When it was time for school to end, Zhao Xu and Zhao Momo said hello and then went to the meeting alone.
Walking in the cold corridor, the inexplicable cold air penetrated everywhere, making her feet feel weak.
Her instinct told her that she shouldn't go.
Zhao Xu moved slowly and was still a few steps away from the office when he suddenly woke up:
Even if my mother's letter is important, it is not as important as my own personal safety.
After understanding this, Zhao Xu stopped and planned to walk in the opposite direction.
As soon as she turned around, she bumped into someone.
"We've already come, how can we go back?"
The man's faint voice sounded above her head. In an instant, Zhao Xu felt chills all over his body. He secretly took two steps back and tried his best to stay calm, "My dad told me to go home early, so he didn't watch..."
Before she could finish her words and before she could react, she was suddenly pushed hard, her body lost its center of gravity and fell into the office.
When Zhao Xu came to her senses, she was already in the tiger's den, and the office door was slammed shut.
A loud "bang" made the girl, who was already extremely panicked, almost have her heart jump out of fear.
Li Wu took off his glasses and pinned them to the front of his clothes, then leaned down and put his hands on Zhao Xu's shoulders.
He felt the girl shrinking, which further aroused the animal in him.
"You are good at Chinese, and the teacher likes you very much."
The light emitted from the lenses was even more frightening, and Li Wu lowered his voice, as if he was dressed like a beast.
"They all like to listen to the teacher telling stories. They invited you several times but didn't go. Don't you want to learn knowledge?"
Zhao Xu clenched her fists and was furious, finally verifying her guess:
Li Wu used the excuse of running after-school care classes to find prey.
I don't know how many innocent girls were bullied by him, but they were deeply suppressed by the authority and threat of the "teacher", as well as the shame fueled by traditional concepts and the eyes of others.
More victims have to remain silent.
At that moment, Zhao Xu's fear and disgust towards him were replaced by strong hatred. The girl's eyes widened and she spat at him.
"Crazy!"
"Listening to a beast like you speaking Chinese is tarnishing literature!"
After cursing, Zhao Xu pushed the man hard and tried to escape. But the other party was an adult after all. He restrained her hand, pushed her down on the sofa, and restlessly stretched her hand towards her pants...
At this time, Zhao Xu was panicking to the extreme. A handful of ice water poured down the Tianling Cap. Her body couldn't stop trembling, but her subconscious wanted to protect herself. She pushed her legs outward hard to prevent those dirty hands from getting close to her. .
And her hands scratched the man's face without any plan.
"Help!"
The scream was hoarse, as if it was tearing her throat apart, and the sound was so shrill that it was as if the blood had drained out of her blood, and was about to use up the last bit of the girl's strength.
No matter how hard she tried to escape and escape from this long winter, she eventually became the prey of their evil desires.
"All the students have gone, no one will come to save you." Li Wu smiled evilly and opened the girl's hand. The strength was so strong that there was a vague sound of joint dislocation.
Zhao Xu endured the severe pain and reached for the wallpaper knife in his pocket, but his intention was discovered first.
Li Wu grabbed the knife, smiled coldly, threw it to the ground, untied his belt, and tied the girl's hands...
Perhaps because he was so frightened, Zhao Xu had forgotten his fear, his eyes were blank, and he shed a tear, feeling as if he was looking forward to death in despair.
When the other party tied her hands, she was so scared that she lost her voice. The panic threw her into the bottom of the boundless lake... and sealed her mouth so that she could not scream no matter what.
A pair of dark eyes seemed to be coated with a layer of dust, blocking the last brilliance, leaving only endless darkness covering the rest of his life.
Zhao Xu's eyes were empty and he was looking at the ceiling helplessly. He suddenly remembered what Li Wu had just said and his brows jumped.
What do you mean if the students leave, no one will come to save them?
Where is the teacher? The teacher's office is so close, can't they hear it?
A more terrifying guess immediately emerged...
