Chapter 795 In order for us to meet
“I actually agree with Ji Yu’s point of view.”
Lin Fan looked at the vast artificial sea surface, as if the depression in his heart was also affected by this wave. It seemed like the waves had taken it away. "You all know my situation. Things that are normal to ordinary people, such as getting married and having children, are further out of reach for me than breaking out of Lanxing and landing on Mars."
This There are too many things involved, including but not limited to her old problems, and the fact that it used to be limited to country H, but now it will affect the interests of the entire Lan League, and it is very troublesome in all aspects.
"But even if I can, I feel that I may not be the good mother I dreamed of now." Lin Fan said lightly.
"Why do you say that?" Song Ren asked.
Lin Fan shrugged, "Maybe it's because the time when you miss me most has passed and love has disappeared?"
She laughed crisply a few times, and then said: "You know I Are you disgusted with my mother's character? I have always determined not to be like my mother."
Song Ren nodded silently. Extreme family conflicts usually lead to two outcomes, one is assimilation and the other is alienation.
"But my ex-boyfriend once told me, he said, 'You always say something bad about your mother, but you are exactly like your mother.'" Lin Fan sniffed and laughed again. , "After so many years, his face is blurred, but I can never forget this sentence."
"I'm afraid of my mother, and I'm also afraid that one day I will become the mother I once feared, so not having children is actually the best option for me, isn't it?"
"He said nonsense, how can you be like that?" Your mother?" Song Ren frowned.
“I thought he was talking nonsense at first, but now that I think about it, it’s not entirely true.” Lin Fan shook his head with a chuckle, “Genes are magical, just like the octopus genes in my body, only Such a small amount has led to my current change, not to mention my mother, who is directly related to her?”
“If you think about it carefully, I should also be paranoid. It’s also easy to get emotional, otherwise why would you suddenly jump off the bridge that day? Maybe these factors are not obvious, but who can guarantee that in the future, when encountering trivial things, the accumulation of emotions will not become like that? "
Lin Fan shook his head firmly, "I don't want to end up like that, so it's good to stop here and leave myself room for perfection."
"If you had not had that impulse, the following series of things would not have happened." Song Ren turned to look at her. "Have you ever thought that all of this might be just for us to meet?"
Lin Fan turned his head.
Under the bright moonlight, Song Ren's side face was particularly three-dimensional in the light and shadow, like a charming spirit in the world, trying to lure her to a place she didn't want to go.
Lin Fan looked at him steadily, without evading or blushing. But when Song Ren was about to speak, he turned his head and burst into laughter. "You're right, if it hadn't been for my jump, I wouldn't have met you."
The "we" Song Ren said included Lin Fan and himself. It was not sure if there were others.
But when Lin Fan said "you", he put Song Ren and everyone else together, as if Song Ren was nothing special in her heart like Li Chunhua and Ji Yu.
Song Ren was not sure whether Lin Fan said this to him on purpose.
Did she discover her own thoughts? This is how you reject yourself. Or is it just a coincidence.
Song Ren was silent, but decided to continue. "Then leaving the children aside, haven't you ever thought about finding someone to accompany you?"
This time, Lin Fan kept looking at the sea for a long time without answering him.
But Song Ren knew she heard it. There was no urging, and he stood side by side with her quietly, standing on the shore and looking at the sea.
“Oh, I’m so anxious!” Li Chunhua held his cell phone against the window and stuck out his butt to secretly take pictures.
After he returned to the house, he thought about his wife again. He wanted to call Shi Miao at the beach, but before he went out, he saw Lin Fan and Song Ren walking on the beach through the window. That's a big deal. Just call Gao Fei Ji Yu's video and start the live broadcast.
As long as Lin and Song talked, he took pictures with his mobile phone. When he saw that there was no movement between them, he couldn't help but want to intervene.
"Is it possible that Captain Song's confession was rejected?" Gao Fei said on his mobile phone.
