Chapter 2256 Back to the beginning
Xiao Xiao moved the coffee in front of the man.
Pushed another cup in front of the man.
“Chocolate milk tea.”
Xiao Xiao smiled.
……
The man was stunned for a while.
Then he stretched out his hand.
He just found out.
His fingers were trembling slightly.
He clenched his fingers tightly.
……
The rich aroma of chocolate milk tea hits your nostrils.
The sweet smell seemed to soften the air a bit.
His hands slowly grasped the enamel cup.
Carefully, slowly, he raised the cup.
The rich chocolate milk tea slides down your throat.
The slight heat dispelled the coldness in his limbs.
His expression also softened a bit.
"...Thank you."
Only then did he realize that it was really good that he was willing to talk.
……
"Later, when I got a little older, I finally understood..."
The man smiled bitterly.
His fingers rubbed the side of the cup and he looked down at his face reflected in the chocolate milk tea.
In a daze, he seemed to see the pale and childish face from more than twenty years ago.
The child's unique big dark eyes showed no movement at all.
He could no longer remember the original appearance of these eyes.
In his impression, these eyes had always been like this...dark, empty and full of panic.
Even now, not much has changed.
"It turns out they can't even see it..."
……
The man let out a long breath.
"How stupid I am..."
"It's been such a long time..."
"After suffering so much, I discovered..."
"If only I had discovered it earlier..."
Everything will change.
Mom and dad are still the same as before.
He won't take a break from school.
He will not be ostracized by others and become alone.
He's not...that afraid of hospitals.
His past... has no memories that he can't bear to look back on.
Everything will be fine.
At least it won't be worse than he is now.
……
"When I finally realized what the problem was..."
The man opened his mouth and took a few breaths, "Do you know?"
"Those terrible experiences...the indifference of my parents...the alienation from my classmates and friends...always being alone...none of these...did knock me down."
"Although it's just a little bit..."
"But until I realized I could have avoided all of this..."
"As long as I pretend not to see it...as long as I behave normally..."
"Simple, isn't it?"
The veins on the back of the man's hand were crisscrossed, just like his tangled and depressed heart at this moment.
"It's such a simple thing, I never discovered it, I never did it..."
The man's chest rose and fell violently, and he was panting even more.
"At that time..."
The man clutched the clothes on his chest, "The regret in my heart... really almost knocked me down."
……
"Hu~hu~"
The man rested his forehead on the back of his hand.
My whole body was shaking.
"I..."
"I wish I could beat myself up."
"I wish we could turn back time..."
"I..."
The corners of the man's eyes were burning.
My vision became blurry.
……
"It was not too late to find out later."
Xiao Xiao's voice was gentle.
The aroma of coffee mixed with chocolate milk tea makes you more and more relaxed.
……
"...No."
The man's voice was hoarse, with a hint of choking.
"It's too late."
"Even...I realized what the problem was later..." "But it was too late..."
"I have been abnormal for too long..."
"Even if I seem to be back to normal later, no one knows whether I will relapse..."
"And..."
"Not only them, they are used to treating me as a mentally disturbed person..."
"I don't know how to get along with them normally."
"No."
"How to restore the relationship to the beginning."
"Even if I return to normal..."
He was still as silent and reticent as ever.
There is no difference from before.
He couldn't get in the middle of the family's jokes.
He is like a transparent person.
The family also habitually ignored his existence.
He didn't know how to break this situation.
"I'm not that dexterous..."
Because of that experience, everyone seemed to have ill intentions toward him, and he kept a distance from everyone.
He no longer knows how to approach someone or express his kindness.
Even if the other party is one's own family.
He hesitated in place.
No one was willing to reach out to him.
Including his family.
So...
"It's too late..."
"Even if I find out..."
"Nothing can be changed..."
“Plop~”
There was a light splash on the chocolate milk tea.
Circles of ripples spread out.
His face was so broken that he couldn't see clearly.
……
The man's whole body froze.
But he didn't dare to take any action.
He kept his head down and hoped that the other party wouldn't notice his current embarrassment.
……
"It can change."
Xiao Xiao smiled.
……
The man blinked.
There were a few more splashes in the cup.
……
"As long as you have the idea of changing, you will change."
"...Maybe it's a cliché."
Xiao Xiao also knows that everyone understands the truth, but...
Knowing it is one thing, but actually doing it is another.
"However, instead of maintaining a pessimistic attitude, it is better to take positive actions."
“You don’t have to change too much all at once.”
"Come on little by little."
"Even if you can't change your family's fixed ideas in a short time, or even for a long time, you can still make new friends."
"You just have to live according to your own ideas."
"One day, your family will notice your change."
"Your relationship will slowly improve."
……
The man raised his head and looked at Xiao Xiao.
The eyes are red.
There was a bit of confusion in his expression.
……
"Since you don't know how to face your family, don't face it for the time being."
Xiao Xiao's eyebrows are slightly curved.
"Don't force yourself."
Because his heart has been haunted by the shadows of the past, Wei Xinhai's performance may never have changed much in the eyes of his family.
Wei Xinhai's image has always been like that of a child who was hospitalized at that time, pale, gloomy and silent.
The more he cares about his family, the more cautious he becomes.
But where do we need to be cautious in family relationships?
Didn't his cautiousness inadvertently increase the distance between him and his family?
……
"Many times actions are more convincing than words."
It’s a cliche again.
Xiao Xiao raised the corners of his mouth.
"As time goes by, your family will naturally understand your changes."
……
"Will...?"
The man's eyes lit up with a faint light.
Because he knew it was his negligence that caused his family to misunderstand him.
That's why he always felt unwilling in his heart.
He wants to make amends for his mistakes.
He wants to go back to the beginning.
(End of chapter)