But at this time, it seemed that Zhao Xu shouldn't worry about the future of others.
She only hopes that a miracle of her own will appear.
At the same time, Zhao Momo just walked out of the teaching building, feeling increasingly uneasy, and said to Zhao Pu beside him, "Would it be bad if we don't go with Zhao Xu?"
The heartless Zhao Pu played with the yo-yo in his hand and said carelessly: "Didn't she leave with us yesterday?"
Although before school, Zhao Xu said he was going to the library to find books to read, in the past, Zhao Momo would not have thought much about it.
But for some reason today, Zhao Xu didn't say that he was going to the library, he just said that he had something to do. This made Zhao Momo's mind race, his heartbeat pounding, and he couldn't calm down.
"I want to go back to find her, you go first!" Zhao Momo turned around and left. Just as he was about to walk into the teaching building, he suddenly thought of going around the flower bed to get closer, so he retracted his steps and walked along the edge of the teaching building towards the library. direction to go.
Zhao Pu didn't want to go home alone, so he thought carefully about this, thinking that this was an opportunity to please Zhao Xu, and then he followed him.
The lower grade classes on the first floor were all gone now. Every time Zhao Momo passed a class, he would stand on tiptoe and look inside to make sure no one was there, and then move on to look at the next one.
Zhao Pu was a little taller, raised his chin and looked in, but found nothing, and continued to play with the yo-yo.
Approaching the office, Zhao Momo seemed to hear a cry for help, so he stopped the yo-yo in Zhao Pu's hand, remained silent, and listened with bated breath.
"Did it come from the teacher's office..." Zhao Pu asked.
Zhao Momo was very afraid of the teacher. He didn't dare to confirm it for a short time, let alone rashly lie down on the window to watch. He had to drag his friends to squat under the window and watch what happened.
But in an instant, the cry for help turned from strong to weak, turning into a rustling whimper, a faint cry, isolated and helpless, and it was heart-wrenching to hear.
Zhao Momo was almost certain that something "bad" was happening inside. She clenched her fists, put her fingertips into her palms, and made the boldest decision in her life:
She immediately stood up and saw the teacher pushing Zhao Xu down on the sofa and about to take off the girl's pants with his hands, his face full of lust and evil, intending to commit an act of aggression.
"This..." Zhao Pu couldn't move his eyes when he saw this scene. This was still difficult to understand for a young boy of his age and childish nature.
Zhao Mo followed Zhao Xu silently, and her thinking was relatively precocious. She immediately realized that she had to save her friend who fell into the tiger's mouth!
Zhao Momo looked down and found a brick from the flower bed. She picked up the brick and, with the boy's surprised eyes, she used all her strength to slap the brick against the window.
——Wow
The glass was cracked from the middle, and large and small glass fragments were scattered like water, falling to the ground with a harsh sound, and one window became incomplete.
Zhao Momo took advantage of the victory and patted it twice with the bricks. Almost the entire window glass was patted down.
Zhao Xu, who fell into the clutches of the devil, originally planned to resign himself to his fate, but lost his last glimmer of hope.
But when she saw the broken window, the sound of the shattering glass was like a symphony welcoming her new life.
She knew that the miracle that would allow her to escape was coming.
Li Wu's eyes changed from surprise to disbelief. Knowing that his misdeeds had been exposed, he looked at the bricks in the girl's hands outside the window and was obviously confused.
"If you... don't go home quickly, I will tell your parents."
It’s already this time and you still want to be a teacher?
Zhao Xu lost his suppression and took advantage of his unpreparedness to jump off the sofa and pick up the wallpaper knife on the ground.
The memory of being extremely embarrassed just now came back. She was no longer soft-hearted, pushed the blade away, and stabbed the back of the man's hand hard...
Perhaps he scratched the artery on the back of his hand, blood spattered out, and a drop fell on Zhao Xu's cheek.
Seeing the man's frightened look, she felt extremely happy, and her eyes narrowed slightly, revealing a hint of coldness.
