Chapter 390 Paranoia and Heartbreak
“How did you know I was here?”
Su Chengyi glanced at the water ripples blown by the evening breeze on the lake, turned sideways and asked with a smile.
“Here.”
Chen Jinzhi raised his chin and motioned for him to look to the other side.
Su Chengyi turned around and saw Xiao Zheng leaning on the pillar of the lakeside pavilion, looking like he was smiling but not smiling.
It seems that he accidentally exposed his location while making a video, so he led Chen Jinzhi to the door.
“You came here with him?”
“Yes, he said that the recording studio arranged by the big producer needs to be inspected by the artist himself.”
Chen Jinzhi half-jokingly Said so.
Su Chengyi said "hmm" without comment.
However, Mr. Li was responsible for everything in this recording studio. When Xiao Zheng was relaying it to Chen Jinzhi, he seemed to have hidden this paragraph, whether intentionally or unintentionally.
Probably because she is afraid that she will be under psychological pressure.
But with Chen Jinzhi’s temperament, she could probably guess it even without telling him.
Mr. Li had always said that he wanted to come to the capital to see him. Su Cheng thought that this might be a good opportunity to introduce the two of them to meet.
During the last celebration of the No. 1 Middle School, Mr. Li once praised Chen Jinzhi. I think the first impression was very good.
In addition, as Xiao Zheng said before, the matter of Mr. Li wanting him to pass on the mantle needs to be discussed in person.
So far, Su Chengyi's thoughts have not changed much.
But how to politely refuse Mr. Li is also difficult.
As Xiao Zheng said, although Mr. Li looks easy to talk to, he actually has a stubborn temperament that is unique to old artists.
This can be seen from the fact that he can play so well with his grandfather.
After all, birds of a feather flock together.
What's more, the two of them must be quite compatible and similar in personality and soul.
"Before going to the recording studio, do you want to walk around the school?"
Su Chengyi turned over and stood up, then bent down and stretched out his hand to pull her.
Chen Jinzhi held his hand and used his strength to stand up.
She shook her head, and Su Chengyi pulled her into his arms as if he had expected it.
Then he leaned forward slightly, intending to examine it.
"Why not?"
Chen Jinzhi was amused by his posture of interrogating the prisoner, but he lowered his eyes and did not look at him. He didn't know what he was thinking.
This reaction is very wrong.
Su Chengyi always felt that Chen Jinzhi was a little preoccupied today.
Could it be that you saw the bow on the hood string of the sweater?
Shouldn’t be.
If you saw it, you wouldn’t have this hesitant reaction.
"Because there are too many people, do you find it inconvenient?"
Su Chengyi thought for a while and asked carefully.
Before Chen Jinzhi had time to answer, he continued:
“You still think the school is not interesting and there is nothing to visit?”
“I have to go to the recording studio in the evening. , I feel like there’s not enough time.”
"Ah, you feel uncomfortable because Xiao Zheng is following you. Then ask him to wait for us here for a while."
Xiao Zheng on the other side: "."
Is there a possibility? I'm only five meters away from you? Master, can you consider other people's feelings when you speak? ! At least give the assistant a meal card so they can try the Beijing University cafeteria! Who wants to blow cold wind here? !
Su Chengyi muttered a lot to himself. Chen Jinzhi heard it funny and reached out to cover his mouth.
“What are you talking about.”
She sighed softly.
At this time, the street lamps by the lake lit up one by one, and the tree-lined roads were dotted with stars. The coolness of early spring blended with the warm yellow halo, creating a unique atmosphere on campus.
"Okay, let's go for a walk."
I don't know what she thought of, but she suddenly relaxed again.
The avenue is paved with bricks and stone slabs. Compared with the trees with green buds, the bushes on the roadside are quite lush, and there is a faint chirping of cicadas and insects.
Su Chengyi held Chen Jinzhi's hand, and the two walked side by side, their falling footsteps echoing deeply.
A path was empty. Looking up, there were only two of them.
Strange, there should be a lot of people here usually.
When I took a walk with Chu Qingmian after dinner, there were always many young couples in pairs, almost forming a traffic jam.
Su Chengyi thought for a while and realized that there happened to be another large-scale teacher-student social event today.
When I returned to school in the afternoon, I seemed to have seen a promotional banner.
Li Tao and Matthew, who are in the same dormitory, have both signed up to be volunteers, one for the length of time they have volunteered, and the other for the chance to gain recognition in the student union.
