Chapter 3112 (Three Thousand One Hundred and Twelve) Darkening
While Li Pingrun was thinking, he saw that the sunlight shining in had dimmed. At that time, he seemed to see that his own heart was actually dark.
When he thought of the word "accomplice", he felt even more uncomfortable, and thought: But even if I didn't have that dream, would I really dare to help the people in blue armor when they were being oppressed? Even if it’s not done openly, would I dare to do it secretly? Yes, I am from Tiecang, but my grandpa is from Lanjia, and my own family is from Lanjia! Am I a timid person? If I am timid, why did my master want me to understand again and again that I am not suitable to use magic to do things for the Tiecang people? I never believed what he said. My thoughts were all on what I wanted to achieve for the Tiecang tribe Because of this, I didn’t worry that it would be bad for my own fate, or even that it would be bad for my sister. I didn’t even believe it at the time! Besides, I knew very well before that it was very dangerous to do things for the powerful people in the Tiecang tribe. Even if I were not a person like me who was not suitable for using magic to do things to the powerful people in the Tiecang tribe, doing that would It's also extremely dangerous. Especially working for the clan leader. To be honest, before I met the clan leader, I had heard all kinds of terrifying rumors about him. Everyone who told me about those rumors had deep fear in their expressions. However, I was not afraid at all. Although at that time I thought the rumors were just rumors, and since I didn’t see it, it wasn’t necessarily true. But I just didn’t know whether it was true or not, and I didn’t think for a moment that what those people told me was false. I remember that at that time, so many people thought that the patriarch was terrifying, and everyone’s reaction was so unanimous. I had no reason to believe that what those people said was false. But even in that situation, I still had nothing to fear. I still want to do things for him. What gave me the "courage" that makes me feel ironic now? Is it my dream? If you go by this, I should be a much bolder person than the average person, right? But in retrospect, at that time, even if I didn’t have that dream, even if I realized that Tiecang people’s oppression of Lan Jia people was a big problem, when I saw injustice, I dared to do something to help Lan Jia people. ? If I don’t do it openly, do I dare to say something openly for the people in blue armor? Without saying anything openly, in that case, would I dare to secretly do or say something for the man in blue armor? Maybe...maybe I only dare to say it secretly, but I don't even dare to do it secretly? Even if I secretly say something for the man in blue armor, I won't be able to do anything, right? Can I really do the things that really work? Am I bold? Am I brave? From this perspective, I have nothing to do with true boldness, and nothing to do with true bravery, right? I admire my grandma, she is a true brave! I also admire Gengmi. For the wishes of my grandma and grandpa, and for my destiny, she dared to risk being discovered and secretly do things that would help change the people in blue armor, and she did it for so long! Where does her courage come from? Did I originally have the same courage as she did? If so, had my courage evaporated due to some reason of my own? What is it that makes a person no longer have that kind of courage? (End of chapter)