Chapter 254 Childhood and shame
Lin Mochen lowered his head and smiled, "In addition to that denial, I also heard that you are friends with me because you pity me."
"You know when I was a child, I was most afraid of others' 'poor'. I can accept that you don't like me, but if even the friendship between us is a gift, it is something I can't accept anyway..."
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"No! I haven't said that!"
Xu Jiayu slapped the table angrily and stood up.
Lin Mochen looked at Xu Jiayu with a red face in front of him, and in a trance imagined that on that rainy afternoon, she spoke in person and accused Teacher Zhu of her appearance.
He took her hand and clenched it tightly, "Wife, don't you know what you know? When I was a child, I was sensitive and timid. I didn't hear what you said later and ran away..."
"Young people in adolescence have a strong sense of self-esteem. They care especially about what others think of themselves and hope to be recognized and respected by others. This makes their self-esteem extremely fragile, and they often feel hurt and wronged because of a little bit of small things. .”
"After looking back many years, even I feel naive, but for fifteen-year-old Lin Mochen, that's indeed a shame. I sat on the side of the playground, annoyed you to say that, and longed for you to come and find him. Me, but you didn't come until I waited until school."
Lin Mochen suddenly laughed out loud when he said this, "I was so stupid at that time. I even secretly vowed not to be friends with you again, but when I saw you walking out of the school gate with a dejected head, my "hate" The intention immediately disappeared, ridiculously, the "hate" meaning did not even last for an hour."
"At that time, I hated you didn't like me, I hated you for your kindness to my friendship, but what about you? I always stared at me with my innocent big eyes and asked me why I ignored you, but you What do I want to say? I can only learn to hold back my heart that wants to see you and stay away from you, because only then can I control my heart that misses you."
"It was from then on that I realized how much I miss you and said, 'Lin Mochen, go, let's go home'."
"I became a little older later and I realized that it was not 'hate' at all, but obsession."
Lin Mochen didn't give Xu Jiayu a chance to interrupt. After saying it in one breath, he let out a long sigh. The wrinkles between his eyebrows gradually unfolded, and a faint smile appeared on the corners of his mouth, like a self-mockery smile.
At that moment, he seemed to have taken off the heavy burden on his shoulders and raised his hand to hold her into his arms. "Everything is over, everything is just right."
Xu Jiayu didn't know how to describe her mood at this moment.
She was a little melancholy. Although she had known that Lin Mochen had a crush on her first, she was a little inexplicably happy to hear Lin Mochen dissecting her sincerity and telling her her mood at that time.
"You always do this, keep everything in your heart! I'm not a worm in your belly. How can I know what you think if you don't say it?"
As soon as Xu Jiayu spoke, she realized that her voice was choked up at some point.
Lin Mochen smiled, "You said there will be no more concealment or deception between us, and we will never again." His voice came from his chest, with a reassuring shock, "No matter what happens, Let's go together."
Hearing this sentence, Xu Jiayu felt the grievance, anger and unwillingness that had been pressing down on her heart for several days, and at this moment, they all turned into a sour tide and rushed into her eyes.
While moved, she also discovered Lin Mochen's intention.
I deliberately opened up the past to gain her pity on excuses, and then talk about the tumor in her head.
Xu Jiayu wiped his eyes and raised his head, and pointed at his head stubbornly.
"Lin Mochen, don't just fool me like this! I have a pituitary tumor in my head, why do you want to hide it?"
Lin Mochen sighed. The thing he was most worried about and least wanted to face finally came.
Compared to the boy's self-esteem, this matter is the point where the joke is between the two, so he took the initiative to mention that matter, hoping that Xu Jiayu would forgive him for his ten-year relationship. .
"Because the tumor is benign, there is no need for surgery."
Xu Jiayu exploded suddenly, "But the tumor grows in my head. I have the right to know. You shouldn't hide it from me."
"Yes, I admit that I am wrong, I apologize to you."
Lin Mochen seemed to have a good apology, but Xu Jiayu felt a punch on the cotton. She vaguely felt that Lin Mochen didn't want her to get rid of the tumor.
So she spoke directly and expressed her demands. "I want to have surgery to remove the tumor."
"No! As long as the surgery is performed, there will be damage and there will be risks!"
Lin Mochen also stood up and directly rejected her decision without any hesitation.
Looking at his lower side face, the corners of his mouth were pursed into a straight line, and the lines on his chin were tighter than usual.
It was a look that Xu Jiayu had never seen on his face - not anger, not sadness, but a deep and indelible helplessness.
It seemed as if she was an unreasonable child.
really.
"Why? I'm sick and have a tumor in my brain. If I'm sick, I should be cured. Lin Mochen, you are a doctor. Is what I said wrong?"
"But the tumor does not affect your normal life. Pituitary tumors are very common benign tumors. Many people have taken it for a lifetime and don't know that they have this disease. Wife, just have surgery..."
"Lin Mochen!"
Xu Jiayu directly interrupted him, "Don't tell me anything, there is risk as long as surgery is performed. I am not that aunt, I am only thirty years old! The tumor grows in my head, and I care about its existence all the time. It has seriously affected my life! ”
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"Don't look at me with that look. I didn't joke with you. Even if you don't agree, I will take it off. I don't believe that you are the only neurosurgeon doctor in H City."
After Xu Jiayu said that, she pushed Lin Mochen away from the way out in anger and ran out of the cafe angrily. Lin Mochen subconsciously chased him out. Before he could reach the door, a woman's voice suddenly came from behind.
"Director Lin, please stay."
The coffee was finally served on the table, and at this moment, what was sitting in front of Lin Mochen was Zhang Ying and her little daughter.
Lin Mochen frowned slightly, raised his hand and looked at the time, "Director Zhang, I don't know what's wrong with you calling me, you saw it too. My wife just left, I must find her."
Director Zhang Ying, nicknamed "Iron Girl", actually smiled, "Director Lin still remembers that you said last time that 'medical technology' and 'humanistic care' are the two wings of medicine'. Do you think this sentence?" >
Lin Mochen was obviously stunned and raised his head in surprise, "Director Zhang, what did you say?"
Time flies, and months always feel like it passes in a flash.
Thank you for your love for Dr. Lin and Xiaoyu!
25 years have arrived!
Happy New Year to everyone! Wealth is coming!
As we bid farewell to the old and welcome the new, I still thank you all for your support!
Your love is my motivation to persevere!
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Today is also a day to love your babies.
Lin Mochen’s warm reminder:
At the beginning of the new year, everything will be renewed. Babies should remember to stay up late while celebrating the festival. I wish you good health.
Of course, a certain Dr. Lin will live up to expectations and continue to practice love words in the new year.
In 2025, come on.