hands seemingly placed on her knees normally, but her thin little hands tightly grasped the pants underneath.
Seeing this, Xiao Xiao stood up, took a plastic cup from the table, and filled a cup of hot water.
When the water temperature cooled down a little, Xiao Xiao handed the cup in his hand to the little girl.
"Be careful when it's hot."
"Thank you."
The little girl carefully took the water cup, and a slight feeling of hotness spread from the palm of her hand to her heart. The solid feeling of holding something in her hand made her uneasy heart seem to have a place to rely on, and she slowly calmed down. A little bit.
She couldn't help but raise the cup, and took a small sip from the cup. The thin stream of heat slid down her throat and into her stomach. For a moment, the heat radiated from the inside out, and her limbs were covered with iron. Skeleton couldn't help but feel a little comfortable.
Guo Shan breathed out slowly and looked at Xiao Xiao.
Xiao Xiao smiled encouragingly at her.
Guo Shan also subconsciously responded with a shy smile.
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"Master Xiao."
Guo Shan put the cup on the table behind her and jumped off the chair.
Xiao Xiao watched the little girl's movements quietly, without asking or stopping her.
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"Thank you, Master Xiao!"
Guo Shan suddenly bowed ninety degrees, lowered her head, and said loudly.
"Because of your brother?"
Xiao Xiao looked at the child who seemed to be trembling with intense emotions all over his body, but his small body exuded a sense of determination.
It was this feeling that made Xiao Xiao not reach out to help the child immediately, but asked with a bit of confusion.
He felt not only gratitude from the child, but also regret, and even...self-disgust?
Why?
There were some shallow wrinkles between Xiao Xiao's eyebrows.
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"Well, thank you for saving my brother."
"Thank you, Master Xiao."
"Thank you very much."
Speaking of which, the little girl's voice clearly sounded like she was crying, with a suppressed emotion permeating it.
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Xiao Xiao also stood up from the chair and squatted in front of the little girl again.
He reached out and gently touched the top of the child's hair, which had been lowering its head.
"You're welcome."
The low, clear voice revealed a soothing tenderness, "I'm glad to be able to help your brother."
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Maybe it's because Xiao Xiao's voice is too gentle, maybe it's because the rubbing on the top of his head is too warm, maybe it's because Xiao Xiao is an expert who saved her brother, so Guo Shan subconsciously felt that if Xiao Xiao was around, it wouldn't be necessary. There is nothing to worry about and nothing to be afraid of.
Maybe she just suppressed it for too long.
So, "Wow~", Guo Shan burst into tears.
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Xiao Xiao:......
There seem to be more children crying in front of him recently?
However, after all, this child cries the most like a child.
The corners of Xiao Xiao's mouth couldn't help but curl up with a hint of helplessness.
Hysterical and hoarse, as if he had suffered the greatest grievance in the world.
He is obviously a child who doesn't understand anything.
……
Xiao Xiao gently held the child's body, patted the child's back with a rather skillful movement, and whispered comfortingly: "Be good."
The child suddenly raised his face, with tears streaming down his face. His eyes were red, his mouth was pursed, and his little face was wrinkled tightly. Xiao Xiao teased warmly: "Look, he's crying like a little cat."
However, Guo Shan didn't seem to hear Xiao Xiao's joke. Her wide-open eyes seemed to have lost focus and she was a little distracted.
She murmured, "I, hiccup, didn't mean to do it."
"I really, hiccup, didn't mean it."
"I'm so scared, hiccup."
"Obviously, hiccup, brother, hiccup, I'm even more scared."
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Because I cried so hard, I was out of breath when I spoke.
And because tears kept flowing, Guo Shan felt liquid slipping into her mouth while speaking.
The bitter taste made her shed tears even more fiercely.
It’s really hard.
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Scattered words, mixed with sobs, made Guo Shan's words increasingly unclear.
However, Xiao Xiao seemed to have captured something from it, which was not clear yet.
He patiently helped the little girl calm down, "Don't be anxious, speak slowly."
Xiao Xiao's soothing and gentle tone eased Guo Shan's near-collapse mood.
She took a deep breath and slowly revealed the secret that had been buried deep in her heart for a long time.
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Guo Shan is a good brother. He endures everything silently for his sister and his family.
Because they can't see it, so what's there to blame?
Guo Shan told himself this.
If they could all see it, they would definitely not let him alone.
Guo Shan firmly believed this.
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Even though Guo Shan was so lonely and desperate during those two years, and so crazy that he wanted someone to listen to his heart, and not let him feel that only he and the monsters were left in his world.
What a terrible world that is.
Even though his family treated him as before, they couldn't see the monster and didn't understand his pain. Even if they didn't want to admit it, sometimes, really just sometimes, he would resent him.
But, after all, they are my favorite mother and sister.
He comforted himself again and again, there was nothing he could do, they couldn't see.
Yes, they can't see it.
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But what if they could see it?
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Guo Shan’s sister, Guo Shan, is actually visible!
Even if you can only see a little bit.
Even though Guo Shan only had a vague idea of it at first and was confused about it, two years were enough for her to understand what terrible things happened to her brother.
She should have spoken out.
She should have faced it with her brother.
She should have told her brother not to be afraid, that she would always be by his side.
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But, she didn't, she didn't do anything!
She didn't tell her brother that she could see too.
She did not comfort her brother and tell him not to be afraid.
She didn't even spend much time with her brother.
She pretended not to notice anything, she smiled as if she didn't know anything!
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But no, no!
She clearly saw it, even if she only saw half a claw, she knew that there was a disgusting and terrifying guy in her brother's body.
Sometimes when she got close to her brother, she could even faintly detect a decadent, sweet and disgusting smell.
She so clearly saw her brother's face getting paler day by day, and her body getting thinner and thinner.
She looked at her brother who was becoming more silent and gloomy day by day, and she couldn't even ask why!
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Such a timid and cowardly self, I hate myself more and more day by day, but I am unable to change!
(End of chapter)