The two of them also asked him if he would go, but of course he was decisively rejected.
Matthew also complained, saying that the possibility of an asteroid hitting the earth was greater than the chance of this young master participating in group activities.
Li Tao made a fuss about this, but Su Chengyi himself fully agreed.
For him to participate in this meaningless networking event, he would rather write ten literature reviews.
Although everyone resists listening to lectures, finding the content to be long, complicated and boring, Su Chengyi feels that he can still learn something, which may or may not be nutritious knowledge.
That’s not pointless and a waste of time.
Su Chengyi thought this while chatting with Chen Jinzhi.
“This used to be the ruins of Shifang. Historically, this was the Shuchun Garden awarded to He Kun by Qianlong. He Kun spent a lot of money to expand this private garden. Later, when Jiaqing ascended the throne, he wanted to To liquidate He Kun, Shu Chunyuan became the most favorable evidence to prove his corruption. He Kun was afraid when he saw Shi Fang here.
But now it has become one of the famous attractions during the graduation season, commonly known as Butiezhou. "
"Over there is the Linfengdaiyue Tower, which was once the place where He Kun and his concubine were raised. Of course, he was later criticized for this, for marrying a woman who left the palace as his second wife, showing no shame. ”
“Outside the decaying wall, prejudice is waiting for the moon. ”
Su Chengyi usually cherishes words like gold, but at this time, like a tour guide, he introduced the architectural ruins of the school seriously and pointed out the direction of the dormitory to her.
"My classes this semester are basically on the South Campus, which is quite close to the dormitory, so I don't often take the shuttle bus. ”
"The courses are a little more than last semester, but it's not bad. When I'm in my second and third years, core professional courses like civil procedure, criminal procedure, administrative law, and private international law will all be taken together, which will make people feel comfortable." I feel a little tired.”
“I didn’t expect Teacher Su to feel tired from studying.”
Chen Jinzhi smiled quietly when he heard this.
"Of course, I am actually the hard-working type."
As soon as Su Chengyi finished saying these nonsensical words, Su Chengyi paused and reached out to straighten her forehead hair that was disturbed by the night wind.
"But it's definitely not as tiring as the female stars."
Chen Jinzhi is tall among the girls, but standing here wearing a large, ill-fitting coat, it looks like she could be blown away by a gust of wind.
Strict body management, a diet that can barely guarantee basic survival needs, and a work schedule that reverses day and night.
It’s strange to be healthy.
Under the halo of the street lamp, Chen Jinzhi raised his eyes, and for a moment he was so beautiful that his heart skipped a beat.
This face doesn't need any makeup to accentuate it. She came here on the high-speed train, and after a long journey, she is now in a state of bare makeup.
No wonder they say beauty is in the bones, not the skin.
Chen Jinzhi's bones are really superior to each other, natural, and completely like a work of art. It’s the kind of appearance that South Korea, which is unknown in plastic surgery technology, can’t reproduce no matter how much effort it takes.
Just too thin.
Su Chengyi sighed and pinched her thin face.
“Female stars are not tired at all.”
Chen Jinzhi poked at Su Chengyi’s face.
Then she turned around and kept walking.
Humans are really strange creatures, she couldn't help but think.
When a person does many things, she never finds it difficult. Perhaps she has been in the most miserable situation for a long time, so she can accept it calmly no matter what happens.
Only at this time, the defense can be broken easily.
As soon as the distress in the eyes of the person she liked spread, she felt as if she had been caught off guard by the flames that shot out, and she actually wanted to shed tears.
Su Chengyi, who was two steps behind, didn't notice her emotional changes at all.
At the end of the boulevard, you can see the playground in front, where tonight's activities are being warmed up.
The searchlights dazzled everyone's eyes with their colorful lighting effects, and the bass drum rhythm came from the speakers.
Su Chengyi felt that this scene had the feel of a cultural performance in the 1990s. It looked a little funny, so she asked with a smile:
"Is it noisy?"
Chen Jinzhi Without speaking, he stood there and looked at the gathering crowd from a distance.
Su Chengyi quickened his pace, walked to her side, and continued:
"There are a lot of activities like this in school, which are not interesting, and there are a lot of people. Did you see the banners on the road when you came in the afternoon? It seems to be a performance organized by the club. There have been some before. I don't know why there is a parade this time. It's so big.
Do you want to see it? If anyone recognizes you, just say you are a special guest."