The two children outside the window looked at each other with big eyes and small eyes, unable to read their little friends for a while.
Because the blood spurting out could not be stopped, the man squatted on the ground, his lips trembling uncontrollably.
Seeing his disgusting look, Zhao Xu sneered, rushed to the desk to grab his mobile phone, threw it out of the window, and left without looking back.
When the two friends saw her leaving, they quickly ran into the teaching building to greet her.
"It's okay, Xuxu." After realizing it, Zhao Momo was frightened, his lips couldn't stop trembling, and the hand holding the tissue almost dropped to the ground.
Zhao Xu was lying when he said he wasn't afraid, but he still tried his best to stay calm in front of outsiders and shook his head.
After the great sorrow, she seemed to have been drained of energy. The back of her legs trembled and she couldn't even walk for a while.
Seeing this, two children, one on the left and one on the right, lifted her up and took her over the winding mountain road.
When Zhao Xu limped home, it was getting late, and the twilight returned to the sky, turning the clouds into a bright red with a hint of grayish brown.
If you ask her to compare it, this scene is quite like a dead tree blooming into spring.
The fallen leaves that linger above the old house all year round are lifeless, announcing the endless wilderness.
But one day, the mountains and rivers pass through the steep mountains, and the greenery peels off the broken withered vines.
In the most inconspicuous place, there is a spring branch on the hairpin.
Sun Haoran couldn't wait for his daughter at home, and was about to go to school. He watched three children approaching from a distance, and his daughter was placed in the middle, and she couldn't walk very smoothly.
He quickly stepped forward, took his daughter's schoolbag, leaned down and frowned, "Did you drop it?"
After all, what happened just now was not very honorable. The three children exchanged glances and remained silent.
"What's wrong with the clothes?" Sun Haoran squinted his eyes and noticed that his daughter's collar was slightly messy. If he looked carefully, he saw a red mark on his wrist, which was obviously a mark of strangulation.
Zhao Pu, who talked the most, hesitated for a moment and finally chose to tell the truth, "Uncle, Zhao Xu was almost bullied by the Chinese teacher Li in his class!"
Zhao Xu wanted to cover his mouth, but it was too late. When he looked up at his father, the man's face showed surprise at first, and then immediately turned to anger.
But for a moment, a low pressure enveloped the sky above several people.
Sun Haoran swore a curse word, and then without any hesitation, he took out the shovel that was pressed against the door.
"Zhao Xu, go home and stay for now. I'll be back in a while." He looked expressionless, but in fact, there was murderous intent in his eyes. He turned around and said something before heading to school with a shovel in hand.
The shovel scraped across the ground, making a squeaking sound.
Zhao Momo was so shocked that he couldn't speak for a moment. After reacting, he tugged on the corner of Zhao Xu's clothes and said in a confused voice: "Xuxu, will it... kill someone?"
Zhao Xu looked at his father's retreating back, his almost barren head shining brightly in the sunset.
Because this unfriendly Mao Cuntou had been slandered many times by her in her heart, he was like a prisoner in a labor camp.
But today, she felt it for the first time.
A man's back is the most reliable existence in the world.
It was getting dark, and Zhao Xu couldn't keep his friend for too long. After the two left, he sat alone in the living room and opened the book he hadn't finished reading yesterday. His eyes were blank and his mind was not on the book at all.
More than half an hour passed without turning a page.
The evil deeds done by the man have been reincarnating in her mind, like a parasitic demon in the deepest place, lingering.
She kept telling herself not to think about it anymore, but the pain hidden under the calm was about to tear her small body apart.
Shame, regret, disgust... come like arrows, always entangled with them.
At that moment, Zhao Xu knew.
This matter is far from over, or in other words, it will never be over again.
Instead, it will spread infinitely and penetrate every corner of her life from now on.
Whenever she dreams back at midnight, she will think of that unbearable scene.
Unconsciously, more than an hour passed and night fell. The silence of the night was enough to amplify all sounds.
