Chapter 16 Lin Fan
Such medical records can be retrieved, privacy is not private, it is just a matter of face.
"Broken love does hurt. After all, the person I've been dating for eight years is getting married, so it will definitely be sad to break up." Lin Fan recalled lightly. "At that time, the company was in trouble again. I was originally the head of the department, with a small position, but I also had some management rights. Suddenly a relative of the boss's family was parachuted in and became the deputy director."
"The one I had before The company is not big, and I, a small leader, don't have many people under me. I suddenly said that I wanted to add a deputy position. From a business perspective, I originally thought that the relative was arranged to come in and get paid, and it would be a waste if he did nothing. It really doesn’t matter, I didn’t expect her to work extra hard.”
“She doesn’t do the work she is asked to do well, and she is very capable of making trouble. She always looks like she is doing things for the good of the company. It’s a mess. I told her to leave her alone, and I cried to my boss. Although the boss didn’t say anything about me, he didn’t say anything about her either.”
"She wants to take care of things, so she can't take care of everything. I can only follow up the business that is almost finished. She doesn't have to do anything, just watch. It's a mess."
"Everything good is all her credit, and everything bad is my responsibility. In less than a month, several of my subordinates have been tortured so much that they all said that the deputy director would not leave. They were about to leave. I was pushed too hard, so I went to the boss to have a talk. "But the boss felt that I was threatening him with his subordinates, so he scolded me." Ha! What kind of doctrine does he have? Do you think I don’t care about it?" Lin Fan snorted, "I was already angry, but I just thought that after doing this for so many years, we can live in harmony, so I can tolerate it. Yeah. His training really pissed me off. I worked hard for him and got used to it, so I quit on the spot."
"The boss didn't expect that I would suddenly quit. But I didn’t want to wait for him anymore. I was in a bad mood when I was broken up, and I was so angry at work that I didn’t want to wait for anyone. I didn’t even ask for compensation, so I stopped going the next day. Several of my subordinates originally wanted to leave, but I persuaded them to do so. However, when they saw me going to talk, they resigned first and submitted their resignation reports.”
“After I resigned, I didn’t want to stay in Gaohe City. After that, I went back to my hometown. I wanted to calm down and take a break before going back to work. After all, I have been working hard outside for these years, which is quite tiring.”
"After I came back, in order to quickly forget the bad emotions, I also signed up for fitness classes, learned piano, guzheng, and even took two foreign language classes. I went on trips from time to time. Thinking about it now, I probably lived the most leisurely life. It’s been a happy time.”
Wu Yusen and Jin Sichen listened quietly.
The information in Lin Fan's file is not so detailed. After all, it only took three days to investigate and only got some written things. That is, which year you were there, what you did, and what rewards you received.
Like the paragraph she just mentioned, she only wrote about her position, her salary, and that she resigned due to personal reasons. The details can be found through detailed investigation, but it takes time. None of the parties involved spoke in such detail.
"Do you think your depression has nothing to do with being broken up in love?" Hearing that Lin Fan was straightforward and straightforward, Jin Sichen didn't need to be too careful when communicating.
"It can't be said that it has nothing to do with it, but I feel that falling out of love is not the direct cause of my depression." Lin Fan thought for a while and said, "After all, there was almost a year between the time I fell out of love and got sick. During this period, I I'm doing okay."
"It sounds like you have your own judgment on the cause of the disease?" Jin Sichen found that Lin Fan was a very organized person.
"I think it was caused by family factors." During those days of random thoughts, she clarified many things.
“Can you tell me more about it?”
“I was already 32 years old when we broke up. It might be normal in big cities to not get married at this age, but it’s rare in our place. . So when I went back and told my family that I broke up, their expressions... I don’t know how to describe it.”
"Are you shocked?" Jin Sichen prompted.
"It seems more like irritation than shock." Lin Fan thought about it carefully, "They were very angry that I delayed getting married for so long and instead broke up. After I told me the reason, they became even more angry. , but most of them are from the male side. He was angry, but he didn’t blame me much afterwards, but he didn’t feel any distress or pity.”
“If it’s convenient, could you tell me the reason for your breakup?” I didn’t see much description in the medical record, but I heard it. Lin Fan seemed to be quite involved.
“It’s not inconvenient. After I graduated from college, I found a good job in Gaohe City, the same job I quit before. I am capable, conscientious, and have a good personality, and I was promoted within a few years. Although he can't afford a house yet, he is a small department manager, but he has no worries about food and clothing, and his bank deposits are growing steadily. , everything is fine.”
“Later, I met a boy. I thought he was honest and had a good personality, so we fell in love. During the period, the relationship was stable and I met both parents. Just when we were about to be so happy, we finally broke up.”
