Chapter 642: Everything yesterday is as clear as water
Su Chengyi walked to the hospital bed and looked up at the hanging bottle.
It was a whole bottle that had just been replaced, and it would probably take one to two hours to complete.
He raised his hand to turn the wheel, adjusting the drip speed to the lowest setting, and then sat down on the bench next to him.
Chu Qingmian slept deeply, probably because the side effects of the sedative had not passed yet. Her face was very pale and not as healthy as usual.
Su Chengyi carefully tucked the raised corners of the quilt, then propped up his chin and looked at her eyelashes in confusion.
Of course he was not in a hurry to wake up the eldest lady, because after today, it would be difficult to have such a chance to get along with her again.
Although Miss Chu seems to be a soft-tempered person, she is always full of sympathy, soft-hearted as a sponge, and very easy to talk to.
However, she is definitely not someone who will tolerate Shura Field.
Regarding his matters, Chu Qingmian has always been very determined.
In the past, it was because of him that I fought tit-for-tat with the whole family, never giving in;
Then, she will definitely leave him today.
In fact, it was the same on both sides. Chen Jinzhi, who seemed harder to deceive, and Chu Qingmian, who seemed easier to deceive, had no room for change once the matter was exposed.
But that's fine, Su Chengyi thought.
Otherwise, he would have to rack his brains at this moment to think of possible ways to save it. Unlike now, he knows it is a dead end, so he just needs to wait quietly for the death knell to ring.
To be honest, I didn’t expect that I was quite optimistic.
Su Chengyi rested his elbows on the edge of the hospital bed, thinking about these messy things for a long time, feeling slightly numb.
According to common sense, he should be caught up in many memories of the past at this time.
For example, the first time we meet, the first time holding hands, the first hug, the first kiss, tears and smiles, heartbeat and heartache.
However, Su Chengyi's mind was blank at this time.
It's like there is a hard-working scrubber who has been diligently scrubbing his mind with an eraser.
Su Chengyi tried to think of something, recall something, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't think. In the end, he was just in a daze.
He couldn't help but wonder if this was a curse from the eldest lady. If he changed his mind, his brain would be confiscated or something like that.
After all, she had always been defeated by him since she was a child. She must have been resentful of this for a long time, and she only wanted to turn him into a silly goose.
Su Chengyi thought like this and raised his eyes to look at the suspicious person on the hospital bed.
This sight made his heart skip a beat.
Chu Qingmian didn't know when she had woken up, and she was looking at him with a pair of eyes like crystal glass.
Su Chengyi's breathing stagnated, and after a long while, he stiffly said:
"Are you awake? Are you feeling better now?"
Chu Qingmian did not answer his question, but just blinked quietly.
Su Chengyi looked at her as if he had something to say, so he moved closer and lowered his head to listen.
Chu Qingmian's warm breath hit his ear, making it slightly itchy.
But she didn't have anything to say, but struggled to lift the quilt, hugged his neck, and buried her hot little face in the crook of his neck.
Su Chengyi was stunned for a moment, hugged her back, and rubbed the top of her hair out of habit.
The smell of fructose in the eldest lady's hair covered up the smell of medicine in the ward very well, like a ray of sunlight filtering through the gap in the heavy curtains.
"Su Chengyi, I seem to have had a very bad dream."
Chu Qingmian's voice was a little hoarse, probably because she had just woken up, and she said in a dull voice.
Su Chengyi lowered her eyes and said "hmm", not knowing how to react, let alone whether the bad dream she mentioned was what really happened today.
"But you're here."
Chu Qingmian raised her head, pushed him away and looked into his eyes.
"In that case, it's probably not a dream."
Her eyes were much clearer than before, as clear and clean as ever.
Su Chengyi couldn't lie to such eyes, so he had no choice but to nod his head and replied:
"Yeah."
"Ah."
When Chu Qingmian heard this, she sighed softly.
She drew back a little, creating an intimate distance between the two of them, ready for a formal conversation.
Chu Qingmian took many etiquette classes when she was a child. The etiquette teacher was very strict. Little Chu Qingmian suffered a lot there, so she learned very well and was praised by almost everyone.