The wooden door of the courtyard creaked, and Zhao Xu realized that his father was back. He immediately got up and ran towards the courtyard.
At that time, rural infrastructure was not in place, let alone in the mountains. At night, without the help of lighting, it should be pitch black.
But when Zhao Xu ran out of the house, he was stunned by the scene in front of him:
The man threw the shovel to his feet, then touched the blood on his face with a sinister expression.
The clear moonlight was rising, illuminating the trace of blood on his face, making him look like a ghost seeking his life.
"You haven't eaten yet. Here you go." When Sun Haoran saw his daughter coming out, he put away his fierce expression, wiped his bloody hands on the sleeveless vest, and then handed his daughter the bag containing the meat buns.
He couldn't find anyone at the school, so under the guidance of others, he went to the village hospital instead.
As soon as he entered the door, the doctor was bandaging the wound on the back of Li Wu's hand. When he saw the angry Sun Haoran entering, he was so frightened that he ignored the patient and ran away.
Sun Haoran directly locked onto Li Wu, raised his shovel, and struck at the opponent.
The first blow was on the shoulder, the second on the back, the third on the ribs, and the fourth on the buttocks... Each blow was so hard that it shook his hand holding the shovel. It hurt, not to mention Li Wu, who was lying on the ground, half-dead.
To be honest, at that moment Sun Haoran really wanted to beat this beast to death.
After being beaten passively for dozens of minutes, Li Wu was bleeding all over his body. He was lying in a pool of blood. The rise and fall of his chest was extremely weak, and he was already unconscious.
At this time, Sun Haoran stopped, thinking that it would be better not to cause any loss of life, but he was not willing to leave like this... So he approached the cabinet where the medicine was locked, glanced briefly, and used the reserves of his primary school diploma to vaguely It is judged that 95% alcohol should not be applied directly to the skin.
Then, he took out the alcohol from the cupboard, without changing his expression, and poured the alcohol from top to bottom, directly touching his wound.
Of course, in the end, more than half of the bottle was poured on the dirty things he couldn't control. After finishing the work, Sun Haoran walked away and patted the village doctor on the shoulder as if nothing happened.
The slap on the patient's shoulder caused blood, and the doctor was so frightened that he did not dare to move.
Zhao Xu vaguely smelled the smell of blood in the air, and his long-held composure could no longer be maintained.
The deep grievance in her heart broke through. She took a bite of the bun and burst into tears.
Taking another bite, tears flowed more and more, and he mixed it with the meat filling and ate it together.
Sun Haoran sighed. He wanted to touch his daughter's head, but when he realized there was blood on his hand, he withdrew his hand.
"Crying while eating will make your stomach hurt. If you want to cry again, don't eat."
When he said this, he still had the same expression that was tired of the world, but it had a bit more rare warmth.
Zhao Xu couldn't stop sobbing, but nodded, lifted the bun up, and handed it to his father's mouth.
Sun Haoran lowered his eyes and glanced at Baozi, then at his daughter with tears in her eyes, then he realized and smiled rarely:
"You little heartless thing, are you just going to give me what you have eaten?"
……
When Zhao Xu went out to buy breakfast the next day, he learned that Li Wu had been beaten up by an unknown well-wisher. He was unconscious and transferred to the county hospital. It was estimated that it would be a problem for him to go to work in the future.
After learning the good news, the little girl walked briskly, three steps a step at a time, but the soy milk in her hand was very stable, with no sign of spilling.
"Xuxu? Don't you need to go to school today?"
Zhao Xu stopped, his heart stagnated, and ecstasy replaced the shock.
She turned around, and standing in front of her was the mother she had longed for. Surprised, the little girl rubbed her eyes with her other hand, fearing that this was a dream.
"Mom!" Zhao Xu rushed to her mother and wanted to hug her, but she was holding pie and soy milk in her hands and couldn't put them down. She almost cried.
Zhao Wunan saw his daughter's embarrassment, hugged her tightly and gently stroked her hair.
