Chapter 8 Not satisfied
Chu Yan was just bored at home, so she thought of going out for a walk. Unexpectedly, she was controlled by the little black cat in the community for more than ten minutes. She thought it was interesting to tease the cat, but she had absolutely no idea of raising a cat.
She and Shen Xing made dinner together. The ingredients were bought at the vegetable market not long ago. When making tomato and egg soup, Chu Yan habitually added a lot of sugar to it. Shen Xing saw it, but didn't say anything. .
The way he got along with Chu Yan had always been based on Chu Yan's unconscious habits. He had never thought of correcting them. Perhaps more accurately, he liked whatever Chu Yan thought he would like.
Shen Xing was about to graduate. He used writing work documents as an excuse. After washing up, he went into the study to write his graduation thesis. For some reason, he couldn't calm down. From time to time, he would come to the door and glance at the sofa sitting on it. Chu Yan watching TV.
Chu Yan had a quiet temperament. She opened a news channel at random, hugged her knees and leaned on the corner of the sofa, her back looking lonely.
For a moment, Shen Xing felt that he was no different from Gu Chuan.
He walked out of the study and came to the sofa. He bent down and picked up Chu Yan. When he sat down again, Chu Yan sat on his lap.
She was used to his sneak attacks from time to time, and looked at him with bright eyes, "Are you done with your work?"
She had no one to talk to, and she had forgotten whether she had any friends. There was only Shen Xing in the address book on her phone. If Shen Xing was not there, she would be immersed in a dead world alone.
However, just once, the drunk Gu Chuan fell in front of Shen Xing and said painfully: "You don't understand, she has changed... She became hysterical, I am very scared, she seems to be someone I don't recognize... …”
Shen Xing bent down, gently touched her forehead with one hand, brushed her forehead hair away, and saw the mark of the scar.
But she never cared about this scar and never felt distressed about it.
Shen Xing saw his own shadow in her beautiful eyes. It was different from before. Her eyes were now full of his shadow.
He laughed crisply and kissed her.
Chu Yan will not change, never will.
He seems a little clingy now, and Chu Yan doesn't hate it. In fact, she has always been cooperative with every hug and kiss Shen Xing gives her. His strong and passionate emotions are spurting towards her every moment. However, no one would have the heart to reject someone who expresses his love to him with every glance.
Chu Yan fell on the sofa, and Shen Xing lay on her body. When they ended the passionate kiss, their breaths were a little confused.
Shen Xing locked eyes with her with hidden emotion and asked softly: "Aren't you bored at home alone?"
Chu Yan thought for a while and nodded, "A little bit, but I will send you messages when I am bored. Seeing that you reply to me soon, I won't feel bored anymore."
Just such a small thing, she actually felt satisfied.
Shen Xing was not satisfied.
Extremely unsatisfied.
"Our friends are all worried about you. I'll take you to meet them this weekend, okay?"
Chu Yan was a little excited and a little timid, "But I don't remember them..."
"It doesn't matter, I'll get to know them again with you." Shen Xing buried his face in the crook of her neck, her breath lingering on the tip of his nose. He smiled briskly and said, "Yanyan, our friends are all very good people. "
Even though the identity he had with her now was still false, even if more people knew about her existence, it would increase the risk of his lies being exposed, but he couldn't bear it anymore.
He still clearly remembers that in his second year of junior high school, he sneaked in on the day of the Guchuan school sports meeting.
At that time, Chu Yan was participating in the 800-meter race. Her white sportswear was neat and clean, and her white shoes were like a fluttering butterfly when she ran. Her ponytail, which was tied up high, outlined the arc of youth in the light and shadow. She moved forward without looking back amid the cheers of the crowd. The moment she crossed the finish line, that bright and beautiful smile ran through every unspeakable dream she had in her youth.
But the person waiting for Chu Yan at the finish line at that time was not Shen Xing.
Shen Xing wanted to occupy every stage of Chu Yan's life, but this was not realistic, so in the world of mixed reality and falsehood he built for her, he despicably let himself replace another person.
Chu Yan asked curiously: "Who are our friends?"
"Let's talk about your best friend first. Her name is Fang Fang. She is the Chinese class representative of our high school class. Her husband is the deputy monitor of the class. We often meet at class reunions. Fang Fang is now a junior high school student. Teacher, you still go out for shopping occasionally."
"I have many good friends. There is a boy named Gao Fei. I have known him since kindergarten. But he later went abroad and you have never met him. Now he and I work in the same company. We Considered a colleague.”
"They should all have time on the weekends. I want you to meet your old friends and the friends who know me."
Shen Xing hugged her and lay on the sofa, his tone always smiling. When he mentioned his old high school life, he showed nostalgic eyes from time to time, which made Chu Yan, who had forgotten that memory, couldn't help but have a strong sense of it. feel.
He said that she was always ranked first in her grade, which made him very dissatisfied as he was always ranked second in the exams at that time.
He also said that one semester, she broke her leg while riding a bicycle. He was the class monitor, so he had to carry her up and down the stairs for a whole month.
He also said that in fact, they had fallen in love with each other a long time ago. On the day of the graduation ceremony, in order to avoid other people's confessions, the two of them hid in the shadows behind the complex with a tacit understanding.
Under the green camphor tree, they secretly had their first kiss.
Chu Yan listened very carefully, but because she forgot so completely, many times it seemed like she was listening to other people's stories.
The more he spoke, the brighter the smile on Shen Xing's lips became, but perhaps he noticed the strangeness in Chu Yan's eyes, and his black eyes gradually became more hazy.
Chu Yan couldn't help but touch his face, "Shen Xing, I'm sorry."
He was slightly stunned, "Why did you suddenly say sorry to me?"
"I broke your heart."
Shen Xing's throat suddenly tightened, blood was rushing through his body, but his body was getting cold. This sense of imbalance between the inside and outside felt like cruel self-torture for a moment.
"Idiot." His voice was a little hoarse, he patted her head and laughed out loud, "You are not wrong, never apologize to me."
It was too late and Chu Yan couldn't stay up late.
Shen Xing picked her up into the bedroom, put her on the bed, covered her with a quilt, and kissed her on the face, "Yanyan, good night."
Just like before, after accompanying her into the bedroom and watching her lie down, he would go to the next room.
But this time, Chu Yan grabbed his hand and said, "Shen Xing."
He asked: "What's wrong?"
"Why don't you sleep with me?" She sat up from the bed. Her long hair was as soft as moonlight. A strand of black hair made the exposed skin under the suspender nightgown look as white as jade.
Her fingers inserted into his fingers and intertwined with his, she said: "I want to sleep with you."