"No." Ji Yu flatly refused, "Captain Song won't fight an uncertain battle, and he won't speak at all until he is sure of the overall situation." "Then what are the two of them like?" Li Chunhua was anxious, "How to talk about it? There are so many things about love? My wife and I were not so awkward back then."
"Brother Li, you and Sister Shi have known each other since we were young, right?" Gao Fei yelled.
"Captain Song has also had a bumpy road in love. He has obviously liked Sister Lin for a long time, but before, he did not dare to express it to his mouth due to various reasons." Ji Yu still kept a calm tone of staying out of the matter, "Now there is also a biological armor , finally the strength is equal, but it doesn’t seem to be of much help to him.”
“Yes!” Li Chunhua slapped his thigh. "I've been talking about it before. With Lin Fan's strength, no man dares to offend her. No one can withstand the punch of a mecha. Now it's better. The leader can also transform into a mecha. He's not afraid of being beaten. .”
"What you said makes it sound like my sister is very violent." Gao Fei stood up for Lin Fan, "My sister doesn't know how gentle she is."
"Brother Li, it's not me who is attacking you," Ji Yu Here comes another blockage. "Even if Sister Lin doesn't get on the mecha, there's a high chance that you'll fall down under her hands."
"Impossible! Absolutely impossible!" Li Chunhua was unhappy, "I don't know Lin Fan yet, what is agility?" High, but her strength is weak, I don’t hold back my strength and let her go a little bit, she Where is the possibility of turning over me?”
“If you don’t believe me, try it later...” Ji Yu saw him waving his phone and couldn’t see the image clearly, so he quickly said, “Aim quickly to see if they are moving. ”
Lin Fan thought about the sea for a long time.
Does she need company? It seems she does.
But do you need that kind of one-on-one intimate companionship? It seems that there is no need for this at present.
And the relationship between men and women is too variable and difficult to control. She herself is not good at dealing with emotional problems. It can be seen from her previous experience that giving a so-so evaluation is considered polite.
It’s easy to break free and relax, why should we take that risk again for a need that is not very necessary?
Lin Fan felt that it was still too risky.
It's not that she doesn't understand Song Ren's gaze, and it's not that she can't feel Wu Yusen's kindness, but she doesn't dare and doesn't allow herself to make the same mistakes again, even if these two people are the best in the world.
But she still didn’t dare.
Furthermore, just because we are comfortable as friends does not mean that we are suitable for being a couple. If it finally breaks down, she will probably face losing one or several friends. It is not cost-effective to use reliable friends to bet on someone who may not be suitable for you.
It’s better to be friends as we are now, stable, long-lasting, and not easy to get hurt.
She found a thousand reasons for herself in her heart and slowly convinced herself to settle for the status quo. If she didn’t get it, she wouldn’t lose it. Putting in work would give a higher return than putting in feelings...
So, Song Ren finally saw her calm and gentle smile.
She said: "When I was a child, I always thought that when I grow up, I won't be lonely, but when I grow up, I realize that loneliness is the normal state of life. I already have the stars, so what more do I need a bicycle."
Song Ren understood her unexplained rejection and did not continue to disturb her. Anyway, Lin Fan himself said that time will change everything.
The two of them walked towards Song Ren's residence one after another as if nothing had happened.
"Hey~Lin Fan smiled, did you agree?" Li Chunhua jumped for joy.
He didn't know that in the information room of the Special Branch, a group of hacker bosses were also watching the live broadcast on his mobile phone screen.
Because they are foreign visitors, all circulation data must be checked first and go through the security inspection process in the information room. So as soon as he made the call, a monitor in the Information Department was directly synchronized.
It was just that no one cared about it at first, until Lin Fan appeared later and was in the same frame as Song Ren. The atmosphere was beautiful, and coupled with the conversation between Li Chunhua and the others, everyone in the information room dropped what they were doing and gathered together to watch the big boss. Gossip.
Wang Fengfeng was even more anxious when he heard what Li Chunhua said.
Where are he from Angkor? How can you allow others to gain points on your own territory? This is a stolen tower!
(End of this chapter)