"There is no cheating plot. The main reason is that the two of us have very different views on things. We have been together for 8 years and have not been able to get along well. Instead, in the later period, there were more conflicts and there were always quarrels. I was not willing to separate at the beginning. After all, the eight years of hard work are not fake. Although I had some hesitation, I still mentioned marriage. But when I went to his house to talk about marriage, the gap in marriage concepts gave me another fatal blow. "
"His family is from a rural area and the conditions at home are average, so I never thought about asking for a house in the first place. His income is not high, and I am afraid that he will not be able to afford the gift. My family does not agree and is prepared to give him their savings as a pawn. ”
“I didn’t expect that their family would not say a word about this, but made all kinds of harsh demands on me. After I said that I couldn’t do it, I was criticized by the person I wanted to entrust my life to. He completely ignored my helpless situation and chose to stand with his family without saying a word of help. I felt tired and chose to break up."
Although several years have passed, Recalling the scene when the man heard her saying she wanted to break up, he sadly asked her why she couldn't give in for her own sake. Lin Fan still didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
"You must have been sad at that time, right?" Jin Sichen whispered slowly.
"It's definitely sad to be sad, but not breaking up is definitely a dead end. Relationships are always a two-way journey between two people. I'm working hard, and he's waiting for me to work hard. In the short term, I still have strength, but after a long time, I will get tired. No, it only lasted 8 years," Lin Fan said mockingly. John Woo listened silently. The information only said breakup, but I didn't expect this to be the case. Of course, a relationship where only one party works hard can't last long, and it doesn't matter if they break up.
“What’s next?”
“Then I went home. In fact, the breakup was still hurtful. After all, it took 8 years... It’s not hard to resign. When I first joined the company, it only had about 10 people. I relied on my own efforts to do a good job in business, improve the company's reputation, expand its customer base, and become a supervisor step by step. My personal business volume accounts for half of the company’s business.”
“In the following years, my customers were basically stable and there was no large-scale increase. The boss thought that my salary was high, so he wanted to find excuses to reduce my salary and demote me. He was blocked by me. He didn’t even think about it. He just used the money to buy a car and a house, and bought a bag for his wife. If he didn’t expand the company, no matter how many clients I got for him, the company wouldn’t be able to accept it.”
"He didn't want to fire me, and he didn't want to pay me such a high salary, so he looked for that relative to check me and find an excuse to cut my salary and demote me. Unexpectedly, I didn't follow his example, and the entire department followed me. It was empty. I was very happy at the time, but I still felt very disappointed afterwards."
Lin Fan didn't know the reason why the cunning rabbit died, but he knew that it was different from meeting him.
“At that time, because I didn’t want to affect my work, I kept the emotion of being broken up in my heart and never got relief. In addition, the emotions after I quit my job were mixed together, and I was not feeling well. I also I didn’t want to stay in Gaohe City and feel sad, so I wanted to go back to my hometown to refresh myself. Didn’t they say that home is a warm harbor and a place of eternal support? "That's not the case."
"After a week of quiet time at home, my family started to urge me to get married. After all, it hadn't been long since we broke up. I turned around and asked me to get married again. I can't find someone to fall in love with."
Lin Fan hadn't recovered from the emotional pain, and her family acted in such a hurry, which also caused serious harm to her.
No matter how she tried to explain to her parents that she needed more time, no one listened. Lin's mother even put on a posture of "if someone wants to fall in love with you, it's great, why should you choose?", which once made Lin Fan wonder if this was her biological mother.
The frequent harassment on blind dates made it impossible for Lin Fan to adjust his mentality. No matter how I explain it to my parents, it won't work.
In the name of love, and with the fear of being laughed at by others, they kept driving Lin Fan away, seemingly not caring about their daughter's sadness at all. It seemed that as long as Lin Fan got married and no one else gossiped, they would be relieved and didn't care whether their daughter was really happy or not.
After 8 years of operation, I thought that the next step would be to lose the happy future. This has already destroyed Lin Fan’s heart with holes.
Because I didn’t cooperate with my boss’s little thoughts, I gave up the career I had worked hard for for many years, which was full of frustration.
Her family's incomprehension and emotionless urging stabbed her with sharp knives.
Lin Fan felt like he couldn't think properly anymore, his temples were throbbing and his ears were buzzing. .
She felt trapped in a quagmire, as if there were dozens of hands pulling her down.
She felt the danger, but could not avoid it.
On this day, Lin’s mother routinely urged her to get married.
Lin Fan said that if you are so anxious about getting married and don't have time to get to know each other well, you will get divorced even if you get married.
Lin's mother blurted out, "Even if you want a divorce, you must get married first!" After that, Lin Fan seemed to hear the sound of her shaky heart collapsing, and she knew it was over.
Lin Fan stopped talking. She didn't eat, didn't move, and stayed in bed all day.
At first, the family thought Lin Fan was being vindictive and deliberately ignored her.
It wasn't until she hadn't eaten for two days and Lin's father felt something was wrong but couldn't wake Lin Fan up that the two of them panicked. He hurriedly carried Lin Fan to the hospital for first aid.
After a quick operation at the hospital, it was found that Lin Fan's physical signs were normal and his expression was dull, so it was recommended that he be transferred to a mental hospital.
In this way, Lin Fan was diagnosed as a high-risk patient with severe depression and no desire to live, and stayed in a mental hospital for 3 months.
Mama Lin no longer dared to nag in Lin Fan’s ears, and she didn’t even dare to cry in front of her bed.
(End of this chapter)