Chapter 437 Psychological Struggle
Lin Fan was confused and didn’t know how he got out of Zhu Cunjun’s office.
When she woke up, she realized that she had returned to her office and was sitting at her desk, staring blankly at the medal of bravery in the box.
After she got this shining medal, she kept it in the deepest part of her desk.
I am afraid that when I see it, I will think that the old man’s motives are not pure.
I am also afraid that I will think of my unproductive actions and am not worthy of this medal.
Lin Fan swallowed hard, feeling like his throat was stuck.
In peacetime, it is not easy to make achievements.
She once thought about doing more, accumulating as much merit as possible to match this medal, and then putting it in the most eye-catching place in the office to show off.
Now, such a good opportunity is placed in front of me, but I hesitate.
Think about the astronauts who are about to fly with the space shuttle. They are much more dangerous than having the stars themselves.
Can I only accept tasks in an absolutely safe environment?
The more Lin Fan thought about it, the more he felt that he was cowardly and cowardly. He closed the medal box hard and threw it back into the depth of the drawer.
Rush to the bathroom in the suite and turn on the shower head.
The cold water covered her head and face. It was so cold that she shivered all over, and goosebumps immediately appeared on her skin.
Specially all central air conditioning, the temperature is comfortable and pleasant. The water is extracted from groundwater, which is warm in winter and cool in summer.
A sudden cold shower would not only cool down her overthinking and overheated brain, but also make her body feel cold instead of comfortable.
Lin Fan was like this, shivering while forcibly cooling down. After a while, he gradually adapted to the water temperature.
My head was also stimulated by this and calmed down.
She simply took off her wet clothes and took a shower with cold water.
In fact, there is nothing to hesitate about.
How could she be where she is now if John Woo hadn't come to see her?
Without money and illness, I might not be able to survive today.
To put it bluntly, this life is equivalent to being saved by special affairs, that is, saved by the G family.
Lin Fan brushed his hair down with both hands, as if sorting out his thoughts.
It is reasonable and logical to use this saved life to serve the G family.
But she understood the truth, but she always felt that it was just a little bit wrong, which made her unable to make up her mind.
Lin Fan dried his body, threw the wet clothes into the washing machine, set the washing and drying program, and walked out of the bathroom.
His body was cold, but Lin Fan didn't want to warm it up. He was afraid that once his body temperature warmed up, his mind would start to relapse.
She opened the closet and pulled out a small suspender belt printed with colorful flowers from her student days, and a denim miniskirt to wear.
The clothes from decades ago are effortless to put on, and they are also bulging forward and backward. They look much better than the flat figure of the student days.
Put on a pair of lace white cotton socks and white shoes, and let your wet hair hang casually on your shoulders.
Putting the pink acrylic heart-shaped headband on his wrist, Lin Fan walked outside and put his ID card, work permit and mobile phone into a nylon cross-body bag with a cartoon white rabbit pattern on it.
As soon as the door opened, John Woo was standing at the door, raising his hand and preparing to knock on the door.
When he saw Lin Fan dressed as a young girl, he couldn't help but whistle. "Where to play?"
Lin Fan didn't expect to see John Woo, his heart suddenly twitched, and his eyes were a little evasive. "I'm not going to play, I'm going home."
"What happened at home?" John Woo hurriedly asked seriously. Seeing Lin Fan lowering his eyes and not looking at him, he felt that something might not be good, but it was inconvenient to say.
"Do you want me to accompany you back?" He asked worriedly.
In John Woo’s heart, Lin is an invisible daughter.
Lin Fan shook her head. She wished she could stay away from John Woo now. How could she let him accompany her?
He lowered his head and lied, "No, I've bought the high-speed rail ticket."
Wu Yusen thought of the situation at Lin Fan's home and had his own guess, so he didn't ask any more questions, "Okay, I'll take you to the station. Hurry up. ."
Lin Fan wanted to refuse. She was afraid that if she stayed with John Woo for a long time, she would be unable to help but ask him for help.
But in this case, the rejection was even more obvious...
Seeing that she was stunned, without raising her head, John Woo directly took her arm and closed the door for her. Office door. "Let's go, why are you being polite to me?" Lin Fan could only keep his head down and not look at him, resisting the thought of confiding in him, and he put him in the passenger seat.
Wu Yusen only thought that her family affairs were more troublesome, and did not talk about it to outsiders, nor did he care much.
He helped her fasten her seat belt, asked her which station she was at, and then drove out.
Lin Fan endured extremely hard work along the way, either lowering his head or looking out the window.
Wu Yusen adjusted the temperature of the air conditioner and the soft music for her, and she knew everything.
The better he treats her, the more guilty she feels. Her nose is sore and she can only pretend to be absent-minded.
What are you afraid of?
Afraid of adding to the burden on John Woo. Also afraid of getting advice from John Woo.
Let others give advice on your own life and death. Thinking about the pressure is suffocating.
If John Woo gave advice, would she listen or not?
If she followed his advice and ended up with bad consequences, would it leave a psychological burden on John Woo?
This is why she asked Zhu Cunjun not to tell others.
On the one hand, she was afraid that if everyone knew about it, they would give her advice in good faith.
When there are more people, there are more voices, and she is afraid of losing herself in these voices.
On the other hand, I am also afraid of causing bad consequences and causing psychological burden to these friends.
If they don't know anything, they may only feel temporary sadness when receiving bad news, instead of having to bear long-term psychological guilt.
Thinking, if only I had stopped her back then...
Lin Fan was in a bad mood along the way, and John Woo felt it.
But he only thought that Lin Fan was worried about family matters, and he would not think of anything else.
After finally arriving at the high-speed rail station, Lin Fan immediately unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car, then rushed in.
John Woo didn't have time to get out of the car to see her off, so he could only call her from the driver's seat.
"Lin Fan!"
Lin Fan couldn't help but turn around and saw John Woo smiling at her, with a familiar face that was warm and reliable.
"Don't think too much. No matter how troublesome you are, everything will go away smoothly. If you can't hold it any longer, call me. I'm on standby 24 hours a day."
Lin Fan wanted to rush back for a moment. I told him everything while holding the door open.
As a result, he was awakened by the urging trumpet sound from behind. He swallowed back all the words and forced a smile. "Okay."
Wu Yusen was worried about the urging from behind and couldn't say more. Seeing her smile, he felt relieved. "Call me when you come back and I'll pick you up."
"Okay." Lin Fan's lips trembled slightly and his eyes began to sore.
But after all, there was a certain distance between him and John Woo, and he didn't notice it.
The car behind started honking its horn again, as if urging someone to die.
John Woo waved helplessly and drove away.
Lin Fan looked at Ba Dao's retreating figure.
Look! Always be alone!
After gathering her emotions, she turned on her mobile phone and started to buy tickets.
I originally planned to buy tickets on the way, but was interrupted by John Woo, so I had to buy them now.
Fortunately, the high-speed rail is now developed, and the bus to Gaocheng will leave in an hour.
Lin Fan directly booked business class, tied his almost dry hair into a big ball, and strode into the waiting hall.
Have you ever had such a time?
You want to talk to someone, but you are afraid of hearing an answer that is not in line with your psychological expectations or causing trouble to others, so you simply hold back?
(End of this chapter)