One of the lessons included correction of conversation postures, and Chu Qingmian still remembers the teacher's instructions.
Look at each other and listen to each other. Don't look left or right. Don't let your movements or postures reduce the audience's attention to what you are saying.
It was obviously a habit that had been engraved into his DNA for many years, but now Chu Qingmian felt that just maintaining the appearance was extremely difficult.
It was as if just a speck of dust falling on her would cause all her disguises to collapse in an instant.
"The reason why Chen Jinzhi is involved in this kidnapping case is because of me."
Su Chengyi took a deep breath, straightened his back, and determined not to dodge anymore.
"Wu Shaobo knows the relationship between me and her, and he also knows the relationship between me and you, and what he is most passionate about and interested in is forcing people to make choices. Because he cannot understand people's feelings and is inherently antisocial. Personality.
Therefore, after successfully kidnapping you, he contacted me immediately and asked me to choose between the two of you.
That's why Chen Jinzhi appears there, because she is the other end of the scale. ”
"The relationship between you and her."
Chu Qingmian's expression did not change, she just muttered and repeated his words.
"Is the relationship between you and her the same as the relationship between you and me?"
"Yes. Same."
Su Chengyi's voice was obscure, and he didn't know how he said these four words.
"So that's it."
Chu Qingmian lowered her eyes and whispered as if talking to herself. After a while, she couldn't help but ask questions.
"When did it start?"
"From the beginning."
After Su Chengyi said this, he saw her eyelashes twitching rapidly, and suddenly felt that the blood vessels in his heart were beating violently, causing pain.
"Why."
Chu Qingmian lowered her head and grasped a corner of the quilt with both hands. The cyan blood vessels connected to the needles were clearly visible on her fair skin.
Why is it like this? Why did he lie to her for so long when he clearly liked someone else? Why didn't he let her know the truth until now.
Su Chengyi knew clearly what those words she didn't ask were, so she could only respond with a feeble apology.
"Sorry, it's all my fault."
"If that's the case, why do you want to save me?" Chu Qingmian's voice trembled slightly, but she stubbornly refused to show her timidity.
"Just keep keeping me in the dark, wouldn't you? Su Chengyi, since you want to lie to me, why don't you lie to me to the end?"
She had never spoken to Su Chengyi in such a tone, like a stray kitten that was forced into a corner and finally raised its paws tremblingly towards the person who hurt it.
"You saved me because you wanted me to face all this. You have been lying to me and betraying me. Is this the result you want me to see?"
"The kidnapping was an accident. Since he made such a request, I have no choice but to comply."
When Su Chengyi answered, he tried his best not to look into Chu Qingmian's eyes, otherwise he would probably not be able to say another word.
"Your safety is the most important thing. I can't think about these issues anymore. I can only try my best to save you first, and I will talk about the rest later.
Now, that's after. ”
Having said this, he paused before continuing:
"I won't lie to you anymore. If you want to ask me anything, I will tell you."
"What do you want me to ask you?"
Chu Qingmian looked at the back of her hand, which was slightly blue due to the needle prick, and said in a daze.
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"I don't know, maybe I don't want to ask anything."
Su Chengyi shook his head.
"But there are still some things I think you should know."
The ward was filled with the smell of disinfectant, and you could hear the slight "tick" sound of the hands of the watch turning.
Su Chengyi took a deep breath and said solemnly:
"I still like you, I'm sure of that."
"You don't like me."
Chu Qingmian twitched the corner of her mouth and denied his words without hesitation.
"Su Chengyi, if you liked me even a little bit, you would never treat me like this."
After saying these words, she truly felt that everything she was seeing was real and not just another bizarre dream.
The Su Chengyi in front of me is also real. Is he originally such a liar with superb acting skills?
Weird, Chu Qingmian thought.
She was obviously rescued, but she seemed to have fallen into another abyss, feeling weightless from head to toe.
The light and shadow in the ward were as confused and confusing as her mood at the moment.
"I am greedy and have a bad personality. I am very sorry for you."
Su Chengyi lowered his head, still not daring to look at her paper-pale face and absent-minded pupils.
"You know what, Su Chengyi."