"You haven't answered Mom yet, why didn't you go to school today?"
Zhao Xu greedily smelled the delicious rose fragrance on her mother's body, racked her brains to think of a reason, buried her little face in her mother's coat, and said unclearly:
"Hmm... um... I don't feel well today, so I didn't go."
In fact, this is not a lie. After yesterday's shock, she took a day off to stay at home.
Zhao Wunan put his hand on his daughter's forehead, feeling heartbroken.
At the same time, he secretly blamed Sun for how he could let his daughter go out to buy breakfast alone.
The village is in chaos, what should you do if you encounter danger?
"Has mom eaten?" Zhao Xu raised his face, hugged his mother's waist tightly, and blinked.
Zhao Wunan put his hand on his daughter's face, his eyes full of love, "Not yet."
"Then let's go back and have dinner together!" Zhao Xu held his mother's hand, fearing that she would run away.
How could she not detect her mother's resistance, but she really wanted to be selfish:
Although she doesn't know why her parents have such a bad relationship.
But... maybe this time, mom and dad can reconcile.
……
When Sun Haoran saw his daughter followed by his wife, whom he had not seen for a long time, his heart was filled with turmoil.
"I'm back." He looked calm and slowly stood up to put away the tableware.
Zhao Wunan didn't want to answer the question, but due to the presence of his daughter, he just said yes and pulled his daughter to sit on the sofa.
The sofa was old and the patent leather on it had fallen off. She stroked the dust on it and twirled her fingers.
Zhao Xu poured hot water for her mother. For fear that the cup would be unclean, she scalded the cup before pouring drinking water.
"Thank you, baby." Zhao Wunan held the glass in his hand. He thought he had something to say, but didn't know how to say it. He lowered his eyelids and fell into deep thought.
"What's wrong with mom?" Zhao Xu asked.
Zhao Wunan looked embarrassed, blinking his eyes from time to time, swaying the hot water in the cup, and said with some entanglement: "Xuxu, mother comes back this time to take you away..."
Before Zhao Xu could answer, Sun Haoran came out with a bowl, placed the bowl heavily on the table, and said in a cold voice: "Have you obtained my consent?"
Zhao Wunan endured the unhappiness in his heart and rarely spoke to him in a good voice: "Aren't I coming back to discuss it with you?"
Sun Haoran glanced at her with half-smiling eyes and said mockingly: "Isn't this the only thing that will happen when you come back?"
The balance between the three of them was shaky because of this sentence, and the day finally came for them to be honest.
The silence of her parents made Zhao Xu feel strongly uneasy. She was afraid of hearing those two words, and her body suddenly tensed up, unable to move due to the tense momentum around her.
"Can you..." Zhao Xu breathed quickly, trying his best to not look so panicked, "Eat first, I'm hungry."
The seemingly distant couple looked at each other impatiently, with cold eyes in their eyes. In the end, they sat down to eat without saying anything more.
Throughout the day, Zhao Wunan tried to take her daughter to her mother's house many times, but Zhao Xu used various excuses to act coquettishly and stay here.
Zhao Wunan couldn't understand his daughter's thoughts, but he hated Sun Haoran so much that he stayed in his daughter's room all day to avoid meeting her.
She could understand her daughter's desire to ease their relationship.
But... whenever she thought of what that man did regardless of her wishes, she felt as sick as if she had swallowed a fly alive. She could not forgive that man no matter what, let alone live in peace with him.
Zhao Wunan held her hand with a gentle expression and asked again: "Xuxu, are you willing to go with your mother?"
Zhao Xu looked away and let go of his hand, feeling lost and not wanting to face this problem head-on.
"Mom, let's wash our feet together!" She quickly changed the subject, without looking at her mother's expression, and went to the yard to fetch water.
Zhao Wunan just wanted to persuade her to stay, but she didn't expect that as soon as her daughter stepped out, the person she least wanted to see came in. She rolled her eyes and walked towards the door.
