Chapter 5046 (Five Thousand and Forty-Six) Bearish
When the man said this, he paused and thought for a moment.
The man with gray hands could clearly feel that the other party had something to say and had not finished speaking. Although he did not know whether the other party would pick up the conversation quickly and wanted to continue asking, he felt that the other party's eyes showed that he seemed to be deep in thought. The gray-handed man was worried that if he spoke to the other party quickly at this time and asked the other party to continue talking immediately, something bad might happen. The gray-handed man didn't think that his interruption at this moment would make the other person unable to communicate normally, but he still thought it would be better not to say that, so the gray-handed man glanced at the brown-hand man, and saw that the brown-hand man also Without looking too anxious, he decided to continue waiting.
Fortunately for the gray-handed man, the man continued to speak before he had to wait for a while.
"But...but after I decided to commit suicide, I should have...no longer care so much about hypocrisy...at least...at least during that time...that was the case." The man said.
"Did you think of 'hypocrisy' at that time?" the gray-handed man asked.
"To be honest, nothing obviously related to 'hypocrisy' appeared in my mind, but the discomfort at first... I could still feel it, but... it didn't last long," the person said.
"Why didn't you care so much about hypocrisy at that time?" The man with gray hands asked.
"Because...because...I even thought about committing suicide at that time...a person who is about to commit suicide...maybe even...even if he doesn't want to...you can still feel it...the true and false in the world have quickly become with you." It doesn't matter anymore...you really don't need to care about things that have nothing to do with you." The man said, "When a person decides to commit suicide, then...it probably doesn't matter to many things in the world. No matter what happened in the past, no matter what happens in the future, at least after that person decides to commit suicide, before he gives up the idea, he will... take a lot of things lightly. "
After saying this, the person felt that it was not rigorous to say so directly, and began to worry about being found out about something in his words, so he added: "I...I am talking about myself. Actually... ...In fact, if others decide to commit suicide, will they be as dismissive of many things as me before giving up this idea? This... I can't say this. What I'm talking about... is just me..."
I originally thought that the explanation was almost complete, but the person felt that something was missing, so he added: "Of course...even if I am talking about myself, those...those thoughts can only represent that period of time. Myself... people... people will always change... people at different times... with different mentality... may also be... different. What I'm talking about is... my person... During that time... I thought that because I wanted to commit suicide... I probably... I probably took some things in the world lightly, so... things that would have made me feel hypocritical before... didn't... at that moment. How disgusting it would be for me.”
"So you had no intention of avoiding the spring sun at that time?" the man with gray hands asked.
"Yes, even during the time when I felt uncomfortable, I... didn't want to hide away." The man said. (End of chapter)