Chu Qingmian slowly stretched out her hand toward him, and the needle in her hand was moved along with her movements, but she didn't know it.
She raised Su Chengyi's chin so that he had to look at her.
"I don't hate you for lying to me. I hate that you didn't dare to look into my eyes when you lied to me."
In fact, there are many things that she should have known a long time ago, Chu Qingmian thought.
I know Jin Chen and Chen Jinzhi, a layer of crisp and Su Chengyi.
How come I didn't notice any clues? I was just deceiving myself and others when things came to a close.
Su Chengyi was obviously not good at deceiving people. He probably only deceived her the whole time.
Many people knew about it, but she was the only one who kept it in the dark, thinking that there would be a lot of future between them.
Little did she know that half of the other person's heart had already been given to someone else, and the words she said to her were also said to another person. When she looked into her eyes, she always thought of the other person.
When I smiled and pinched her face, I was probably thinking the same thing, she was so easy to deceive.
Chu Qingmian sighed softly. The quilt on the hospital bed was soaked with tears, like raindrops falling.
She thought she wouldn't cry, but the tears seemed out of her control.
Su Cheng had seen Chu Qingmian cry many times. She had a low tear level and would cry easily over the smallest things, and she couldn't stop crying for a long time.
But there was never a time like this. There was no sobbing, the tears just flowed down silently, as if she didn't even know she was shedding tears.
Every tear seemed to hit the bottom of his heart, and Su Chengyi felt that just breathing gave him a dull pain in his heart.
Chu Qingmian actually still had a lot to ask, but many of the previous confusions and doubts had been resolved after knowing the ending.
But there is another question that she still can't figure out until now.
"Su Chengyi, you said, if it's not so profound and unforgettable, doesn't it count as love?"
Chu Qingmian's eyes were red, and she looked at him and asked.
Her question seemed clueless, but perhaps only the three people at the center of the Shura field could understand what it meant.
In fact, people often say that green plums are not as good as falling from the sky, and that is why.
Because the sky appears suddenly in life, like a huge boulder slamming into the water, causing waves in the originally peaceful life.
The impact of such a relationship will never occur in a long-lasting relationship like childhood sweethearts.
What's more, this person who came from the sky is Chen Jinzhi. She can no longer be described as a boulder. She is simply a meteorite, or an asteroid that hit the earth.
"Do I have to cut open this heart and show it to you to prove that we are equal?"
Chu Qingmian asked this sentence with tears in her eyes. It is also a sentence that Qingmei can ask the male protagonist who is biased towards heaven in every triangle relationship.
Su Chengyi's breathing stopped for a moment because he had no way to answer this question.
The lyrics of "Spring and Autumn" say:
I didn’t feel sad for you, and I don’t deserve to regret it. You didn’t travel thousands of miles with me, which is not enough to continue the story.
I haven't been rewritten by you, how can I worry about it? I haven't been hurt by you and hated, and my love history has been turned into waste paper.
Although Su Chengyi believed that his feelings were absolutely equal, in fact, from the moment Qingmei turned to Tiansheng, his heart had already turned.
However, he had no choice but to avoid such a bias. He and Chen Jinzhi had gone through too much, enough to decide between life and death.
But this is not fair to Chu Qingmian, because her love will not be less.
The bond between Su Chengyi and Chu Qingmian is definitely not shallow, but in comparison, it is always a little less heroic.
When Chu Qingmian recalled the ties and fate that had existed for so many years, she felt that Su Chengyi had occupied almost her entire life.
When she was a toddler, she finally managed to get a bunch of baked rice cakes but was bitten into them, that game of Go that was turned into backgammon, and the little blind man in sunglasses who suddenly appeared and beat her with a song "Autumn Moon in the Han Palace". "The Bell" for a long time, the many sideways glances she made during the youth when love was just beginning, the young man who suddenly rushed onto the stage in the swearing-in ceremony under the eyes of all the teachers and students in the school.
In a place where Su Chengyi couldn't see, Chu Qingmian quietly took ninety-nine steps toward him. She once thought that that was the last step he finally took towards her.
However, Chunqiu only reproduced important matters.
All yesterday's events are like water without a trace.
(End of chapter)