He said jokingly.
But Chen Jinzhi's eyes still fell on the crowd gathered in the distance, wondering what he was thinking.
The next second, she said lightly:
"I was here during Christmas."
Su Chengyi was stunned, raised his head and reconfirmed the location of the playground.
To the north, it’s really here!
I didn’t notice it just now, but Wan Wan walked over here.
Su Chengyi admired his insensitivity for a while.
Maybe it's because I've been having such a good time recently that I don't have any sense of emergency evacuation in Shura Field.
Thinking about it now, no wonder Chen Jinzhi was unusually silent today.
Probably from the moment she walked into the school, she had been thinking about the last Christmas.
Su Chengyi was silent for a long time, thinking about what to say.
I know that silence is the most revealing reaction at this time, but I still can't speak.
Especially when seeing Chen Jinzhi's expression.
Her eyebrows were drooped, a bit lonely.
Last Christmas, the whole school was in a lively and festive atmosphere, with red and green lanterns hanging all over the pine trees, and candy canes and chocolates scattered along the roadside.
The booing crowd was surrounded by excitement.
In the corner where the lanterns do not shine, Chen Jinzhi comes alone and leaves silently.
It was too far away at that time, and Su Chengyi couldn't see her expression clearly.
And at this moment I finally saw it clearly.
"Sorry."
Su Chengyi paused, and finally could only say this.
I don’t know what I’m apologizing for.
Because speaking of it, it wasn't just this one thing that he needed to apologize for.
Chen Jinzhi seemed to be pulled out of her memory by his apology. She raised her lips and asked as if she was curious:
"Why are you saying sorry?"
"The misunderstanding before."
Su Chengyi felt even more guilty when she asked him this question, and tried hard to maintain the same tone as usual.
Unexpectedly, Chen Jinzhi seemed to have no intention of struggling with this issue. She tilted her head slightly and looked seriously.
"Teacher Su."
"Ah."
Su Chengyi responded, and even his Adam's apple rolled nervously twice.
“Is it hard to fall in love with me?”
Unexpectedly, what Chen Jinzhi asked was such a question.
“Huh?”
Su Chengyi was a little surprised.
Chen Jinzhi's eyelashes trembled slightly, still waiting for his answer.
Only at such times would she show some paranoia.
Although he was not questioned about anything related to the Shura Field, Su Chengyi was even more nervous than before. He moved slightly closer and tried to sound as firm as possible.
"No. Why do you ask that?"
"Because many times, I can't be with you."
Chen Jinzhi looked away, her The tone was light, but it made people feel a little sad for no reason.
“I don’t know what time you will finish class on Friday, I don’t know where the second cafeteria you mentioned is, and I don’t know why your favorite is the teacher who teaches criminal law.”
"I can't accompany you to class, or take a walk with you in the evening when the weather is nice. I can't just walk from one dormitory to another like other people when I want to see you."
"I can't even tell everyone openly that I have a boyfriend, that he is very good and a very powerful person. If he proposes to me next second, I will do the same next second. I will agree.”
“Since the college entrance examination, our pace has been completely inconsistent. It seems that you are always trying to cater to me, and you have done a lot of things that you didn’t like to do with me.”
"So I think you should find it very hard."
Chen Jinzhi sighed softly as he spoke.
"After the last Christmas, I thought a lot.
At first I just felt sad. It is not an exaggeration to say that my heart was broken."
She said this. Listening to Su Chengyi's tone, she felt like she was going to be heartbroken.
She has always been a person who is very good at hiding her emotions, so when she talks like this, it makes people feel more empathetic.
“But I don’t blame you, and I can’t even get angry with you. I just doubt myself over and over again, whether there’s something I didn’t do well.”
"After that, I suddenly realized that my liking and love for you will never be less than anyone else. I can lose everything I have now for you at any time.
But if I want to be with you You are together, and if I want to stand by your side confidently, I can only move forward. It seems that there is only one way to go in my life.
This seems to be an unsolvable proposition. ”
Su Chengyi looked into her eyes and suddenly realized that Chen Jinzhi’s tears seemed to have become more and more frequent recently.
She used to be such an invulnerable person.
After Christmas, Chen Jinzhi did not ask further questions, so Su Chengyi took advantage of the situation and avoided talking about it.
He thought things had turned over, but in fact she seemed to have never come out of that Christmas Eve.
(End of this chapter)