Chapter 84 Haruno enlightened
Mine Shiori bit her lips and moved to the closet with a very ugly face. Then, with Sawayama Haruno’s blank expression, she took out a thin piece of clothing from the closet. jacket on.
"Shiori, is it cold?"
Sawayama Haruno asked tentatively: "Then do you want to increase the temperature of the air conditioner?"
He thought to himself what was wrong with this girl today. She always felt that her condition was very strange compared to her previous appearance.
Is it really because of illness?
“It’s okay”
Feng Shizhi stammered: "That's it. I'll be fine if I put on a coat."
"Yeah?"
Sawayama Haruno was a little confused, but he didn't think much about it. Instead, he picked up the grapes on the table and started eating them.
"This grape is quite delicious." He complimented casually.
"Indeed. I heard from Suguha that it seemed to be imported from abroad that morning." Shiori Mine carefully sat down opposite him, not daring to raise her head and said, "If Haruno likes to eat, just eat more."
"You should eat too."
Haruno Sawayama threw another grape into his mouth and said with a smile: "Obviously I am the one who comes to visit the patient, why does Shiori act more polite than me?"
"without"
Feng Shizhi was so ashamed that she didn't dare to speak loudly.
The thought of the flashlight that Haruno Sawayama had just gotten made her whole body feel weak. She finally mustered up the courage to look at him, but she saw Haruno Sawayama eating grapes.
Eat grapes.
Fine Shiori’s face was on fire, and the feeling of friction between her body parts and the fabric of her clothes became even more intense.
No, we have to find some other topic to divert our attention.
Otherwise, if you let yourself continue to think wildly, you won't be able to help yourself in front of Haruno later
"Haru, Haruno."
Feng Shizhi opened his little mouth and said wisely in a hurry: "I forgot to ask you yesterday, what type of writing do you write?"
"ah?"
Hearing this, Haruno Sawayama, who was eating grapes, was stunned.
What type?
To him, isn't it pure immoral literature or substitute literature?
Of course, in the eyes of islanders, this kind of literature cannot be such a bad type, but Haruno Zeshan didn't want to explain too much.
"It's probably a love type, and it's also about self-salvation."
Haruno Sawayama paused and explained with a helpless smile: "Probably everyone who writes traditional literature has a common problem of wanting to sublimate, so they say they want to write something about self-salvation."
"Self-salvation?"
Feng Shizhi looked at him in confusion.
After a while, she lowered her head: "So that's it. I think self-redemption is quite good. At least it's more interesting than a simple love novel."
"Wouldn't a simple love novel turn into a light novel?"
Sawayama Haruno smiled.
He picked up another grape, but this time he didn't rush to eat it. Instead, he pinched it with two fingers and said casually: "What does Shiori think of this kind of thing? That is, self-salvation?"
"Think about it, in the physical literature market of the island country, books with this kind of spirit are very popular no matter what period they are in, right? And in foreign countries, self-salvation and growth are also mentioned in almost every book." Ze Shan Chunye had other suggestions.
He deliberately brought the topic to this aspect.
Because I want to know Mine Shiori’s true views. This petite girl with always sleepy eyes has been trapped in the Golden Week incident in her life so far and cannot escape.
With an extremely paranoid idea, I felt that it was my change of heart that led to all the subsequent tragedies.
Sawayama Haruno wants to understand the other party's views on self-salvation, and then find a way to untie the knot.
"What do you think?"
Feng Shizhi's eyes kept wandering around the floor, as if he was looking for something.
After realizing that nothing would be pretended to be found by her, her tone suddenly returned to the calm tone before.
She said slowly: "Compared to self-salvation, maybe I am more inclined to self-punishment, right?"
"Because... someone really did something wrong and doesn't have to pay the price?"
"."
You did nothing wrong, Haruno Sawayama thought.
Obviously Shiori himself knows very well that whether he laughs or not is not his problem, so this matter is not the other party's fault at all.
She must realize this.
"Self-punishment?"
Haruno Sawayama pondered slightly: "I don't quite understand what this self-punishment is, but since it is punishment, it will definitely leave wounds, whether it is mentally or physically."
Hearing what he said, Feng Shiori's delicate body trembled slightly.
It was right
But luckily, Haruno Sawayama, who was focusing on the grapes in his hand, did not notice this small detail, but still stated his point of view and said: "If I have to make a choice, I I still think it’s better to redeem myself, because punishment will leave wounds, and even if the wounds don’t hurt, it will still be uncomfortable to see.”
"That's probably what it means, right?" He threw the grape he had been holding into his mouth and said vaguely, "You can't really get out of a period of psychological shadow like redemption by relying on punishment. Punishment is just evasion. An act of escaping that you continue to do even though you know it’s wrong.”
"yes."
Feng Shizhi lowered his head and said dullly.
The area in front of me seemed to hurt more.
It was as if it was because Haruno Sawayama had been holding the grape just now.
No. Actually it was because of what he said.
Mine Shiori himself also understood that relying on his masochistic habit to complete his "punishment" would not solve any problems at all.
The correct approach should be to reconcile with the past.
If you want to make up for the regrets left during the Golden Week, you should choose to take the initiative to get closer to Haruno now.
But she did nothing. , just using clips and flashlights to punish myself and escape from everything.
Indulge in that kind of pleasure again and again, not thinking about anything outside of it, just rely on this rotten feeling to maintain The state of mind is blank.
It is completely escaping.
"very good!"
Sawayama Haruno, who was sitting opposite, suddenly clapped his hands and said, "Let's spoil the story here."
"Spoiler. What?"
"Spoilers for a sentence in my book."
Sawayama Haruno raised his finger and blocked it in front of him and Mine Shiori, and said with a faint smile: "Although saying it like this will make you look stupid, it doesn't matter, just think of it as a gift for visiting the patient today."
"——Death is not the opposite of life, but an eternal part of it."
"Instead of choosing to punish yourself and leave an uncomfortable wound, it is better to laugh hard."
(End of chapter)