"It's finally come back, why are you so angry?" Sun Haoran blocked the way, with a half-hearted smile on his lips.
His expression made Zhao Wunan even more angry. She said even more impatiently: "I transferred two thousand to you this month, what else do you want!"
“That’s half my salary!!”
Sun Haoran spread his hands and said, "I didn't ask you about money either."
"Did you say that?" Zhao Wunan pointed at him and said angrily: "As long as I give you all the alimony that Xuxu has received over the years, you will divorce me."
Sun Haoran laughed when he heard this, "Do you think you have paid it off?"
"You..." Zhao Wunan breathed rapidly, his chest couldn't stop rising and falling, and he was so choked that he couldn't speak.
"Wu Nan, you are so anxious to leave me alone, is there someone outside?" Although Sun Haoran raised the corners of his mouth, there was no smile in his eyes, and his tone was indescribably gloomy, which made people feel chilled all over.
Zhao Wunan said angrily: "Does it have anything to do with you?" She didn't want to talk nonsense and walked straight to the door, but her hand was stopped.
At this time, Zhao Xu, who was outside the door, filled a bucket of well water and poured the boiled hot water into the wooden basin in order to delay time.
The skinny girl picked up the big wooden basin and stumbled forward. When she reached the door, she heard her parents quarreling.
That trembling feeling came over again. Thunder seemed to explode above Zhao Xu's head. In addition, the cold moon was like a pool, and the temperature dropped sharply at night. She was so scared that cold blood surged in her hands and feet, and she could not restrain herself from shaking.
Zhao Wunan in the room became angry and accused the other party loudly: "I tell you Sun Haoran! I will divorce you when I come back this time! Then take Xuxu away. Don't you know how much suffering she has suffered with you?"
"In such a cold winter, even the cotton-padded jackets are old. I give you so much money, is it difficult to buy new clothes for your children?!"
Sun Haoran's face was gloomy, his eyes were serious, and he said: "Hello! You are such a good mother!"
"I said I wanted to go out and work hard, but I left my biological daughter here without coming back for more than a year. Instead, I gave other people's wild girls as much pain as they could get."
The watery night fell on the little girl. Zhao Xu's temples were wet with cold sweat, and her whole body was wet with sweat, alternating between hot and cold.
The "wild girl" Sun Haoran refers to is Zhao Ning, who was just born.
Less than a year ago, Zhao Ning's biological mother, a local unmarried girl, was raped and gave birth to her. The girl committed suicide in shame and anger, leaving behind a poor baby.
When Zhao Wunan heard about this, he decided against all opinions to raise the newborn baby as his own.
Afraid that her children would be looked down upon if they stayed in her hometown and would not receive careful care, she had to take Zhao Ning with her even if she went out to work.
But at that time, Zhao Wunan was financially strapped and could not take care of two children at the same time. He could only leave his eldest daughter, who was grown up and sensible, in his hometown for the time being. When his financial situation allowed, he would bring Zhao Xu to Dinghai City.
If you really want to ask why Zhao Wunan is willing to adopt Zhao Ning, just assume that she sees her own shadow in that poor girl.
Snap!
Suddenly there was a loud slap in the room. It was Zhao Wunan who couldn't bear it anymore and slapped the other party.
She couldn't calm down her anger. She clenched her hands into fists and her face turned red. "Please keep your mouth clean. Is Ning Ning willing to give birth to such a father? Or is her mother willing to suffer such unforeseen disasters?!"
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"What's the difference between you and that man? Xuxu will waste her whole life by following a father like you!!"
Sun Haoran was hit in a sore spot, and veins popped up on his smooth head. He grabbed the other person's collar and said coldly: "Apologise."
How could Zhao Wunan bow to him?
She was hating and angry. She closed her eyes, and those painful memories came flooding back.
For a long time, she stretched her brows, her face was terrifyingly calm, and she slowly uttered three words:
"You rapist."
——Bang
The tub fell heavily to the ground.
