Chapter 33 You are just sick
March 14th.
morning.
'Big brother...sister is a little strange lately. ’
In fact, Su Ming already knew something was wrong with An Xiaoxi before she pulled her clothes and whispered.
【Character: An Shiyao】
【Favorability: 151】
[Description: A girl who has extreme love for you. But due to excessive paranoia, there is a high probability of mental breakdown. 】
Because the value has increased so much, the description has also changed.
There are concrete signs, too.
Whenever he turned around, he would always meet his eyes.
The room always smells of air freshener. It is said that after spraying and then opening the windows to ventilate the air, the air will become better.
There are always small areas of half-dry, half-wet mattresses with wrinkles...and some clothes and even items that I have used.
Knowing that An Shiyao did something unspeakable while she was away.
If you are just in love with yourself, then it doesn't matter.
"This, this is accidental..."
But there is no "normal" reason for slashing his wrist with a knife.
"..."
An Shiyao knelt on the mattress, her wrists still bleeding...trembling.
"..."
She was sprinkled with hemostatic powder, disinfected, and then wrapped in a bandage.
Su Ming didn't go to wash up, but sat on the edge deliberately not to look at her.
"I used to think that love was an additional relationship that people had for survival and reproduction, a kind of obligation that people can give up. Maybe it would be easier, but if not, that's it. Maybe I could be considered half a non-marriage person before. .”
"Until now, I think...those who are not willing to get married are those who are emotionally frustrated, or have low self-esteem like me before and are unable to find the right person. Once you feel the warmth, there is no reason to treat something that is all good. Do you still want to refuse? ”
"Me too, a newbie in relationships."
"I didn't think that it would be best for you to obey and support me unconditionally, but in fact I still preconception that I don't need to take care of you too much. After all, you have always been very sensible."
"So I didn't think deeply about it. If you go outside for a long time, you will have a very hard time."
"...Sorry."
"..."
I don't know how long it took, but An Shiyao finally took action.
The hands hugged Su Ming's ribs tightly. Her face was buried in her shoulder, because she had cried... and her clothes were a little wet.
"...how could it be...it's your problem, it's me..."
"Of course you have a problem."
Su Ming immediately took over the right to speak, "Only people with abnormal brains would harm themselves."
"..."
Her eyes dimmed instantly, "Yes...I did something wrong..."
"I didn't tell you who was wrong and who was right. This is not dividing the spoils."
"..."
She paused, opened her mouth but no sound came out.
"I'm almost certain that you're missing something."
"..."
“There are people in the shelter who have changed from atheists to religious believers in order to pray for peace.”
“I’ve also heard that some people suddenly become violent while doing work, smashing things or even harming themselves.”
"I think they behave like that because they complain about their situation and feel dissatisfied, desperate and disappointed."
"If you want to be disappointed, you must first have hope."
"I should have thought about it earlier. There are probably a lot of clues all the time. For example, you were the only one who didn't ask me what happened after I went out, and you didn't prepare for me going out like you did when we first met. You actively asked what the situation was like and if you had any clues."
Su Ming sighed, "Live every day as if it were your last. If you have no expectations for the future, there will be no pain. In the morning, think about what to eat for lunch and what good things can happen. When you are full at noon, think about whether you should check the vegetables in the afternoon." Think about the program at night. I will explain some knowledge to my sister when I have time, but it is not enough to make up for the vacancy caused by your no longer looking forward to the future. "And I happened to show up, and I became your biggest dream." .”
"..."
Her eyes gradually blurred and her lips trembled.
He paused for a while before speaking with tears in his eyes, "If you treat every day as the last, you can stop thinking about many things... and become more relaxed. Isn't this... wrong?"
"..."
"Why..."
She suddenly stood up, her eyes red, "If Mr. Su Ming has to find a way out, can it be someone else...? If someone else dies, I can still sympathize and be grateful... But if you die, I... will I don’t know how to survive!”
"You have a sister, so of course you want to find your only family, but I hope you can stay here forever!"
"Pregnancy test stick...two lines. Do you know what it means?"
"...Are you pregnant?"
Su Ming was stunned. He really didn't know about this.
"I want to share this with you right away... But will you really be happy about it? I won't be happy either, I just... wonder if you will stay and take care of me in the future, no Get out.”
"Actually, I am... so despicable..."
Perhaps he was on the verge of an emotional breakdown, his body was shaking and his face was extremely pale.
"Do you know how happy I am that you were willing to stay with me for a long time every day?"
"I always think how nice it would be to be like that forever."
"I... must be very strange. I know that even in order to survive, you have to go out. I really thought about overcoming and enduring... but I couldn't bear it for ten minutes, one minute, one second!"
"...An Shiyao?"
Watching her pick up the fruit knife, she was like a child crying.
He didn't harm himself, he didn't hold it firmly at all...it landed with a 'clang' before Su Ming grabbed it.
"I was wondering...if you were seriously injured and would you stay?"
"..."
"Then, I immediately knew that this was wrong. I couldn't do it... I didn't want to be a dragster."
"Ha... But you have already discovered... that it is already a burden, right?"
"Rather than doing this, wouldn't it be better to die?"
"But... ugh... I can't do it, and I know it's wrong. It will only cause trouble for you... My sister also needs me... What should I do? I already... don't understand at all."< br>
She choked up until she was out of breath and burst into tears.
"Please...tell me."
"How can I not be in such pain... I really... have reached my limit. Please... ugh..."
That should be a look of help and pleading. Even if it is covered by tears, I can still feel it clearly.
【Favorability: 176】
[Description: A girl who has extreme love for you. But due to excessive paranoia, his mind was close to collapse. 】
Too much of anything will do no good.
Is that what you mean?
"Now, don't think about anything."
Su Ming sighed and caressed her cheek. My nose is sticky due to snot and tears.
"You're just sick."
"I will be here until... you are healed."
No matter how real it is to you, it is still a game. At most, it’s because of the level issues.
It's different for her. Therefore, she will be extreme.
After all, even if he knew the reason for her collapse... Su Ming couldn't get enough chicken soup.
In fact, it is really simple, it is nothing more than a multiple choice question.
Ignore her or treat her as a person?
Choose the latter.
What about the mission to get her out of here?
At least, put it aside until she calms down. Whether time really heals everything... I don't know.
(End of chapter)