The steaming water evaporated in the dark night, like a ray of darkness, blackening the white paper.
It eroded the homeland she relied on for survival, and in an instant the mountains collapsed and the earth cracked, dividing her and the people in the house into two ends of light and darkness.
But now, the high platform that carries faith has collapsed, and after the smoke has filled the air, the little girl stands alone in the ruins, lingering only in the memory of her father.
Who is she? Who is she?
It turns out that this is how I was born...
It turns out that mom hates dad because of this...
It turns out that I am one of the shackles that traps my mother from traveling...
It turns out that my father, who depends on me for life, is such a person.
Like hail falling from the sky, it penetrates the cruel truth one after another, attacking the most vulnerable points indiscriminately.
The words and deeds of the people in the house were like a pair of unintentional pushing hands, pushing her into the winter without mercy.
Zhao Xu wished he could hide in the snow and never see any trace of the human world again.
The little girl was wet all over and faced the cold wind, but her heart was the one that suddenly cooled down, so that she couldn't feel the cold at all.
Zhao Xu couldn't hear the obstruction from behind, and just wanted to escape, escape from the wilderness of fate, and find a peaceful world.
She ran hard, but accidentally tripped over the threshold.
I opened the door with too much force, and the shell wind chime at the door fell to the ground.
Although the skin on Zhao Xu's palms has been scratched, the secreted serum clings to the sand, and the blood and dust are mixed on the palms, which makes his heart hurt.
At this time, she ignored the pain, wiped her tears randomly, picked up the shell wind chime, ran towards the mountains, and disappeared into the vast night.
At that moment, Zhao Xu just wanted to take her dream and escape forever.
Go to a paradise where there is no danger in the world and wander alone.
……
In the following years, Zhao Xu went to junior high school and left Tonghua County as he wished.
As a little girl who loves reading, she still does not change her habit of occasionally taking excerpts, and her main focus is still the four-line square book.
In fact, her family was already well off at that time, but she still had a special affection for the four-line square book.
Like many middle school girls, Zhao Xu occasionally likes to write a few pretensely profound words in a square notebook.
On Mother's Day, she heard the news again that her parents were getting divorced.
Zhao Xu thought he had become insensitive, but when he heard the two people arguing, his heart still ached, a pain that almost broke through his flesh and blood.
Zhao Xu turned to an empty page in the grid book and wrote:
[I want to save my mother, even if...]
Even what?
No matter what, she didn't understand it.
It happened that there was a very popular word "living towards death" at that time, so she used this word to complete the whole sentence.
At that time, Zhao Xu simply thought that this sentence was to express that she would give everything to protect her mother.
Later, it was indeed the case.
But...where is dad?
Zhao Xu remembered that although that man looked emotionless, his words were also unpleasant. But he would still wait for her after school at the door every day, give her the biggest chicken drumstick, warm her milk every morning... and almost beat to death the person who hurt her.
Should I miss it?
Then don’t think about it.
Later, after Zhao Xu entered high school, he didn't have so much time to excerpt sentences.
She thought the words written in the four-line square notebook were childish, but she didn't want to throw it away. Finally, she took advantage of the class practice activities to bury it in a chemical plant in the suburbs.
As for why she chose there, it’s probably because:
There was a large explosion in that chemical plant a few years ago, and few people set foot there. It is a place where secrets can be hidden.
(End of chapter)
The author said: I don’t know if everyone can understand the origin of Zhao Xu’s childhood shadow. On the one hand, she was almost molested by her teacher, and on the other hand, she learned that her father, who depended on her for life, had actually made coercive actions towards her mother. , this is no different from the teacher who wxed her, so her father's image collapsed, and her trust in all men dropped below zero.
Zhao Xu's father was not treating her badly, on the contrary, it was okay. However, if the person she loved did something that went against her moral knowledge, to a certain extent, it would be better for her to treat her badly in the first place, and she wouldn't do it. The pain of experiencing the collapse of faith.